having the right to feel emotional today...

memories are tying me down, holding me back & making me feel suffocated....

i tot i have moved on & i did but i am moving in circles... i will always walk back to the starting pt when i have 'finished' one round.. wat's diff is the circle seems to become larger & larger so, the time for me to go 'back' just become longer....

i am someone who wont fall for a guy easy, this my frenz can all vouch for me.. that is because i know once i fell for a guy, i will give out all my feelings & bare my heart to him.. i dun care about wat others thk or obstacles are there... ( and i really mean DUN CARE...) i will just go all out to like & love him... because of this characteristic, i am always getting 'bruises' all over myself... all my frenz thk & deemed my actions of being stupid.. well, i agree totally.. but despite that, i just cant help doing it again & again..

sometimes i really hate myself cause because of my selfish action, someone might get hurt.... i really dun haf any intention of hurting anyone with wat i did.... i felt really sorry towards those ppl who got hurt of my action... really really sorry... i am not trying to be a saint here by saying all this.. some ppl might thk tat i am just trying to portrait myself to be a gd & holy person... well, i can tell u guys i am NOT~~~ if really i am trying to portrait myself to be someone, den i thk i am more like a loser or a bitch....

just came back from a supper session with teck at the prata outlet near my place.. he had cycled all the way from teck whye using the old woodlands road until here.. he want to try out his new bicycle & is using all the chance to work out as much as he can.. he is really obsessed with working out tis days.. but he also eat alot for supper.. he had a roti john, a plate of hot & spicy sotong, a banana shake & bundung..

while eating, i was fascinated by one of the small tinny winny sotong.. it has 2 super duper long tentacles in the middle but it already has 8 of em surrounding it.. i tot normally an octopus only has 8, how come tis gt 10!! so we got into a octopus, sotong, squid & cuttlefish topic.... its really damn stupid but very funny.. haha... ya, that's wat we normally do when we meet up.. talking & debating about tis kinda of stuffs.....

look at how long the tentacles are....

after sch, i met anna in my sch, we haf decided to go & haf botak jones at woodgrove.. was walking ard the bizzare with billy while waiting for him.. realise that the bizzarre tis time round gt the most 'buyable' stuffs throughout my 2 yrs of studying in SIM.. our bizzare is finally improving!!! while walking, billy bought sth for his gf to cheer her up.. its really sweet of him....

the sweet little gift for his gf.... of course there's others also....

once again, we were all very bored during ms beth aka ladybird lesson... OMG when will my suffering ends??

even our honours tan was yawning.... special thx to jean 4 contributing the hand & hp...

while walking out of the MSM class with billy i saw this!!! haha.. thk our lecture is boring our fellow lecture-mate here & lead him to drawing his great piece..

met rex in the lect & asked him about his halloween night @ zouk... look at the video & you will know how happening it is.......

the one in yellow is mr rex aka 僵尸道长...

yeah... the 3 days weekend job has finally ended.. this assignment is really very very slack.. other than standing there to take care of the counter & serving those interested customer, we are pratically using the comp & online most of the time.. if not, we will be having our break!! but still, my leg doesnt feel like mine at all now.. its super painful at the soe.. thk its because of how i stand, i tend to put all the pressure at the sole...

i came in late today because i need to go for my tuition at the centre.. its my last lesson with my class le.. 有点依依不舍.. had been teaching em almost 4 mths, the kids are really very 懂事.. seriously i had met those who just come for tuition to waste their parents' money.. they are not in e mood to study but just there for the sake of being there.. as for this class, they seriously wan to learn & i felt happy teaching em.. really hope that everyone in the class will score well.. :) i am really going to miss em...

ok enough for the sad feeling.. a super amazing thing happened today at the roadshow.. the rain started dripping into the sony camera booth next to us from the top of the glass ceiling.. there was a small commotion cause everyone was like gathering ard the booth trying to shift it to somewhere 'safe'...

shifting in process due to --->

me & ah li were in jeopardy while taking this photos cause while we were doing it, the IC was just next to us, looking damn pissed at the whole thing & we were like gloating over their 'misfortune'.. haha.. super bad rite??

aft the whole commotion is over, we continued our slacking session.. this time round, together with the promoter of e other booth.. haha.. guess its like the last day of the roadshow, everyone is like damn sian & no mood to work already, not forgetting the sales & crowd today was damn bad...

thk we are pratically hopeless...

know wat!! the other sony promoter from the camera side told me that he tot i was a malay or a thai ( anything other than a chi ) when he 1st saw me... (*_*"') wat is this!!! i am not as tan as i used to be in e past already but why am i still being mistaken?? do i really look like a non-chinese?? erm, are they indirectly trying to say i am pretty?? well, that must be e case!! hehe...

aft work, we went to chinatown to have porridge.. had been having the craving for their 卤豆腐.. yum yum.. at least now i am eating sth healthy so not feeling as sinful.. hasnt been eating there for more den half a yr, can still rem who i went with the last time.. its someone whom i felt really sorry towards to now...

was at the train station wif ah li & overheard a conversation b/w 2 kids.. they look less den 13 yrs old to me & the conversation goes like this....

younger boy : ' eh, where's the thing?? just now i only smoke half.. later you must return me hor!!'

older boy : ' huh?? still need to return to you?? no need la.. y u so gek gao?? '

i looked at ah li den looked at the boys... i supposed they are not talking about the cigarette candy that the kids used to eat & act as if they are smoking... so they are talking about smoking really cigarettes!!! OMG.... i wonder have they reached their puberty... just wat is this world coming to???

i am back~~~ back to carry on my life...

yes, after a mth or so of the blog, i am back to my 'hometown'!!! thk i am more comfortable in blogging here since i have been doing so for like more den yrs... there's no place in this world that is better than being at 'home' & here is my virtual home where i can release all my feelings w/o any worries...

wanted to blog how i felt last nite damn badly but the internet is giving me pro.. well, mayb its heaven will for me to keep wat i wanna write as a private thing to myself.. now, i am like carrying on my life from where i had let it stopped in e past.. half a yr le.. its time to start from where i have stopped, thk i have been stagnant at the 'comfort' zone for quite awhile.. should leave that place & find somewhere that really belongs to me from now on...

life has never been so fulfiling like how i felt today for mths.. even though i am quite tired from the standing during the roadshow at funan wif ah li, i still wan to come here & blog about the things that happened etc.. its been a long time since i last felt the drive inside of me & i really hope this is just the beginning & not like a small sparks that will end in e next few days...

was looking thru ah li's blog during our working time.. i really envy her for being able to go to the US work & travel prog.. its really an experience which one will & may never ever encounter even once in a lifetime.. how i wish i can be there next yr but due to my financial status & constraint now, i have no choice but to give it a miss.. i know in e future when i look back, i am sure gonna regret it but there's really nth i can do..

me & ah li @ the roadshow..

apart from being paid to serve the customer & promote our product, we were also being paid to surf the net because of the laptop that they left us to demo to the customer how convenient the product is.. aft work @ 8, we decide not to waste our sat nite by going home straight after work so we went for a walk.. while we were walking to MS, we met a american couple.. they were asking us where can they catch a movie ard the area.. to live up the name for being 2 pretty & kind-hearted gal, we offered to walk em there.. hehe...

we went to john little which is like having a mega sale & every corner in there is just like they had been raided.. everywhere is in a chaos & the 2 of us join in e fun.. haha.. din really managed to shop ard cause its already 9 plus by the time we went one round inside JL.. so we went to haf our dinner at the HK restaurant... thx to ah li's mesmerising blinking skills, we gt the crew to make us a special order
---> condensed milk peanut butter toast with... MILO on top!!!

li's with the special invention of hers..

with me being the guinea pig...

the crew is really very nice cause he bring us another plate of milo powder for fear that the one which is on top the bread is not enough for the both of us.. its really very sweet of him...

lastly, not forgetting the super lady pink picanto displaying at the kia roadshow at MS.. its really damn cute... gals, prepare to scream....