Looking back~~

Chanced upon my old ipod nano.. The long long one with the small screen AND its only 2gb!! ( Must be considered an antique as compared to the devices now ) This is a birthday pressie from the guys I know in SIM.. those we used to go to almost every lecture together, helping one another with the notes in the lecture, going to eat, shop, play (esp mahjong), ktv-ing together.... And its still going strong after so many years....

It has accompanied me through my full day study session in the WDL library, the journey to & fro school, to genting & alot alot more... Now, looking at it once again reminds me of those times.. The time which I thought was by far the best in my life till now.. Studying hard & playing hard at the same time.. With the thinking of not letting myself having any regrets in life thus doing ALOT of things without thinking of the consequences.. The utmost & most impt thing at that point of time is to have fun, do things that I enjoy, happy & not having any regrets...

Looking back now at the time & how much I miss my life then.. I think what I did was right... Though some of them is totally wrong to do...

Ever since I started work, I have lost my 'kinda spirit' slowly.. It's the sad thing of being an adult & growing up.. Some might say that its up to individual, whether they wanna forsake that 'do-whatever-you-want, as-long-as-you-are-happy' attitude... I dun have to but I cant help it...

I am not the Wei Ting that I used to be.. If unhappy at anything, I will just show it out.. Sometimes even voice it out.. Only hang out with the people that you are comfortable with, thus making u happy most of the time also.. I have a lot more reserves that are holding me back now.. I just cannot do things that I like or will make me happy without thinking of the consequences first... I will to think alot more.. If after that, I can still go ahead with the initial plan or leads to the initial outcome that I want it's still ok... BUT alot of times, THIS~~~ doesnt occur..

At times, I hate myself for doing what I am doing now & wish to go back to the Uni days where I can do whatever I think is right (not necessary right in the eye of the others though).. Right now, I still have to think about what other think, what consequences it will have etc etc... So tiring... I got think about this qns before and wondering isit because of this that I am behaving the way I am now..

In Uni, I know exactly what I want.. Maybe that's why I was doing what I did then.. But right now, if you ask me that........ I will tell you, I don't know.........