memories are tying me down, holding me back & making me feel suffocated....
i tot i have moved on & i did but i am moving in circles... i will always walk back to the starting pt when i have 'finished' one round.. wat's diff is the circle seems to become larger & larger so, the time for me to go 'back' just become longer....
i am someone who wont fall for a guy easy, this my frenz can all vouch for me.. that is because i know once i fell for a guy, i will give out all my feelings & bare my heart to him.. i dun care about wat others thk or obstacles are there... ( and i really mean DUN CARE...) i will just go all out to like & love him... because of this characteristic, i am always getting 'bruises' all over myself... all my frenz thk & deemed my actions of being stupid.. well, i agree totally.. but despite that, i just cant help doing it again & again..
sometimes i really hate myself cause because of my selfish action, someone might get hurt.... i really dun haf any intention of hurting anyone with wat i did.... i felt really sorry towards those ppl who got hurt of my action... really really sorry... i am not trying to be a saint here by saying all this.. some ppl might thk tat i am just trying to portrait myself to be a gd & holy person... well, i can tell u guys i am NOT~~~ if really i am trying to portrait myself to be someone, den i thk i am more like a loser or a bitch....
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