another 2 days more to my 21st b'day.. i am feeling indifferent towards it.. should i be feeling that way?? is all e others feeling e same way like i do now when their 21st b'day is approaching or am i e odd one.... well, to me at tis moment, that day will jux be like another day where i will spend it in loneliness......

ever since i broke up wif him, i always haf tis feeling tat a part of me is missing.. n tis feeling is becoming stronger n stronger as e time passes by... that feeling is really unbearable lo.. sometimes in e middle of e nite or b4 i fell aslp, i will thk of e times we were together n den tears will fall down from my face once again..

i know it had been quite long since we broke up le.. i shouldnt be grieving over it anymore.. but whenever i thk that sth i once had will no longer be mine anymore i will feel...... i cant really explain it in words.. my heart will feel really pain......

someone say tis : "once u broke up wif e other party, the best way to forget em n carry on wif ur life is to get em out of ur life completely" i do agree wif this statement but carrying it out is another thing.. its always easier said den done.. for me, i really cant do it..