a weekend is over once again... after being in the workforce for more den half a yr, i finally understand why ppl keep saying weekend always passes by in a flash.. now, i am feeling the exact same thing...

Fri night:

Met up with cheng, billy & shan for buffet @ Rajah Inn.. it was a supposed to be a small catching up session with the uni frenz including with jean.. But she din manage to make it cause of work in the end.. we eat until 9 plus b4 going to billy's place for MJ.. cheng's house got blacklisted by us.. haha..

Dear came to meet us after work cause he wanna play also.. we played until 12 plus b4 going back to his place.. din play another round because next day i am having seminar n for billy, he has to work also..

Sat :

Woke up early in the morning cause of the seminar at DBS auditorium.. this is the 3rd time we went there for seminar in a year... as usual, the whole seminar ends ard 2 plus.... i was quite tired after the seminar & went to benny's place to rest until 5 plus b4 going out to have our dinner...

Sth unhappy happened.. I was abit grouchy when I was hungry & this caused the whole issue... We went to Orchard to have dinner first b4 heading to AMK for movie cause i was having gastric already...

The place was really crowded during the weekend & the new ION Orchard is almost open.. Can see the crowd queuing outside the new LV shop there.. We wanted to have Fei Cui one but because of the queue and movie to catch, we give it a miss & went to have MOS burger instead.. After that, things got abit better & we walk ard Orchard b4 heading to AMK..

On the train there, another issue occurred.. But this time round, i duno i wan to laugh or i wan to be angry over it.. We went to get our ticket first b4 heading to Courts.. I had been wanting to get a new camera for quite some time & from the newspaper, dear saw Courts is having some mega sale.. so we decide to go there & see whether the Casio model I wan is on the sales list also....

It wasnt long b4 i saw the model & its on sale also.. Dear bought it for me as my belated bday pressie.. :) Was really happy cause i manage to get the camera & it is a present from someone i love.. :) After payment, we walk really fast back to the theatre cause the show was about to start le... We were quite lucky cause Transformer havent start even after we were late for the show time & still went to buy popcorn... Hee...

The show was alright.. I still prefer the 1st one.. :) After the show, i took a train back home.. As for dear, he went to meet his frenz @ Orchard to drk...

Sun:

Slp until 11 in the morning.. Was supposed to have breakfast with mummy @ Delifrance one but she said dun wan.. Think she wanna let me slp more n dun wan me to waste money also.. :)

Watch TV until 1230 & went to charge my new camera b4 heading for a short nap again..

Dear came ard 330 after his soccer game & lunch with his frenz @ Jurong Pt.. So happy can see him again today.. He really made an effort to come & acc me though he slp quite late yest night...

We took a nap together as the weather is really perfect.. We overshot & slp until 6 plus.. Decide to eat first b4 catching Ice Age 3 ard 745.. Went to eat Botak Jones near my place.. When we step out of my house, it was only drizzling.. But when we reach the kopitiam, it started raining heavily..

The rain din subside & continued.. After eating our meal, we walk to the bus stop to the a bus down to CWP.. We miss 2 buses cause of the traffic light & couldnt run in the rain.. We only decide to watch it another day after waiting for a while at the bus stop.. While waiting there, i was shivering cause of the weather.. But dear was perfectly fine.. Think i really have a weak constitution lo..

We came home & watch the Channel 5 War of the World in my room.. Dear, went back after the show.. By then it was still raining lo.. Really scare he will catch a cold while on his way back... :(

new experience everyday..

read thru an article last week talking about how we should look at our everyday life... yes, we might seem to be doing the same thing every day, like on weekday we will go to work the same time, do almost the same thing n knock off feeling tired n after bathing n having our dinner, will jus lie on our bed n end the day..

but when u really notice the things that u do, the ppl that u met, u will realise that every day is itself diff from one another... from now on, i will use photos to tell u my story every day if its possible for me to do so...

ever since i started work, i have this feeling of losing myself n such.. its today when i fell sick n rest at home did i realise that at times, we really need to slow down n enjoy every moment.. i dun wan to lead a monotonous lifestyle but wat i am doing recently is wat i hate the most... from now on, i will try to notice the difference in my everyday life, even if its the smallest detail i can ever find...

let's start on last sat...

as usual, i woke up ard 2 plus at his place.. had a late night previously, that's why we woke up so late.. went to Vivo to have our 2-in-1 brunch & tea break at sushi tei.. tried their sashimi salad with the wafu sauce.. i was totally 'wow' by it, think i am addicted to it already..

went to service my bro's phone b4 going for another 'meal' at bakers inn... very long din go there for their dessert le.. on top of that, i also need to get my first coffee of the day.. am used to drinking coffee when i woke up to perk me up.. w/o it, i will seem quite lethargic at times... when i was walking over the our directed seat, sth happened.... i got tripped over my shoes & the next moment i know, i was already on the floor with my knee feeling super painful... dear, was totally caught off guard.. i knew my knee will have a very very big 'blue-black' for the next couple of days or mayb even weeks....... lucikly, the superb dessert compensate wat had happened earlier on....



we decide to go to orchard after that to catch a movie but din manage to.. watching movie on a sat with a blockbuster showing & w/o booking ticket b4 hand is super troublesome... we go on a window shopping spree instead.. go n source ard for my camera.. am thinking of getting a new one cause the one that i am had is having some problem already.. the batt life sucks & it does not have a stabilisation mode..



we went to shop ard for dear's bday present also.. really wan to get sth that he like for his day.. erm, think mus go shopping with him more this days.. like that den can know wat is his likes n dislikes more.. :)



we went to Auston for late dinner.. feel really good to be able to eat steak during that time of the night n going home to nua after that.. well... simple things like that can make one contented too.. :)

Batam Trip~~

just came back from my weekend getaway with Benny @ Batam.. It was really relaxing & rejuvenating, not forgetting to mention that its my first time there.. I havent felt that for very long, think the last time i felt that was b4 i started work... My body & myselg havent felt so relaxed ever since i started work & this worsen when i started trading a few weeks back.. This is also the 1st time i felt time is on my side & did quite alot of things with Benny..

On Sat morning, we woke up ard 730 cause we need to catch the ferry at 930 but we are required to reach there an hour earlier.. After checking-in, we went to have breakfast at Mac & its because of the breakfast, we nearly miss the ferry.. Must rush off to catch the ferry & din have a good chance to shop at the Duty-Free shop.. argh~~ blame me for being a GLUTTON...

snap shots on the ferry

We reached there ard 11am & waited for the Holiday Inn transfer.. I am lucky that we din go to the other resorts cause looking at the amount of ppl waiting for the bus, I believe the resort will be damn crowded & this trip is supposed to be a relaxing & quiet one, not to squeeze around with others lo...


We check in the moment we reached there.. We were very lucky to be able to check in early.. The receptions & staffs there were really helpful & friendly.. I will give em very high rating for their service & friendliness.. : ) I love our room very much cause its not only big but its damn cosy with a superb view from the balcony..

our room ( its abit messy.. hehe )

view from our balcony

We nua around in the hotel for awhile b4 going down to their spa, Tea Tree Spa to book our appointment in the evening.. We went for our late lunch at their Cafe after that.. They serve really nice pizza, highly recommended if you guys are to go there in the future... : )


I love the feeling of being able to enjoy my meal slowly, esp this time round i am having it by the poolside.. This is really consider as a luxury for me... We back to the hotel & nua for awhile b4 heading the jacuzzi @ the Spa.. Went to laze on the tanning chair beside the pool & a short swim b4 going for our spa in e evening..

walkway to the Spa

@ the entrance of the Spa

the superb jacuzzi

The service at the Spa is really good.. felt really warm & relaxed.. We had a package together & it includes a scrub & a aromatherapy massage.. Wow... totally love their avacado scrub... as for their massage, i can only rem until a certain point cause i got knocked out moments after that... Is this the so-called totally relaxed moment? Hehe....

Went for our dinner after that & along the poolside they are having this damn cool 'Surf N Turf '.. But we did not have the buffet cause we are too full for the sumptuous dinner..

the teppanyaki restaurant

poolside terrace cafe

we walked around the pool & settled down on the tanning chair.. relaxing night but cant really see the starts due to the bright lights & clouds.. stayed there for awhile b4 heading back to our room & rest.. My eyes were feeling really heavy & i fell aslp on the sofa while waiting for my hair to dry.. Wanted to catch some shows but jus fell aslp.......

Woke up the next morning for our breakfast.. Weather is cool, nice ambience, nice breakfast & great company.. What more can i ask for? Wanted to go for a swim after resting but the weather jus changed & it started pouring... Well......

We jus relax in our room & balcony until our check-out time.. Went to the lobby to wait for the bus transfer to the ferry terminal that is ard 3 min away from our resort...

final photo of the trip

All-in-all... i totally love the short weekend getaway.. Not only can i get away from the concrete jungle, let me get away from all the stresses that had been building up on me recently, but most importantly, allowing to spend really quality time with him... i really appreciate him for planning the trip & bringing me there... : ) He knows i have been feeling quite tensed up n my back & shoulders have been aching because of the long work hours n sitting position.... I really appreciate the things he did for me..

duno wat to put for my header once again.. guess the lack of blogging this days has made me very bad with words n expressing myself once again... this is a really serious problem cause i cant articulate n show how i am feeling inside as freely as i used to do it..

i rem when i used to blog quite frequent in the past, things seems to be a lot more simpler to explain & i seemed to understand wat i wanted better... nowadays, i am really unsure.. unsure of wat i really want in my life.. sounds pathetic isnt it? think that is the transition state everyone talks about esp at my age....

today i was damn demoralised at work.. screwed up on the things i did for the team , i made it seems as if i din put in any effort but in fact i treat it really seriously.. over the weekend, i made it a pt to read n do up the whole thing but in e end, i still screwed it up because i use the wrong template & because of my nature of not being meticulous.. i admit that is a weakness of mine & now, i mus really look at it n improve on it seriously..

i was quite affected on wat happen at work today.. i cannot forgive myself for screwing this thing up & caused my team to be reminded again on the importance of this... i am quite particular about things at times & this is one of the issue that will affect me deeply...

but this time round, i am more lucky cause i have someone whom i can share n listen to me... i felt blessed not only because i can share things with him rather is more of me being ABLE to share things with comfortably... its been a long time since i felt i can trust in someone whom i am romantically inclined to... well, think its because i have been closing up & not being trusting for a very long time... i am really glad that i can feel that way towards HIM.. but i realise i still have some problems with myself.. i cant seem to be able to express myself freely with words... i am still quite bad at telling HIM how i feel towards him at times cause i duno how to not i dun wan to... maybe songs seems like a better way to express myself...

its sunday again~~

after i start working, i realised how precious weekends are... not forgetting to mention how short it is.... this is the only time when i can rest & meet HIM.. because of our working hours, its quite hard for us to meet up during weekday, so weekend becomes the only moment we can hang out n spend quality time with each other but its also because of that, he din really have much time left for his frenz & usual routine...

i hate to see him give up or should i say compromise wat he usually do so as to spend more time with me but den, on the other hand, i would like to spend more time with him also cause like wat i said this are the only days we met.. its hard to have the best of both world in life but i would really like to strike a balance on this issue....

yest while i was on the bus to meet him, i past by the usual route where i used to travel everyday to sch... its been a long time since i pass by there... reminded me of my sch days & quite alot of things also.. i realised that after i started working, time doesnt seems to be on my side anymore.. i am like not in control of my own time at all... there are alot of things which i want to do but because of the time constraint i can only think about it but not being able to implement it......

i am still unsure of wat i exactly want in my life.. i am living my life now for the sake of living it & not in line with the goal i had set for myself earlier on... its time to re-think about wat i wan & how should i go about to achieve it already... i missed my character in the past.. i missed the me who was 2 yrs back, though i am more reckless & dun really think about the consequences of the things i did, but i am much clearer of wat i wan & will go all out to achieve it... i am like more KIASI now.. is this because age is catching up on me??

forsaken~

this mus be the feeling of my blog now.. i haven been blogging for almost 2 mths.. erm, not because there is nth to blog, in fact alot of things happened during this 2 mths its just that i dont have the time to do so..

license going to be in soon.. been waiting for this moment for almost 6 mths.. finally can go onto the battlefield.. things will only be getting tougher n tougher, wonder how it will turn out...

maybe in the future it will be even harder for me to come here to blog...

i have been thking wat title should i put for this blog entry and could not decide on a precise one.. its been a long time since i updated my blog and there are so many things which i wan to talk about but the most impt thing i wanna update is more about wat i am feeling rather den wat is happening..


i haven been speaking my mind n blog about my most inner tots on this blog for a really long time.. there was a period in the past which i had this experience b4, but for that time its mostly because i dun wan wat i blog here to affect someone.. as for this time round, there are alot more factors which i wanna factored in.. its not only target at a certain person but rather a few of em....


the nature of this blog has changed.. it used to be a place where i can vent out my emotions and voice out my inner most tots so that i will feel much better.. but now, i jus cant seem to be voicing out my tots as freely as how i used to in the past.. isit because of the world i am in now or isit because this is also part n parcel of growing up? there are alot more factors to thk about when u wan to speak ur mind.... its because of this issue, i seem to be bottling up alot of stuffs this days.. i lost the touch of speaking my mind and if i really wan to do so, i need alot more courage n time to process wat i wan to say out.. most of the time, i jus end up saying 'orh ok'..


was reading thru my blog b4 i start my work.. i really miss the time i spent at home with my mum.. just nuaing on my sofa, playing my PSP all day long, if not just lie there watching dvds with my mum.. i miss the time when we can go genting as n when we wan.. we can like mention about going today n jus go n book the room tml.. i miss the overnight MJ session at alvin's place, i miss the weekday window shopping session in town with my frenz, i miss going to JB in the afternoon with my mum jus to have our lunch & haircut there... all-in-all, i miss my FREEDOM...


really wish to have a resort vacation soon.. jus wanna lie on the beach with a nice cocktail beside me... its been a long time since i go suntanning.. need to get some color back to my skin..


but b4 i can fulfil that wish of mine, i will be going to KL for this Chi New Yr once again.. New Yr always seems to be a very boring occassion for me, this yr its no exception again.... but luckily this yr it doesnt fall on or near my b'day, if not i will be even more SIANZ... i can still rem there was a yr when it falls exactly on the same day.... its total bullshit la, having to put on a false front n fake a smile on a SUPER special day of mine...


well, at least this yr, i will be glad that i can have 4 day straight off and can slp all i wan there.. hehe... super looking forward to the amount of rest which i can get during the new yr period in KL... hehe... well, this is to prepare myself for the different 'tua' of gambling sessions which will be waiting for me when i come back from KL.. wahaha... I miss MJ-ing~~~~