went to e kanebo makeover thing wif ah ma today.. 1st time doing makeover lo, din know that it will turn out to be so 'wayang' lo.. i go prom oso wont draw until like that sia.. really feel like crying ah.. haha.. from now on, i will never buy BLUE eyeshadow lo.. but makeup is really amazing lo.. they really conceal my pimples until it cant be seen at all.. it was AMAZING

e whole process lasted for more den 2 hrs lo.. really a mental torture sia, esp i din had breakfast n lunch.. rite aft the whole thing, me n ah ma were like starving like siao lo.. we din wait for 'ah kai' -- kai xiang, n go haf our dinner at cystal jade... miss eating the xiao long bao lo.. very long never eat liao.. hehe..

i bought the b'day gift for HIM.. n bought a compact powder n illuminating powder for myself.. haha.. like that i spend more den 100 bucks today liao.. haiz.. next week muz live on bread liao lo.. die.. damn broke now sia.. haiz.. aft dinner we went to meet ah ma's fren, serene.. we continue to walk ard orchard n went back home at 9 plus le..

i gt 2nd for the duet category during the talentime wif alvin.. but i din win anything 4 my solo one.. hehe.. i reached the Lt for e rehearsal at 130pm.. den stay on n play ard wif em until 5 plus den go for my dinner.. feeling super hungry lo.. hehe..

i was e 1st contestants.. duno is heng or wat, when the whole event was abt to start.. there was a power failure.. waited for more den half an hr part of e electricity came back but the speaker gt pro lo.. in e end, we had to sing w/o e mike n music.. machiam unplugged lo.. hehe..

i sing the wrong key n need to re-sing again lo.. argh~~ so pai seh.. haha.. luckily e whole Lt is very dark.. but singing unplugged in that kind of atmosphere is really damn nice lo.. w/o the mike quite alot of contestants muz change song last min.. quite alot of contestants whom i tot will win din get anything at e end.. abit sad for em lo.. haiz..

coz there is no music, so while singing the duet, alvin n i muz count the beat n sing together.. thk we count till too obvious liao la.. the audience n judges were all laughing lo.. but den i thk we did a really great job n it was really fun la.. haha.. had alot of fun n know alot of frenz during this events.. din regret joining this comp lo.. hehe..

aft e thing ended, e 3 of us, ( ah ma, me n wanyu) get a free ride from alvin to e bukit timah prata place there.. we tok abt alot of things lo.. haha.. thk ah ma cause a small huha in my sch yest.. she 'electrify' quite alot of guys.. hehe.. we eat until 12 den took a cab back.. feeling super tired lo.. tis few days din catch much slp.. hehe..

been super duper busy tis wk.. gotta work on mon, den gt TP on tue, went to practise for our duet on wed den yest whole day in sch for sch n talentime.. tml still going wif ah ma to e kanebo makeover thing.. haha.. haven been tis busy for so long le.. but tis is really a very exciting n fruitful week for me.. :)

i got my PRECIOUS license..

haha.. yes, i pass my TP today.. finally i did it lo.. it was such a mental torturing thing that lasted more den a yr for me.. coz i kp on draggin not to go for my 3rd TP.. scare of failure once again..

haven been slping well yest.. kp on waking up in e middle of e nite, gues i am too nervous le ba.. the weather today was not very gd for a TP day lo.. feeling quite down when i woke up today n saw that it was drizzling lo.. den it worsen when i reached BBDC.. deep down inside i prepared to ' YMCA' ( You Must Come Again ) liao.. haha..

but luckily due to e prepared to die mentality, i am not that nervous while driving.. in e circuit i already lose 2 major pt le coz i strike kerb n pole.. really tot i failed liao lo.. so when e TP tester told me to go down for the video briefing i was like 'huh?? wat he means??" den i realise that it means i pass.. coz only the ppl who pass can go for e briefing.. i was in shock lo, n double cfm wif him.. haha.. really cant imagine how my expression was like ??

i jux know that i cant help but keeping on smiling on my way out of e room.. thk those ppl outside waiting for e test muz haf tot i went bonkers liao.. hehe.. called my mum immediately den called my dad.. super duper happy lo.. haha.. nearly burst out in tears sia.. i am not exaggerating lo.. the feelings of getting e license finally aft so many failure n spent so much money is really.......... well, hard to explain la.. haha...

finally can bring my mum out for supper as n when she likes liao.. gonna bring her out for e cripsy prata at thomson real soon.. hehe..

argh~~ so stressed now~~

super nervous n stress now lo.. haf been feeling tis way since fri aft my pract training at BBDC.. haiz.. it was quite a disaster lo.. haven been touching the steering wheel ever since i failed my 2nd TP in Feb.. tml i will be having my TP in e morning lo.. super scare will feel again n waste my parents money.. argh~~ that is y i am feeling so stress up now..

wat should i do?? i know that i should not feel nervous n muz let e tester feel safe sitting in my car.. only den i will pass but i jux cant help but feel nervous n scare.. how should i SHUN tis feeling away.. coz i know if i dun tml will be another disaster again lo.. argh~~ plz pray for me lo..

i went to see e skin doctor today rite aft my work at suntec.. the work was super slack lo.. jux gif out free gift by e company.. den i went to meet my mum at PS coz a super blurry gal ( who is ME ) forgot to bring my wallet out today.. i only brought my ezlink card out.. haha.. so muz mafan my mum to come out early n meet me..

my skin condition now really quite bad lo.. e doc said is due to excessive oil secretion which will happen normally ard my age lo.. sadded case.. haiz.. hope it wil become beta aft e medication n stuff lo..

finally aft waiting to see my doc for 2 hr, we went off to eat Vienna.. hehe.. took a cab down to United Square.. din wait for daddy to reach n we started feasting already.. haha.. dun thk he mind la.. coz it had always been e case.. wahaha.. there goes my diet plan today coz in e afternoon, the company i work for treat us to buffet lunch oso.. haha.. but i din really eat much during lunch time la.. hehe.. so at least still alrite lo..

haiz.. hope by tml morning my nervous feeling will be gone like the wind n i can take e test wif a normal heart n mind.. really hope i can convince myself not to be so nervous lo.. muz jia you for me.. hehe..

dun expect anything coz it will only make u disappointed~~

never expect anything from him~~ that's wat i haf been telling myself tis while.. but i jux cant seem to do it.. ever since he asked me for a patch i had been thking abt alot of things.. i cant seem to ignore his existence n heck care if he din reply to me or contact me or watsoever..

i am jux back to e way everything seems to be in e past.. i hate tis feelings.. i hate myself for going back to e time when i will expect n hope that he will do things for me.. tis is so silly of me rite..

see tis sentence in anna's blog -- A Person Can Be Less Troubled If She Is Willing To Let Go Of Alot Of Things~~

well, thk i should be doing that oso.. only den i will less troubled n conc on my studies .. thk i should not contact him tis days le.. only den can i really go back to e no expectation towards him life again~~

i am so stressed now

argh~~ suddenly feel very stressful now.. everything is like piling up n i am feeling suffocated lo.. i cant breathe..

so many things are making me stressed out lo.. sch work, my TP which is round the corner.. but i am more stressed abt sch work la.. haven been studying n revising n i am lagging alot behind.. really duno how to catch up.. e pace is like so fast.. n i cant seem to understand a thing.. seeing my frenz all having exam now n i am actually envy of em lo.. haha.. coz at least their exam is not 100% at e end of the yr unlike mine.. if i buang that exam den will haf to retake e sub le.. argh~~ thking of that stress me even more lo..

i need to de-stress.. i need a breather.. i wanna go on a hols.. even if its jux going to a chalet i thk i will oso feel beta lo.. at least can get away from reality for a while n really relax.. haiz.. mayb i should change my image once again.. thk i will feel beta n fresher ba..