last day going for lecture..

today is officially the last day of me going for lecture in SIM & being a student in my entire life... i doubt i will have the capability n drive to study Master after i started working, even though i wish that i can have a chance to do so...

i can still rem the 1st day when i went to SIM for a pre-POA lesson.. its at LT 1.03 & this morning, my FI revision class was at the same place also... when i was there for the 1st time i was amazed by the size of the LT & tot each n every LT in SIM is of the same size but den.... i was wrong... ha... 3 yrs passes by really fast... my education journey will come to an end in another 6 weeks time...

alot of things happened the past few days but i just dun have time to come over n blog about it.. been too busy & trying to force myself to study cause time is really running out..

still rem i wanted to get a macbook?? well, i still wan to just that i will put it on hold 1st cause my dad 'got' me a LG KS-20.. well, the phone is not for me in e 1st place.. its actually for his own use but the very next day after he gt the new phone together with my brother, my phone died on me w/o any apparent reason!! i just charged it for 2 hrs as per any normal day n leave it on the table.. the very next morning when i woke up, there's this 'Limited Service' replacing my M1-GSM thingy... no matter how i tried, i just cant msg or make any call out.. for those who called my no, they will just hear my 'swt' voice saying i am not available......

i gave up in e end & used back my old nokia 7250 which i bought 5 years back... upon seeing this, my dad gave me his new phone cause he say its quite hard to 'manuveour' the phone as it does not support chinese language.. today den i realise that the older model LG Viewty is much better cause it not only support chinese, it also has a louder alarm... but the appearance of KS-20 is defintely much much more nicer than viewty & its really light!!!

with this new phone that allows me to go online & acts like a mini comp, i decide to put the purchase of the comp on hold.. since every half a yr, macbook will have a mini improvement on their specs.. i shall wait another 3 more mths to see wat new technology is going to be incorporated in it... guess by den i will be quite broke from my grad trip ba... haha.. really hope we are going somewhere after the paper.... its such a significant event lo... hehe...

ok, i know this is a super long blog just bear with me for a little while more...

guess wat day will it be tml?? a year ago, tml is the day when we studied in NUS & went to watch movie for the 1st time @ Vivo... so how am i feeling now?? well, very very normal... mayb the time to feel sth is not here yet ba... haha.. i duno... shall see how ba... but tml i am going to Vivo... but its not going there specially to reminisce on the past... i am meeting anna & her ex-colleague to club @ St James.. realise its time to let loose & reward myself with some appropriate entertainment... been staying at home, either doing nth or just studying.. felt that i have touched of the world & being a young adult...

hope to have some real fun tml with them.. but den i can foresee some old 'memories' coming back to find me while i am there.. dun worry, i will handle em well & hope they will be kind to me also... :)

studyholic~~

yeap.. its a new word use to describe me now after being labelled a clubber, player, domestic & bimbo.. hehe.. was in e lib from 1030 to 830 with cheng & jean the whole day.. only having a lunch break of an hour in between.. was at the secluded corner of the 2nd level.. i like the lighting there cause direct sunlight wont be shining in... i just dun love the sun when it comes to studies cause it will cause the environment to be 'unfit' for that activity.. hehe..



the last time i went to that corner is after exams with HIM.. some memories flashed back but its not as painful anymore.. guess the mindgames that i have played b4 is really accurate.. it says that i will need almost a yr to get over the past r/s.. for teck, that's the case, for HIM, its about the same time also..

gathering~

had a mini dinner gathering with my sec sch frenz yest.. was supposed to anticipate another 2 more guys to come but in e end, it became a gathering for the gals instead... in e past, gathering for me, shaoyun & anna will only occur during the bday of either one in the group... its only this yr, we get into constant contact & gather more for updates between each other life or for some relaxing gal's talk.... its sth which i had not imagined but i am glad that things turned out this way... :)

shao yun just came back from her thailand volunteer trip.. she bought some sovenier back for me & anna & told us about her trip there to teach the kids mandarin... it seems like a really cool & heart-warming experience..if possible i will like to do some volunteer work in other places of the world that really need our concern...

we chatted until 10 plus b4 heading back home.. for them, its been 14 hrs since they are out of their house for work.. for me, its a 12 hr thingy cause i was studying in the lib.. for the past 2 day i was with wei shyang & his frenz there.. this time round, i really manage to get back my study mood & momentum but studying only a chp per day seems a little bit too little for someone who is having a paper in exactly a mths' time.. but i just dun like to rush things or just read thru briefly.. if i wanna study that chp, i will jolly well know every single tinny winny things about it & get myself more den 95 % sure about its content.... that's one thing bad about me, too persistent when i come to serious stuffs.. :)

other than studies, there is another issue that i wanna update.... i just dun understand how some ppl can be so irresponsible & lie through their teeth... i was being scolded for telling the truth to my colleague when someone can simply denied everything & have the cheek to call me up to scold me & confront me for lying....

b4 this incident, i will still thk whether i have gone too far as a fren to do things until that extent.. but judging from this incident & wat my family, frenz had told me, i thk i have tolerated & gone far enough as a frenz.. giving them time for more den 6 mths time & doing so much things for them but getting back nth except reprimand & warning... well, that's the furthest i can go...

was thking of getting a laptop.. macbook is my no. 1 choice.. wonder should i get it now or wait until my exams are over b4 getting it???

near accident~~

i nearly gt into an accident with a bus when i was coming back home yest.. it was along the road outside my sch.. i really hate the layout & the traffic over there...

it was a long day yest in sch.. lesson starts from 10am & ends at 10 pm... though in between the lessons there was a 3 hr break, i used that time to study for my FI.... which means its almost 12 hr of intensive study.. felt really tired when i stepped into my car... finally the 'taste' of studying is coming back.... really hope i have the determination to continue the studying regime...

stressed..

feeling super stressed up now... was trying to do my MA budgeting which i had revised but i cant seem to make out was was required by the qns.. looking at all the things which i havent studied yet, the panic & emergency siren is sounding loud now & its really time for me to buck up & do some really intensive studies but i just cant seem to find the drive that kept me going for the past 2 years.... just wat is lacking this time round this yr that makes me so restless & stupid??? feeling really helpess now... last yr & why isit so disastrous??

super pissed off...

i am damn pissed off with myself now for being that clumsy n.... argh.. i really duno wat word can i use to describe myself now... i bought a mask just now & lost it within 15 min after i bought it & the worst thing is i cant rem exactly HOW & WHERE i lost it!!!!! in addition, i only realised i lost the thing almost an hour later.... argh~~~~ super super pissed with myself now... i am pissed not because of the monetary value that i have lost, i am pissed with myself 4 not knowing & cant remembering wat had exactly happened!!! ah......... just when i tot things have become better for me this days, ms blurry, mr forgetful & ms clumsy have found their way to get me once again...... not forgetting granny pissed will be acc me thru the night today... :~(

a stone off my chest..

finally have a chance to take a break from all those shits that i have encountered.. the monetary incident had finally come to an end & its really a load off my mind & my emotions.. you really cant imagine wat kinda emotion trauma i am going through... struggling whether to get back wat i deserved or just let it be because of the frenship that we had.... but like wat others said, its kind enough for me to give him so much time so i had to do wat i had to......

studies is getting more n more on the track.. i love reading my financial intermediation subject guide now.. its really interesting to read about the stuff but i duno whether i will be able to rem all those that i have read & regurgitate it out under exam condition.. hehe.. reading & writing is just 2 totally different issue....

went to shop with my mum & aunt yest after my tuition.. went to bugis & realise tat there's alot more new restuarant around... we went to the HK cafe for dinner & had their sizzling hot plate set meal... erm... i had been indulging in food for the past one wk... having fei cui, jack's place etc etc..... guess my eating spree is coming back to haunt me once again...

the food taste much better than it looks in this photo...

the accessories that my brother & sis are crazy about.. but i really duno wat is so nice about it.. guess that's the generation gap we usually talk about..

my sister & i getting zi lian once again..

my younger cousin.. the most naughty one i had ever encountered...........

negatives...

sth happened to my sis in sch.. she cut herself accidentally with a penknife & the teached called us up to bring her to a doc as the blood cant seemed to stop.. drove there immediately with my mum & brought her to our family doc... as i got a lecture @ 10 in sch i have to leave them there...



during breaktime i called home & the call was picked up by my sis.. she got 5 stiches in total... can imagine how severe & deep the wound is.. thought tat was e end of but i was wrong.. my mum called me up @ lunch time & told me sth that i have never imagined that my sis will ever do.... its just too shocking...



there just too much things up on my mind these days that made me damn moody & cant conc on my studies due to those negative feelings.. there's just so much things that needs my attention & so much which doesnt require any but i will just spend so much time on.... i really need a breather but @ this pt of time, will it be too much of a luxury for me???

busy busy busy~~

it has been a very busy week for me for the past week.. having 2 UOL revision classes within a week, with one at the Management House behind Hwa Chong Institute.. its really a place that i will only visit once a year because of the revision class... guess if no classes were held there, we will not even know about its existence.. am glad that this will be the last time & last yr for me to go there.. its really very inaccessible but den, i enjoy looking at the mansion type bungalow while walking along the road....

i enjoyed the moment now even though it seems really hectic & busy... i love keeping myself occupied cause time passes faster this way & life seems more meaningful as compared to wasting my time at home watching those drama & rotting for no apparent reason... guess i will miss this type of busy studying life when i go out to work next time.. so now i shall enjoy my last remaining full time student life... cause i guess i will never have the luxury to do this anymore in my entire life....

going to lib to study with jean darling le.. its the 1st day of my studying life in the lib this yr, hope it will be very productive.. tml & the day after, gonna have another 2 day revision class with the london lecturer.. hope he/she can show me some insight about wat to prepare for my final yr paper... :)