few more hours n i'll be turning 22... not feeling excited abt it at all... in fact, to me, its jux another normal day.. i really duno wat's wrong wif me tis days.. jux cant be bothered abt anything, even my bday now... is this wat growing up will turn u into?? or isit jux me??

last time i will wan to make my bday celebration a very grand n elaborate thing.. now, i jux wan sth simple n cosy.. even if it means staying at home n doing nth, i'll still feel very happy..

he msg me & wish me happy bday yest when i was chatting wif anna & yang at the prata shop near zouk.. when i saw the msg, duno y, i felt like crying... i can feel the tears in my eyes... i really duno wat's wrong wif me.. i cant explain y i am behaving tat way... isit because of how close we are last time den now he is using another kind of identity to wish me.... i really duno... & i dun feel like finding the ans oso....

yest went to zouk n sort of like celeb my bday wif anna, geraldine, yang yang & huili.... jux ask a few close frenz instead of the usual big crowd.. jux dun like crowds tis days.. felt abit off n weird inside phuture oso.. duno how to dance to e beat n enjoy the music anymore.. dun thk i'll be going there anytime soon unless there's some special occassion or sth...

thk i am over that clubbing stage.... but i dun regret going thru that crazy stage in life cause it makes me change alot of my perception of things in life & i really learnt quite alot from it... realise tat life arent as simple as i tot it to be... during tis past 1 yr, i really changed alot... mayb tat the 'price' tat you muz pay when u turn 21.... everything will not be e same anymore....