feel so BAD now... jux tok to my dad in a very impatient tone... thk its all because of my stupid test tml tat makes me lost my cool...

so angry abt myself... its me who haf no mood to study & sort of gif up on the test one.. but when the time gets nearer & i know i cant finish studying, i started to panic.... thus when my dad wanna tok to me jux now, i jux shouted saying i am not free & needa study...... argh~~~ i hate tis feeling... knowing that i am in e wrong, but duno how to apologise to him... feels so guilty now...

i really dun understand why its so hard for us to apologise to our parents as we grow older?? isit because we are jux too thin-skinned or due to how we are brought up?? we are jux not as close to our parents.. there's always tis gap b/w us & em... well, i jux duno how to explain it..... mayb some things are meant to be it tat way, there's no way for us to explain it..... tat's life ba...