really sorry abt not updating my blog so recently tis days.. been feeling lazy n on top of that, i am not at home most of the time for e past wk.. had been going out almost everyday ever since i came back from KL last mon.. which is like a week ago....

MON - 19 feb
went to ryan's b'day party at his place rite aft i came back from KL.. reached at 9 n went there at 10.. den aft his celeb for him, instead of joining him to go dragonfly n drk, i went to lawrence's place to play MJ until the next morning....

TUE - 20 feb
went back slp until 1130 den wake up cause had to go to mindy's place & ms goh's place to BAI NIAN... the funny thing is mindy is not in s'pore & we still went lo.. haha.. had video conference wif her over the net at her place.. her mum is really very frenly & nice to us... aft that, we went to ms goh house at clementi.. very long never saw her & its e 1st time i went to her place aft she gt married... hehe.... stayed until 5 plus & b4 leaving the place wif yang cause we are going to meet lawrence & anna @ ikea.... went to his office n help him to do some setting up... aft dinner, we played MJ again.. b4 tis i still gt play MJ @ mindy's place wif andy they all la.....

WED - 21 feb
finally did sth productively.... studying for exams.... went to e lib to study wif weiming & yang... at least sort of build up e pace lo.... at nite, we met anna & huili to go ktv.. wanted to play MJ again one but dun haf MJ table lo.. sad...

THUR - 22 feb
went to the lib to study again but tis time round, i only study until 3 plus cause billy last min msg me & asked to go his place to eat & sing ktv... yes, his place gt a set of ktv system tat is like partyworld.. we often call his place as k-world... haha... went there wif anna & it was raining very heavily so we waited at the train station.. suddenly billy appear out of no where.. haha.. his frenz, who are my JC seniors were trapped there like us & called him over lo.... it was like a mini JJC gathering.. quite fun cause i never really know tis seniors in JC but get to know em under tis kinda of scenario..... played MJ again there... thk i am becoming a MJ addict.....

FRI - 23 feb
boon hao invited me to his place for steamboat... so i went wif anna.. he picked us up at 3 wif yang & we went down to PS carrefour to buy some food b4 going to his place.. realise there's a lot of post CNY sales going on... argh..... cant really shop cause i am having my MOCK EXAM NEXT WK... & i haven even study anything la... die.... we went his place at 5 plus & started playing MJ..... my life is all abt MJ now... nth else really interest me except that n ktv.. i even gif up my last time fav, clubbing.... we played until shela came & start on e steamboat..... aft that we went back to play again..... yang came over at 12 plus to join us & we played until 5 plus b4 going back........

SAT - 24 feb
suppose to meet weiming at e lib at 10 but........ me 7 yang were damn late.. by the time we reached is 1230 le but its partly because of the stupid sudden downpour tat caused us to be so late la.... went to haf lunch n back to studies.. but due to e lack of slp, the progress n absorption is damn bad lo... in e end, din really get anything inside my head.... den i need to go off at 530 cause i am meetin my mum & aunt for dinner at west mall...... aft the dinner, we went to my aunt's place cause they wanna play MJ & i asked yang along to play oso..... once again, its a all nite thing... we only left the place ard 7 & took a cab back home.....

SUN - 25 feb
once i reached home, i concuss all e way until 230 as we haf an appointment wif lawrence at 4... went to meet him at yishun cause we need to haf some trg stuff....

jux came back from my post b'day celebration organised by my JC gang at Vivo.... its only today den i haf tis b'day feeling lo.. if not for em, i will still be thinking nth had happened... they are really swt to be celebrating it for me.. thx guys..

i met yang earlier to shop ard.. saw tis dress at topshop... wanted to get it but thk i wont be wearing it often cause its more like a clubbing type of clothes.. since i am not going there so often le, beta dun waste money getting it.. hehe.. there's so much things i wanna get but quite broke now... sad....

we met up at 6 plus & decide to go to eat at KIM GARY... we are the largest group in there & making the most noise.. that's always the case whenever we haf andy & jackson ard... wat's worse is they are always making fun at the waiter n aunties la.. cannot stand em....

took alot of photos la.. in e process of uploading em...

aft dinner, we went to the animal safari... there's nth much there, guess they haf either sell all the animals or they jux kept the animals at some secret chamber or sth la.. aft that, we walk ard & took some grp photos.. but because of the lighting problems, everything is so blur n dark... & we look DAMN BAD in all e photos la... super sad....

as most of us gt lecturer tml & some need to go back to rush their projects, we decide to go home quite early... so we walk to harbourfront to buy drks... nth seems amiss to me while we were at cheers jux tat some of em went missing.. but i din thk too much.... then we begin to walk towards the atrium where there is some animal display... shu & ah li were standing behind the ox one, so we jux walk over... den i had such a big surprise for e day.... there is a cake, they went to buy it when i was buying my drks at cheers... am really touched by wat they did... tis is e 1st cake of mine tis bday... din had any cake on e actual day & never tot i will be having any tis yr... thus tis cake means quite alot to me... really love u guys sia.. hehe...

my b'day is over jux like tat.. jux like how i wish it to be, its really simple & quiet.. sometimes i dun feel that its a special day of mine at all.. no cake, no elaborate celeb, no unusual encounter.. its jux a normal day where i go for lect in e morning n return home... if its not for all those swts msges that all my frenz msg me wishing me 'happy bday', i might not thk its really my bday yest.. haha..

feel really touched by all those msges that i received yest.. was quite surprised to receive some msges from a few frenz.. never expect they will rem my b'day.. really wanna thx & show my appreciation to those who really care.... thx darling.. *hugz & kisses* you guys really brighten up my day......

wanna thx my parents for bringing me to tis world.. its really hard for em.. haha... esp when i am such a naughty & sickly little ger when i am young..... can still rem how i used to go in & out of the hospital almost every wk last time.... really owe em alot alot... duno when can i finish repaying them..... din managed to get my mum any gift tis yr... feels quite bad abt it... hope next yr i can make up to em...

had a simple family dinner wif em at geylang.. feels i am the most fortunate ger during dinner, cause the ppl sitting ard me are those that really cares for me n loves me the most on earth w/o wanting anything in return... really enjoyed my dinner....

as i get older, i reaslied tat family is wat matters most to me... yest morn, while on my way to sch, i haf tis silly tots wondering how many more b'day can i celeb wif my mum n dad.... haha.. really touchwood rite, fancy thking of tis kinda of things on my bday.... haha.. so from now on, i will try my best to celeb my bday wif em.... cause b'day is e day tat u mux show gratitude to ur parents.....

few more hours n i'll be turning 22... not feeling excited abt it at all... in fact, to me, its jux another normal day.. i really duno wat's wrong wif me tis days.. jux cant be bothered abt anything, even my bday now... is this wat growing up will turn u into?? or isit jux me??

last time i will wan to make my bday celebration a very grand n elaborate thing.. now, i jux wan sth simple n cosy.. even if it means staying at home n doing nth, i'll still feel very happy..

he msg me & wish me happy bday yest when i was chatting wif anna & yang at the prata shop near zouk.. when i saw the msg, duno y, i felt like crying... i can feel the tears in my eyes... i really duno wat's wrong wif me.. i cant explain y i am behaving tat way... isit because of how close we are last time den now he is using another kind of identity to wish me.... i really duno... & i dun feel like finding the ans oso....

yest went to zouk n sort of like celeb my bday wif anna, geraldine, yang yang & huili.... jux ask a few close frenz instead of the usual big crowd.. jux dun like crowds tis days.. felt abit off n weird inside phuture oso.. duno how to dance to e beat n enjoy the music anymore.. dun thk i'll be going there anytime soon unless there's some special occassion or sth...

thk i am over that clubbing stage.... but i dun regret going thru that crazy stage in life cause it makes me change alot of my perception of things in life & i really learnt quite alot from it... realise tat life arent as simple as i tot it to be... during tis past 1 yr, i really changed alot... mayb tat the 'price' tat you muz pay when u turn 21.... everything will not be e same anymore....