hey guys, i haf created a new blog le.. thk there's more privacy over there cause for some blogs only those wif password can read it.. no need for me to go n create another ' secret ' blog whenever i need to write things tat are not meant to be seen.. hehe.. it also mark a new start of my life.. :)

the blog add i will paste on e tagboard....

sorry guys for e lack of updates tis days.. tat was all because my comp had been 'hijacked' by my mum... for the past wk, i muz apologise to those who saw me logging onto msn & had talked to me for being 'dao'.. actually the one who was online all tis while is not me but my mum...

for no particular reason, she was addicted to the online games & had even go to the extent of getting computer games cd-rom.... playing the games late into the nite in my room & slp later den me... i am super-deprived from using the comp.. haven even uploaded those photos that we had taken at shu's birthday celebration..

erm.. thk shall start wif Friday 1st since i stop half-way there..

went to meet em at suntec ard 7 plus.. we were supposed to meet at 730 but as usual everyone was late.. it has always been a JC practice for us to be late.. in e end, i am e 1st one to reach even though i was late for 45 min cause i went to get shu's present...

we went to haf our dinner at tony romas.. even though i am still quite full from my 'korean style stone rice' lunch in JB, i still share a regular slab baby back wif ah ma... its really heavenly.. not forgetting their famous onion rings & skillet cookies... wow.. damn sinful but its damn nice.. thk i haf found a new love..... SKILLET COOKIES....... it has replaced the brownies position in my heart as my fav. desserts.. hehe

we chatted until 11 & was the last group of ppl to leave the restaurant.. thk the crew muz be damn pissed wif us... we walked all the way from suntec to timbre.. the walk is really torturing.. each n everyone of us is wearing heels.. tat's not the worse thing.. the worse one is when we reached timbre, the place is packed.. cant even get a small table to accomodate us.. in e end, we haf to end our day like tis.....

Saturday....

Woke up at 7 in e morning because i need to go to the ICA wif my family.. i need to get my photo changed & my brother to extend his passport thingy.. up till now, we still din really talk to one another.. thk tis will last for quite sometime....

daddy drove us there specially.. tat's really nice of him.. hehe.. he is so homely now... we had our breakfast at the chinatown market b4 heading down to ICA.. when i reached there, i regretted going.. its damn packed.. shouldnt haf come on a weekend... at tat point den i realise that they had changed their policy from sept onwards, for those that need to get their photo changed, they muz haf their passport replaced.. wat is tis!!! the queue is like never ending.... i decided to get mine done another day instead... as for brother, he went ahead n we had to wait for an hour jux to get that chop... such a simple thing already took so long, i really duno mine will be like wat.......

daddy fetch us back aft tat & i slakced at home for the whole day...

Sunday....

actually its not worth mentioning at all cause aft my tuition in e morning, i jux practically slacked at home & lie on the sofa from morning to nite, watching tv all the way.. the most funny thing is i thk i lie too much until i developed tis headache.. haha.. slack until i get headache.. well, thk i should really start to move my butt....

Monday....

drove to sch even though its a early afternoon class.. tsk tsk.. am damn lazy tis days.. hehe.. well, its because i got tuition in e afternoon so i thk its more convenient for me to drive..

aft tuition, i jux haf tis urge to exercise so i change into my running gear n went jogging.. thk i must seriously go n get a sports bra soon.. the one i am having is giving me problems now.. argh~~ haf to spend another sum of money..... aft tat, i met anna for drks until 12 plus b4 coming back home & finding my mum still playing the comp inside my room.... haha....

Tuesday.....

was late for class once again.. its all because of the jam but its alrite also cause today i am having my killer lecture ----> FI

the lecturer never fail to make me lose interest in watever she teach.. in my whole 2 yrs plus in SIM, tis is e 1st time i lose interest in a subject so soon... time really like slow down during her lect cause aft our break i had been talking to billy for a super long time abt alot of things but when i look up at the clock, only half an hr had passed!!! no amount of coffee helps in anyway...... will chicken essence do?? well, thk i better dun waste my money.. haf to jux rely on myself...

rite aft sch, i went to lawrence's place to meet him & geraldine to play MJ.. met them at the coffeeshop near his place for a drk 1st.. had a long catch-up session wif her but its mostly regarding the issue on his bf... its really complicated..

looking at her, i realise how fortunate i am for being single.. well, actually its not because of her tat i felt tis way... alot of my frenz have been facing tis problem recently & makes me feel so carefree alone.. no need to account to anyone abt anything, can jux do things impromptu.. i am beginning to go back to my past self when i can jux be contented alone & enjoying the time alone.. being alone doesnt mean u will feel lonely, sometimes it can be very 'chong shi' also....

we stayed there until 10 plus b4 going home.. aft i bath i am jux too tired to 'fight' wif my mum for the comp le....

Wednesday.... (today!!)

having morning lect but i went on my own.. was only late for 5 min even though i left my place the same time on those days that i drive.. love MA.. its really fun.. thk i am really a finance person.. there's alot of tutorial given by the lecturer, so i thk i am gonna start my studying routine soon...

its billy turn to send me to the train station today.. went to meet teck at bugis cause i need to meet aaron to pass him the money for my dad's insurance thingy & need to go to the office to get the laptop that lawrence lend to me... its really kind of him to save me from the 'deprivation of the comp'.. tat's how i manage to come here now & update u guys on wat's happening to me... haha...

well, actually its not my mum's 'fault' totally.. cause my sis also kps on using my comp... one play in e afternoon, e other in e nite... so only left one slot for me, which is e morning... but sometimes i will haf morning lect, tuition etc.... so........ ok la, i mux say sth in fairness.. actually my mum will wan to let me play instead but i dun wan... cause i thk other den watching tv she gt no source of entertainment le so jux let her enjoy herself ba.... :)

slacking at home now.. woke up quite early today cause felt its too sinful to slp until 9 today.. including yest i haf been slping more den 16 hours over the past 24 hours.. wow... haha...

went to JB wif my mum jux now to haf our lunch n bought 2 pairs of shoes.. hehe.. tat's really one gd thing for staying near m'sia.. its so convenient to go there as compared to town... but later on, i am going to town to celeb ah shu's biday.. its her 22nd bday today... we haf decided to go out for dinner n chill later on but den i am more into MJ.. thk i am once again addicted to the game already.. kp on wanting to play n finding ppl to play... die..

jux now, the custom officer told me to change my photos.. wa.. having a few more pimple mark on my face doesnt mean that i haf changed my looks lo... haf to go down all e way to lavender to change the photo.. its damn troublesome.. haf to change my tuition timing to sun so tat tml i can go down there to do the necessary changes.. luckily mum will be going down there tml.. at least i can go wif em n go shop wif her in town tml.. hehe.. at least i can kill 2 bird wif a stone...

haven been exercising tis days.. no time n am too lazy once again..

only managed to slp at 1030am today.. was up for more den 27 hours.. haven been up for so long ever since 5 mths back.. was really surprised by how alert i am tis morning when i came back from qc's place wif brandon...

went to his place late last nite for our 1st overnight MJ session at his place.. met brandon at jurong east 1st n went down together.. was supposed to meet at 11 one but in e end, we only reached his place ard 12.. at tat pt of time, i am damn tired lo.. been slacking at home for e whole nite & the slping mood is kicking in.. haha.. had to ask qc to get me a cup of coffee 1st b4 we start the game..

i am the gunner for the 1st round lo.. lost quite alot.. haha.. thk i still haf to brush up my skills ba.. den we decide to order food.. haha.. its like a normal routine for me to eat MAC whenever i play overnight MJ.. tat time at lawrence's place also like tat lo..

we played 3 rounds n only managed to finish the whole game at 830... which is the time for us to start our morning lect.. haha.. i was really amazed that we had stayed up for so long lo... haha.. me & brandon walked to the train station & b4 i went home, i still go to get breakfast for my mum... even though i had been up for so long, i dun feel tired at all.. wat's most funny is i feel very refreshed as if i had jux had a gd nite rest.. well, sometimes even when i had a gd nite rest i also wont feel tat refreshed.. erm.. thk something is really wrong wif my body.. i am jux a weird person...

gt into a really deep slp once i lie on e bed.. was thking of going out wif my mum today one but in e end, she asked me to haf a gd rest at home.. so i slp until 4 plus.. haha.. damn man zu.. but i gt a very big problem now.. how am i supposed to slp at nite later???

has been watching tis korean show 'my girl' tis few days online.. actually i already finish tis show last yr when it was showing on ch55.. last wk, they repeat the show again & i was addicted to the show once again... its my fav korean show among all those i haf watched... thk its all because of the OST of the whole drama ba... though i duno wat they are singing but the songs are really very nice... if u guys have a chance, should go n listen to the whole album... some songs really can make u cry....

very fast lo.. it has been a yr since i last watch tis show but everything seems like it has jux happened yest.. in another 2.5 mths time, 2007 is gonna become a past tense... tat's so scary...

went to swim wif teck at my tuition kid's condo tis afternoon.. we were supposed to meet in e morning one but he had to go back to his workplace so change to afternoon.. only managed to swim for half an hour cause he wanted to go back home n try out making oreo cheesecake which i used to make for him in e past... had to go to the supermarket & acc him to buy the ingredients... aft that, he waited at my void deck cause he needs to borrow the utensils from me also.. really damn mafan lei... luckily he din mean it by asking me to go his place & demo to him lo...

felt damn tired aft the swimming session.. tml might go n swim once again.. was called to relief a tuition class at the last min... so i took a nap 1st b4 going down there in e evening..

chatted wif him in e afternoon.. duno y i am damn hyper tis days esp during our conversation.. super lame lei.. jux felt damn diff today.. duno lei.. i jux know when i am toking to him, i will not be myself... i jux cant speak freely wats on my mind &......... its jux diff from others... isit because i mind too much abt how he will thk & stuffs??

was reading the past msgs tat he sent me.. i havent deleted a whole lot of em until now.. while reading those msgs, i felt like i am going thru the whole thing once again.. re-living all e memories but not feeling as bad as in e past.. all e msgs tat he sent will be gone in another few days time cause i am going to send my phone in for servicing.. all e datas will be erased, including all e msgs he sent me..... will e memories be erased together wif e msg?? will e memories fade off once the msgs are being erased as there are nth left to remind me time to time abt the things tat happened??

sometimes i wonder, if we din go thru all those things, how will we behave now?? msging each other once in a while?? asking each other will he be going down to club on next wed?? asking him out to study?? i feel tat in e past, it will be easier for me to ask him wan to come out or not.. the intention is very clear cut.. as for now, there's like alot of grey areas.... ask him out for catching out also very fake cause most of the time we will still chat wif one another online.. but its not those very in depth type of chatting... dun ask him out will thk like very long din see him le, should come out n see how he is now... erm.. very confusing rite?? ha, i also thk so lei.. well, tat's me ba.. very hard to understand.... very weird...

am damn tired for the past 2 days.. my morning lect finally started.. the half an hour really makes alot of diff lo..

esp on tue when it started raining out of a sudden & everywhere is filled wif cars & jam.. i decided to drive because of the weather though i still haf some phobia abt driving aft the small accident on sun... i never drive on the road at such a timing & i really regretted... i took more den 45 min to reach sch for a usual 20 min journey...

at times i am quite intimidated by all those traffic... muz drive damn carefully cause i dun wan to scratched my dad's car again.. 1st time i drive to sch aft so long, quite unfamiliar wif all those parking at its car park.. hehe.. luckily that morn the underground car park is quite empty..

was late for lect & i muz really hanf it to the lecturer.. she is really gd at hynoptising ppl.. felt damn slpy & tired during her lect.. was damn amazed i din doze off but i dun understand a single thing she said... we met yaoquan, billy's cousin 4 lunch.. i din know tat he started studying in SIM le... erm.. its so great cause our SIM gang gt a newcomer liao... haha...

its our student wk, so the sch is exceptionally vibrant wif all those bizzare & activities like dodgeball, soccer comp going on.. 1st time in the 3 yrs tat our sch is so happening.. saw alot of new faces also, not forgetting to mention our escalator is finally able to serve us.. haha...

went for my MSM in e afternoon wif billy.. really felt very tired even though i jux nua there doing nth... came back home rite after sch cause wanna go to swim b4 meeting shaoyun & anna for dinner but den the swimming pool in under renovation.. argh~~

met them at CWP for dinner as a pre-celeb for shaoyun's b'day.. aft tat, we went to the Mac at civics to rot... did alot of catching up & its really damn relaxing to jux sit there chatting, enjoying each other's company.. erm.. well, is tat a sign of me getting old?? hee.. we stayed there until 11 & went back home cause the next morning i still gt a morning lect....


the normal group photo...


the 'abnormal' group photo...


my sec sch best frenz..


me & shaoyun....

as for yest, i took public transport to sch instead cause i need to go out in e afternoon den very lazy to drive to town... was caught in the stupid morning jam once again.. i thk i will be late most of the time tis yr cause i am vying wif the working crowd the usage of the road... damn~~

was quite motivated by the lecturer yest.. like his teaching method but i thk this subject is gonna to be very tough... aft lect, went to meet brandon & wilson in e canteen to collect my stuffs.. den billy drove us to clementi to haf botak jones.. 1st time eating there & knowing where is the location of it.. well, its quite normal to me, not wat i expected it to be..

aft lunch, i went to town to meet Teck cause i need to go to collect my medication & i forced him to acc me.. haha.. walk all the way to selegie from PS.. den walk back to cathay to shop.. there's nth much there except for cinema.. wanted to catch a movie one but he dun wan... :p aft all the walking, my feet is super painful mainly because of my stupid new pair of shoe.. thk i gt the wrong size le, its a bit small for me... wat's worse is i am damn slpy & i cant go back home cause at nite i am going wif QC to his frenz b'day party at a pub..

so we started shopping.. took tis while he is trying his clothes at the dressing room.. hee.. i am really damn bimbotic rite.. can take photo at any time, any where.. hehe...


realise i look like a nurse rite.. ha...



we sat down to take a rest & he started playing his mini mind games tat he jux bought.. its quite interesting but i dun thk i'll be able to get it right unless i look at the solutions.. well, playing tis kinda thing is jux not my cup of tea la...


he look very serious here rite??

met his frenz at cine aft tat & shop wif em until & b4 i went to kallang to meet QC.. went to the pub near to chinatown & we were the 1st to reach.. started chatting abt alot of stuffs b4 his frenz came.. thk he also having alot of pro now.. hope he can solve it wif a clear mind & solve the pro soon ba..

even though he is not the b'day boy, i duno y he was targeted to drk instead?? its damn funny..



we stayed there until 11 plus & took a cab back.. reslise how tired i am when i saw my bed.. was knocked out the moment i bath...

jux finish watching jay chou ' secrets' today... i really like the twist of the show.. but the ending leaves too much space for imagination le.. its a gd thing la.. but for a person tat is as blur as me, i really cannot get it... haha... gonna ask qc to explain to me tml liao... i am like hanging at no where now...

argh.. tml gt morning lect.. muz wake up at 7!!! wa.. i really cant rem how long has it been since i last wake up so early to go for class... last time our easliest lect is at 9, now it has changed to 830.... okok, i know its only half an hr diff but when it starts at 9, i am also late or will jux reach on e dot.. now.... die....

was supposed to meet teck to swim tis afternoon one but den it kps raining the whole day.. in e end, the whole thing is called off once again.. tis is not the 1st time already lo.. den tml he ask me to teach him how to make oreo cheesecake but i already gt a date liao.. so cant make it.... shall see how on wed ba....

tml marks e actual start of my new sch yr.. everything will be started afresh.. seriously, i muz really move on le... wat can be done should be done already.. there's nth much i can do also now... jean told me to use tis hols to forget, tml will be e deadline for it.. so by tml, i must no matter wat....

was damn free today & started counting how many wks ago since everything happened.. wow, it has been 20 wks already... tat's like damn long la.. really cant believe it lo... so zhun & so long.. haha... 20 wks = 5 mths.. realised just how long i haf been bothered by tis issue.... i thk it should be enough le ba...

damn... i gt into a small accident today.. actually tis thing can be avoided one.. its all because of the stupid & careless me... argh~~ really hate myself for being wat i am...... i should haf f*** care abt the driver behind & not be 'stressed' by him.... at tis pt of time, the least thing i wan & need is an accident tat will caused my pocket or worse, my dad's pocket to burn a hole.....

was damn affected by the whole incident today.. feeling damn jittery & paranoid because of the whole shit tat i gt myself into... in no mood to do anything & alot more suay thing started falling upon me also.... why suayness will always be follow by even suay thingy??? are they sister & brother tat cant be seperated???

let's hope everything will be better & not get any worse tis coming wk ba... argh~~ now i gt phobia to drive my dad's car to sch lo... how how?? sch starting at 830... gonna be late from now on... wat's all tis!!!

'forced' myself to slp until 9 plus today.. haha.. thk alot of ppl muz be having tis OS inside their mind... "hello... u can slp until 9 plus lei.. its a blessing liao lo, how come u still muz say force urself??" okok.. i know i know but tis days i told u guys i always will jux 'automatically' wake up at 8 plus w/o fail....

went to m'sia again wif my family once again.. haha.. kps going there tis days.. tat's one of the best thing of staying at a woodlands... there is a honda car show at city square.. really looking forward to the motorshow tis coming yr.. i am quite interested in cars tis days.. hope can get one in e near future... :)

ard 6 plus, i drove to sun plaza to meet lawrence b4 going down to jeremy's place to get the food... we went to sembawang park aft tat... as usual, the gals will be sitting down there waiting for the guys to start the fire...


jeremy trying hard to start the fire...




me & jovii....


us acting cute....


mr billy & me.. ( duno wat he is doing la... )


jeremy & his gf, celine....

brandon & QQ came aft tat.. so i din took any photos of em cause my hands are damn oily because of the food... hehe... ate quite alot again today.. argh~~ alot of funny things happened.. super funny, esp QQ's incident.. we told him we always fish at sembawang last time & while we were all chatting at the table, he started messing ard wif the fishing rod nearby thking it was ours... moments later, he came back scolding us saying he was confronted by the owner... wahaha.....

we stayed there until 11 & decide to leave cause i need to send some of em to the train station to catch the last train & bus... manage to reach home ard 1130.. 1st time i went for a bbq & came back that early.. well, tat's one gd thing abt having a transportation.... hehe....

woke up ard 8 plus again today.. tis days i haf been waking up ard tat time automatically.. well, thk its probably the after-effect caused by being an 'OL" for 2 full mths.. haha..

there's another ecr today at 10am for yr 3 student.. i wanna change my MSM from tue afternoon to mon morning one.. but the system was damn cocked up... cant login or even when i login already, they will jux 'kick' me out of a sudden.. damn pek cek.. in e end, i decide to jux stick to my original one.. really gif up on it....

aft tat, i went to haf my dad's car service as scheduled... sth is wrong wif it so mux bring it down to the centre.. den mum & i went to Vivo City... been some time since i last go there.. thk probably e last time was wif him, when we catch a movie there.... duno y, mummy suggested to watch movie today also & the theatre we went to is jux next to the previous one.... tat's fate ba.. actually if it weren't for those things to remind me, i probably would haf tot tat everything is jux a dream... okok... i know i haf mentioned tat alot of times already but it really seems like one to me....it kept giving me tis feelings even until tis pt of time....

haven been watching movies wif mummy for ages.. & it means more den 10 yrs... yes.. tat's so scary rite... haha...i also duno y we din catch a movie for so long.. erm.. mayb i am always watching movies wif my frenz & there are not much shows she like to watch also ba... :)


mummy & I at the theatre....

finally, i got a chance to try out the donuts.. i dun thk its e same chain as the one at suntec nor raffles city... i bought one from Vivo & another from IMM... prefered the latter one.. thk i am gonna love tis 'tiny little rings' jux like how singaporeans are crazy abt it now.... i am really interested to try out all those new or interesting flavours tat are not normally available... tat's y those 2 flavours i tried today are not those conventional ones... but i thk b4 i tried each n every of the flavours available, i would haf become a 'xiao pang nui' already.... haha...

my feets are hurting due to the stupid new shoe that i bought yest.. now its damn painful... argh~~ am glad that i drove today if not i thk now it wowuld haf become a pig trotter already....

i jux came back from bugis shopping spree.. was damn happy.. its e 1st shopping spree i haf ever since i haf my hols.. haf been busy working n haf no time to go to shop even my workplace is jux ard the my shopping heaven BUGIS VILLAGE!!!

okok.. i know i was there on sun but its not like today.. going to shop wif gals is definitely very diff when i am wif my guy frenz.. damn happy.. haha.. cause i bought a new dress, a new pair of shoe & my long wanted skinny jeans... but i dun look skinny in it at all!! damn sad.. my diet prog has failed completely once again.... well, thk i really no hope liao.. i jux cant resist food... the temptation.... haiz....

went to the office today to finish up some of my remaining submission.. QQ is there working already... heard lawrence say that they are going to haf some renovation thingy next wk.. so most pro i wont be going to work.... den tis coming sat, they are going to haf a team BBQ thingy at sembawang park... looking forward to it cause we never really had a proper team outing b4... but tis time round, mr kenny is not ard also.. he is going to bintan wif his frenz... haiz.....

there's so many things i wanna get, esp the navel studs.. the green & yellow butterfly studs... i rem tat time i saw it, it was not so big one lei... its like it has grown over the mths.... i wan sth that is distinct & small cause if its too big, the weight might cause some pro to my navel..... but normally, those distinct one are those big & heavy type... argh~~~ why am i so troublesome... erm... well, mayb i am jux born to be a troublemaker ba.....

was supposed to go back to sch yest to pay for my sch fees one but sth crops up.. was told tat we are able to change our timetable again & muz do it b4 we make our payment... thus there was a change in our plan... i din meet qc & jean as planned... instead, i went to JB wif my parents... went there to haf our lunch & came back ard 4...

was surprised tat teck msg me & we met for dinner at CWP.. he had gone to Sentosa for an interview earlier on in e afternoon... we met ard 7 & walk ard CWP cause he wanted to get some new clothes.. had been shopping wif him since sun but in e end, he din get anything.. the one who bought stuffs are me!!! wat's tis.....

as usual, he went home empty-handed.. frankly, there's not much youngster apparel shop in CWP also.. he cant even get anything in town already, let alone here la... we went on window shopping at all those sort of weird weird places like in e past.. den he suggested to go jogging.. i am not against the idea but its already 8 & he still need to go back home to get his stuffs.. by the time he is done i duno it will be how late already.. its not as if we are staying very near to each other la... but nvm, there will be a chance when we can go jog together one.. he is like damn free for the next few wks lo.. :)

met wilson at the interchange.. he changed quite abit.. he is now working at prudential & really looks like a working adult wif his attire..

btw, tat's some of the photos that i haf taken for the past few days.. am jux lazy to upload it online cause i am busy watching the korean drama ' witch yoo hee '.. its really damn nice & funny.. the female lead is really very PRETTY!!!!


tat's one i took b4 i went to meet teck on sun wif my new image... :)


the bimbo me at qc's room.....


they are busy checking online for the air tickets... we are going on a vacation soon!!! ( hopefully la.... )


jean darling, qc & me.....

finally gt my results yest already.. wanted to come online to blog aft returning my holland V one but den i was having tis terrible headache so went to bed straight aft i bath....

gt the news from jean darling when i reached my tuition kids place.. was damn nervous while i was logging into the intranet there... when i saw my results i was quite satisfied wif it except for my IM... i tot i would get a 1st class for tat subject but in e end, i miss 3 marks to get into tat category....

time really flies... its jux like yest tat i started my exam & now i already gt my results le.. its been 4 mths.... wat haf i done during tis period??? it seems like a blank wif nth worth remembering apart from tat incident....

went to qc house rite aft tat for MJ.... lost again.. thk tis couple of days i am really down on my luck but i am still dying to play MJ... thk i am once again addicted to it already....

aft tat me & qc went to haf nydc for dinner.. its time to haf a sumptuous meal to reward myself.. hehe.. super long never go n eat there already... thk the last time is when i was wif him at suntec... we chatted abt alot of things... its been 2 mths since we last seen each other... my life is quite boring as compared to his... so i was doing the listening most of the time... we stayed there until 9 plus b4 he sent me to the bus stop.....

took 75 to bukit panjang & change to another bus back... reminds me of quite alot of things... how he used to send me back home etc when i went to find him at his workplace... well... thk tis shall be e last time i am going to be reminded of tis things already... sch is restarting & its time for me to put the past behind me... put everything behind me n not go n thk abt it anymore.. its a new sch term & its a brand new yr for me... shall leave everything behind n start things afresh from now on..... :)

die..... gonna get my results later in e nite.. super stressed now.. thk my VIP gonna haf a few more already.. haven been slping well at nite because of my dad's insurance thingy & now i am fidgeting because of the release of my results.... really feeling damn nervous now.. the results tis yr will matters alot on my final ones.. frankly speaking, i dun thk i will meet my expectations... having so much things happening during that period & going on a trip jux a wk b4 my papers doesnt seems convincing for me to get a gd results in any aspect at all.....

even though i haf already tried to kp my cool & remain calm during tat period as much as i can, the impact is really too large already... i can jux hope tat at least i can stil get my 2nd upper & not worse den tat... i duno wat i will do tonight when i get my results & its really very bad.... how how.....

jux came back from the 'date' wif teck.. haha.. cannot consider as a date la, jux a meeting or plainly, he jux need company to go to town wif him... it has been a yr since we last went out together... there was once in june but we only went to watch movie & din talk much also... so tis is considered to be the very 1st outing aft we really become frenz wif each other, w/o any more feelings for each other....

i am more careful abt wat i said & done to him now.. cause now we are only frenz so there's alot of things which cannot be done & said out freely like in e past.. in some extent, you can considered it to be being distant from him ba... well, things will definitely change, esp when e position of u has changed in his life....

he came to meet me at marsiling & from there, we went down town together.. tat's one thing tat haven changed.. haha.. in e past he will also meet me here 1st b4 we go anywhere.. actually, he can take a straight bus to go to town from his place one but he din.. its really nice of him for not letting me travelling down alone to town... :)

we went to novena square to check out the place.. haven been going there since the velocity there is opened.. had out late lunch at ajisen b4 we went to bugis... damn happy cause i haven been going there to shop for like mths.. yes yes, my office is at bugis but i haf no time to go there to shop.. can imagine how busy i am rite.... wanted to get alot of things but i din shop much cause he was wif me.. dun wanna make him wait for me... haiz.. tat's y i dun like to go shopping there wif guys..... but we gt one thing in common now... we are searching for studs together.. haha..

i never imagine that we will be shopping for the same thing together.. normally the things tat both of us like are damn different.. haha.. its damn amazing tat now we share the same interest & its one tat i haf never tot we will ever share... till now, i am still shock wif his tongue stud... & he is telling me he wanted to get more body piercing!!!

aft tat we walked to raffles city cause i wanna go n buy the donuts.. i know he hate to wait & queue but he still suggest to go there despite tat.... as usual, the queue for the stupid donut is damn long.... jux walk pass it & left, i know if i told him i wan to queue, he will do it but i am damn lazy also la.. haha... duno muz wait until how long.....

my main aim today is to go to comex to get my harddisk.. i tot he knows abt comp stuffs & wan to engage his help but he is jus e same as me.. okok.. its abit beta den me... so in e end, we din go there cause go already also no use... in e end, i ask brandon to help me get it....

we walked all e way to marina square aft tat & he suggest to go n catch a movie... ever since the last time i went wif HIM to watch spiderman 3 at marina, i haven been stepping into tat theatre anymore.. walking the same old route there, some memories flashed back.. at tat pt of time, i know tat i am over teck, only treating him as a very close frenz.. cause i am alone wif him now but thking of another guy & is feeling upset because of HIM.... to me, tat day was e happiest day we shared together during tat period of time... although i am having my exams tat day & was damn drained out, i still felt very happy & blessed because of him.... because of all the things tat he had done & said to me tat day.....

we shop ard for a while & decide to take e bus back.. while walking to the bus stop, it was drizzling... very long never walk in e rain, felt quite refreshed & enjoyed the feeling of the rain 'hitting' on me.. i haf always like the feeling of walking in e rain, providing its not a downpour la.. it can really makes u feel very relax & 'washed' away all the tireness & unhappiness inside of me....

as usual, i slp all e way from the moment i gt on to the bus until bukit panjang where he alight... it was jux like the past but tis time round, i din rest on his shoulder.... aft he alighted, i was quite awake already.. deciding wanna to go cwp or wanna go home straight.. in e end, i chooose the latter.. very lazy & felt quite tired.. thk its all because of the late night mj session at lawrence's place on fri... thk i am really getting old, a late night out can make me feel tired for 2 whole day... age is really catching up on me......