went to swim wif teck at my tuition kid's condo tis afternoon.. we were supposed to meet in e morning one but he had to go back to his workplace so change to afternoon.. only managed to swim for half an hour cause he wanted to go back home n try out making oreo cheesecake which i used to make for him in e past... had to go to the supermarket & acc him to buy the ingredients... aft that, he waited at my void deck cause he needs to borrow the utensils from me also.. really damn mafan lei... luckily he din mean it by asking me to go his place & demo to him lo...

felt damn tired aft the swimming session.. tml might go n swim once again.. was called to relief a tuition class at the last min... so i took a nap 1st b4 going down there in e evening..

chatted wif him in e afternoon.. duno y i am damn hyper tis days esp during our conversation.. super lame lei.. jux felt damn diff today.. duno lei.. i jux know when i am toking to him, i will not be myself... i jux cant speak freely wats on my mind &......... its jux diff from others... isit because i mind too much abt how he will thk & stuffs??

was reading the past msgs tat he sent me.. i havent deleted a whole lot of em until now.. while reading those msgs, i felt like i am going thru the whole thing once again.. re-living all e memories but not feeling as bad as in e past.. all e msgs tat he sent will be gone in another few days time cause i am going to send my phone in for servicing.. all e datas will be erased, including all e msgs he sent me..... will e memories be erased together wif e msg?? will e memories fade off once the msgs are being erased as there are nth left to remind me time to time abt the things tat happened??

sometimes i wonder, if we din go thru all those things, how will we behave now?? msging each other once in a while?? asking each other will he be going down to club on next wed?? asking him out to study?? i feel tat in e past, it will be easier for me to ask him wan to come out or not.. the intention is very clear cut.. as for now, there's like alot of grey areas.... ask him out for catching out also very fake cause most of the time we will still chat wif one another online.. but its not those very in depth type of chatting... dun ask him out will thk like very long din see him le, should come out n see how he is now... erm.. very confusing rite?? ha, i also thk so lei.. well, tat's me ba.. very hard to understand.... very weird...