sth is stirring deep inside of me once again

e feeling is so familiar

but its not the same anymore...

things are jux different

there's no disappointment, anticipation nor commitment

in exchange for all that are memories & alot of qns that we know there will be no ans to it..

sometimes,

its because of the uncertainty that makes thing so beautiful..

mayb life muz haf some imperfection to make it more perfect...

went to color my hair wif gery at JE yest.. finally gt the time n company to go n color my hair wif me.. the whole thing took us 4 hrs n tat's excluding treatment... really haf no time for that cox i need to go n meet andy at JE stn to go down to holland v..

gery came wif us to celeb shu's b'day.. we went to eat the holland v XO fish head noodles.. its e 1st time i went there to eat.. its damn nice.. i muz bring my mum n dad to come n eat soon.. haha.. their prawn paste chicken oso very nice n cripsy.. aft our dinner, we went to haf ice cream at Gelare... so sinful cox i eat another brownie wif ice cream.. there goes my diet plan again... been gaining weight like duno wat.. thk within tis mth, i had already gain 4 kg.....

aft eating at Gelare n when shu came, we decide to go to wala wala n chill.. cox we wanted to countdown to shu's b'day.. at 1st we were sittin at e 1st floor toking n chilling.. but we gt bored ard 11 plus n decide to go up to e 2nd floor where there's a live band.. the singer was damn gd n cool.. iLOVE guys who can sing.. he is damn mesmerising.. haha.. we asked him to sing shu a b'day song at 12 n he did.... we end the nite n took a cab back aft the band sang their last song at 1230.....

will upload the photos soon... :)

i am damn suay recently... being scolded by a bastard who gif me a stupid excuse that his ex stole his hp n she was e one who threw me all those verbal insults at me.. den jux now went for tuition n on e way was hit by a soccer ball when i walked pass the bball court.. tis is not all, i jux realised that i cant charge my hp now & my phone is going flat DAMN SOON..... jux how suay can i get?????

went for shu's b'day celeb @ her place yest.. her theme for the party is uniform, which means i haf to dig out my JC uniform n wear it.. damn long din iron the uniform n see it le, really reminds me of the time i was in jc.. time really flies, it had been 3 yrs since i last wore that uniform.. luckily i am driving today or else i duno how am i going there lo.. i cant believe that the guys actually wear the uniform from their place to JP to get shu's present n den went to her house.. really salute em..


us in our JC uniform.. how i miss my JC days..


the b'day ger wif her parents n cake..

stayed there until 11 cox jackson wan to rush home n watch the soccer match.. felt really lazy to change out of the uniform thus, i wear it back home together wif em.. cant imagine wat the police will thk if they happen to see us during a roadblock.. haha..

yest was e most fucked up day of my life.. its all because of a stupid person or i should say a damn big FUCKER.. i haf never seen or met someone who is that bastard n jerk n fucked up in my entire life!!!! let's hope i wont be seeing one anymore at all in tis lifetime.. never ever felt so insulted in my life b4 but i thk its even more insulting for him cox he should feel embarrassed abt himself for wat he said to me... it only shows how ill-mannered he is n how bastard he is...

thk he should be taught a lesson la but in e end din even bother to do that.. felt that its jux a waste of my time only.. shall not waste my time n energy on this kinda of ppl..

went to jalan kayu for supper aft a very sian clubbing trip at zouk.. we only stayed for less den half an hr n went off le.. e music is jux not our type n e crowd even worse.. thk that will be my shortest clubbing trip ever.. had a bottle of beer n felt damn seh already.. thk u jux cant drk when u are feeling upset n down cox its really easy to haf e 'seh' effect...

aft supper we went to edward's place cox dun thk i can go home in my state.. was feeling damn emotional la.. did n say alot of stupid things.. even cried in front of em, its e 1st time i cried so openly in front of others, felt so weak n vulnerable.. the tears jux cant seem to stop falling.. but i was really glad they were wif me, felt so much beta aft all e crying n taking a nap.. hehe..

thk wat happened today was a wake up call for me.. its really time for me to get back on my studies n change my priority now... so wat happened might be a blessing in disguise oso..

feeling feverish now.. thk my immume system is really down recently.. kp falling sick n stuff.. 1st is my intestine pro den yest is sore throat now, fever.. when am i going to be healthy again....

today was my duet superstart prelim round at the atrium.. wake up at 9 to prepare cox i need to be in sch by 11.. gery was really nice to come specially from NUS aft her lect to come n support me.. i love u darling, u are damn swt la.. hehe.. den wilson, brandon came down to support us oso.. but really sorry to disappoint u guys cox we din get into e finals on fri due to some reasons that i thk is quite stupid la.. haiz..

aft the whole thing ended, i went down to bugis wif billy n gery cox we wan to go bai bai n the fortune telling thing.. but too bad the fortune teller was not there n the shop owner say she will only be back in 2 wks time..

aft that, i went to meet alvin, edward, meiyan n anna for ktv at civics centre.. was feeling damn cold inside the room la.. luckily alvin was nice enuff to lend me his jacket or else i will be freeze to death le.. duno isit because i am sick or wat, aft singing for less den 3 hrs, i am feeling damn lethargis n sian le.. cant wait to get out of that 'freezer' n go to haf my dinner.. alvin drive us to chong pang to haf the nasi lemak.. its my 1st time there den i dun thk its as nice as i tot it would be given the publicity it has... therefore, fame is actually nth in life... haha..

ok thk i beta go n haf some rest le.. still feeling unwell now n i am damn pissed off cox i still cant find the IM journal that my lecturer ask us to find at e online library la.. argh~~

was back from genting on sat but feeling too lazy to come here n update wat had happened.... its like there is so many things to write but i duno where should i start wif 1st.... so i thk i jux write wat i thk is impt ba...

it had been more den a yr since my dad last went on a vacation wif us.. the previous time he went to genting wif us was b4 teck went into NS, it was our 1st n last time we go abroad.. although our family had gone to genting for alot of times, tis time round the feelings are the best among all... we felt closer toether n there is more interaction.. my dad is more loving to my mum n he try to participate in wat we do as much as he can.. last time when we went, he will jux wan to stay in the hotel room n slack there thruout our whole trip there.. but tis time round, he will go ard the theme park wif us n sit at the cafe toking wif us, enjoying the mist.. we are more like a family now rather den seperate entity.. haha.. i really love tis feeling n the bond we are sharing..



having our meals @ genting..


the theme park moments.. we are having so much fun.. hehe..


on the ferris wheel in the indoor theme park.. its really very nice..


dun my bro look cool in tis pic?? some ppl even thk he is my BF....

woke up at 9 plus today cox needa go to sch for e duet superstar thingy.. at 1st i tot it was jux a rehearsal thing but when we reached there, den we realised that its actually an AUDITION.. billy & i din even practise at all b4 tis.. its all my fault cox i haf been really busy recently n dun haf e time to meet him n practise.. feel really sorry towards him..

aft one round of practise at the LT, we start the audition le.. the person-in-charge told us they will gif us a call if we get thru the audition.. really hope they will call us.. or else i will be damn guilty la.. haha... went to the odac room wif billy n his frenz.. i am now a odac member due to the duet superstar thing.. hehe..

met my mum at bugis cox we wan go bai bai there.. billy went down there wif me cox he was meeting his frenz there.. we went to shop ard at bugis but i din buy anything.. thk i shall haf my shopping spree at KL tis coming fri.. haha.. looking forward to it..

had our dinner @ Sizzlers, its one of the restaurant that me n my mum both love to go to... but thk the last time we both went together was during last yr national day.. hehe...

was out for e past few days.. finally the family pro was solved n a heavy stone was like lifted from my chest.. felt really relac n free but at some pt i am still quite angry wif myself.. gt my results on thur, all meet my expectations except for econs.. chatted wif alvin on e phone cox he was quite upset n sian abt his results.. in e end, i slp at 5 plus n woke up at 7 plus e next day cox e whole family is going out for dim sum..

although i am really tired, i still feel happy cox e whole family is ok now n we are having really gd appetite... aft the meal, dad drive us back home & went out for some business stuff le.. as for me, i helped to book our Genting trip online... thk we really need a vacation for e family..

i met anna at e stn n went down to chinatown to meet waiteng n weng for ktv.. we sing from 2 to 6pm.. everyone was really tired aft singing for 2 hrs.. esp me, i am like napping most of the time la.. den my throat wasnt feeling well too, thk its all because of e late nite slping thing.. took some video but decide to upload tis most funny one.. haha..

aft the ktv, we went straight to pasir ris cox waiteng's frenz is there waiting for her.. we reached the chalet at 7 plus n dabao mac there.. aft dinner, we started preparing for our nite at Zouk.. we went to clarence's chalet nearby aft amanda came to say hi to him.. din know the chalet was for his b'day one so i din buy him any present.. hehe.. we took a cab down aft staying there for a while..

anna's frenz gt tis invite thing for e nite so we did not pay for our cover.. hehe.. it was quite empty n boring inside e club as the time is still quite early.. so we walked out n went to look for edwin, who was there wif his frenz.. we started playing finger guessing game n waiteng gt quite high aft a few rounds.. haha.. anna had to take the drks away n stop her from drking anymore.. we head to e dance floor n dance.. it was really fun clubbing wif em, thk we haven club wif each other for more den a yr le.. edwin came over n join us aft that, helping us to get away from those 'lang'.. haha..

we went off at 3 cox edward n ian were here to fetch us back.. but because edward lost his wallet on his way down to find us, they had to go make a police report 1st.. so we walk down to haf bak ku teh at ms while waiting for em.. only reached the chalet at 430, u can imagine how tired i am already lo.. been up for almost 22 hrs, really can die ah.. but i still went over to clarence's chalet, only to find him seh once again.. so i chatted wif barnabas, junren n gin instead.. aft some time we felt really bored n started playing finger guessing n that's the most stupid thing i did la.. barn was really gd n i kept drking.. moments later, i am too seh to play n need to lie down le.. started toking crap n nonsense aft that.. damn pai seh.. in e end, i jux lie down n fall aslp at e porch.. it was only when the sky started becoming bright den we went into e chalet n slp...

we were awaken by the chalet staff cox it was way past the check out time n we are still there.. haha.. we packed up really quickly n went to the recept there to check out.. the 3 of em went to waiteng's chalet to rest for awhile b4 going back.. as for me, i am still having a little hangover.. so aft my brunch, i went upstairs n sontinue to slp until 4 plus.. haha..

the 4 of us kp on taking pictures while waiting for waiteng's fren to come.. den waiteng asked us to help her write n decorate her guestbook.. look at how serious we are...


dont u thk gals who are serious looks the prettiest..


the magic begins....


the b'day gal & us..


the LESBIAN frenz.. ( anna jux like kissing me tis days... )

aft the cake cutting session, i went home wif yang n qi.. din stay overnight cox i am quite worried abt my mum.. she jux hurt her ankle n hands 2 days back.. b4 going home, i still need to dabao for my little sis la.. she is always feeling hungry one lo.. haha..