feeling damn....... well, i oso duno wat i am feeling deep inside.. sad? angry? disturbed? confused? i really duno....

he haven been contacting me for more den a mth.. let's not say call or msg, even when he is on msn for quite a few times over e mth, he oso din come n say hi.... today he jux msg me... i am not sure wat that msg is trying to tell me... he really needs advice or he is jux trying to test how i will rx... or maybe even worse he is jux trying to show off..

how can he be doing all tis to me.. dun wan to msg n contact me.. n den now aft more den a mth come into my life n ask whether i miss his msg or not.. n whether he should go on a date wif that insurance agent.. how can he be so insensitive to my feelings?????

y is he doing all tis to hurt me again.. it took so long for me to forget abt the msg thing n forget abt his existence.. whenever i am starting to lead a new life w/o him, he will always come n pop out of nowhere & reminds me of everything once again..... i hate tis feelings.. really hate it.....