happiness is simple...

its been a long time since i last felt so happy.... i nearly forgot how it felt to be really happy from the bottom of my heart... the feeling of happiness from deep inside rather than being a surface thingy... i guess b4 today, all the smiles that was shown on my face might be just a pretence... wow, wat a statement right? if that is really the case den i am just a superficious person rite?? put it nicely, i am a very accomodating person... haha.. cause i can accomodate to the situation n behave differently and correctly in different scenario...





for the past mths, i had been trying to find the happiness feelings.. i tot i would found it when i was out, with my frenz, when i was drking or watsoever.. i tot only when i am out or with alcohol den i will feel happy n relaxed.. well i was totally wrong.. my happiness is always right next to me... right in my house... they are my family... the happiness i am looking for is actually the simplest one can thk of... its because they are so simple, alot of ppl has missed out on em.. it might be because they dun believe that happiness cannot be attain n get hold of so easily..... but actually IT IS...

sick on the first day of my roadshow~~

i am seriously sick this time round.. i tot i will feel better after popping my panadol n having a gd rest on thur night but i was wrong.. yest when i was at the roadshow, i was practically shivering.. the coldness and backache is really killing me.. in e end, i had to go n see a doc and was sort of scolded by her for coming to work even though i know that i was sick the previous night.. my temperature was like 38.6 degrees and was given a 3 day MC.. she keep on telling me to rest at home n not to drk any alcohol in e next few days..


felt really bad cause i cant help my team n contribute to their sales target for the next 3 days.. i am also afraid that i will have a hard time catching up with em also.. but there is nth i can do now except to rest well n quickly recover.. when i reached home yest, my whole body is like falling apart.. after popping my antibiotics, panamol, throat inflammation pill and the lozenges, i jus fell aslp.. i am only awake for 15 min to have my dinner den i went to slp again.. i keep on switching places to slp.. from my bedroom to my living room n back to the bedroom again.. duno wat i was doing, wanted to catch the show when i was at the living room but once i hit the sofa, my eyes just shut themselves automatically and i fell aslp once again...

wonderful company~~

i just reached home not long ago from my genting trip with anna, yu perng and wayne.... its a really wonderful trip.. its my first time going overseas with anna darling so i am quite excited about the whole trip...

i met her straight after work on fri at bugis with rex and yu peng.. had my dinner with em at this jap-french restaurant on e 2nd level.. i really live the ambience n food there.. it will be one of the place where i will frequent in the future.. aft that, we went for dinner at the famous dessert store at liang seah street b4 heading down to golden mile to take our coach there... we waited until 1045 den the coach reached.. only managed to leave the place ard 1115, its damn late la.. can foresee us reaching genting after 530..

the coach ride was alrite, slp all the way... haha.. damn tired from work.. like wat we foresee, we only reached ard 545, wayne came to fetch us to the hotel room to put our bad and wash up b4 starting our day.. he was already there the previous night due to some happenings..

its been a long time since i stayed @ resort hotel.. i din know they had such a major makeover for the room.. it looks damn cosy n classy.. we decide to meet for breakfast @ 730 but the guys did not come!! they are too engrossed about the game n forget totally about our breakfast meeting.. we just had ours n went to walk ard the place aft that.. when we left that time, which is ard an hr later den they called us n tell us to wait for em..

we went to walk ard first world, the casino and finally met em at the circus place and acc em for breakfast.. the weather was really cooling and it seems like its gonna rain.. we chit-chatted over there b4 walking ard n check out the cable car place cause anna darling wanted to have a ride later.. we went back to the casino b4 checking out from resort & check-in at first world..

me & anna were quite pissed with the new room cause of the the running water.. so we had a change of room.. they gave us a new room at the corner with superb view but we did not stay long in e room also..

we went to take the cable car after having our lunch as requested by anna.. hehe.. at first i dun wan to go one but i went in e end cause its like things might only happened just once so when u have the chance to do it just go ahead... this might be the only time the 4 of us wil go on a vacation like this so i mus treasure everything we do together..

the ride was fun & the weather was superb.. we bought some food from the cable car terminal b4 going back to genting.. we leave the guys at the casino & went back to our hotel to put our stuffs b4 going for our ktv session.. we got this super large room with a super large projector screen.. it seems a little too much for us... haha.. its a 2 hour session that ended about 830.. we went to the arcade after that & tried out some machines.. it was damn funny..

after having our fun @ the arcade, we went to take a walk & went to the park near theme park hotel.. its not drizzling anymore and the night is really clear w/o mist.. we are able to see KL from there.. it was quite an experience also.. had a really nice chat with wayne, thk that was the first time we talk about so many things... we stayed there until 11 b4 heading to the coffeebean at resort hotel for some hot drks to warm us up... i had my favourite latte with the coffeebean cheesecake under the moonlight with the greatest company ever.. what more can i ask for?? hehe.. this is one of the best part of the trip also, we had some talk and it was really engaging..

the 3 of us, excluding wayne went back to the hotel after that cause anna need to take out her contacts.. we joined wayne an hour later at the casino.. he was really mobile & we always had a hard time looking for him in e casino..

anna went back to the hotel to rest ard 3 plus.. as for me, i stayed on n acc perng.. we stayed there until 7 plus b4 anna reached & we went for breakfast together.. by the time i am already super tired.. that is also when the lamest side of me will show up, thk they really cant be bothered with me lo.. haha.. sometimes i cant even stand wat i said also, i just blurted everything that comes into my mind w/o thking at all...

we went for prata den went for dim sum.. haha.. amazed by how much we can eat rite..

perng went to the casino after that while e 3 of us went back to the hotel and packed our stuffs cause we wanted to go the the temple to bai bai.. we took the 11am bus down to the temple.. wa, it changed quite alot.. so different from the last time i went there which was like more den 5 yrs back... i really love the serenity the place gave me.. it was really relaxing and the view was superb.. mus thx wayne for bringing us there...

we took the 1215 bus back & went to find perng at the casino.. the guys continued their session there while me & anna darling went to have our lunch at my favourite place, Old Town Cafe... perng came to join us shortly & it was about to rain by then.. we met wayne at the bell counter at 2pm to collect our lugguage..

it was pouring by then & the terminal was flooded with ppl.. we finally got onto the bus and i was having a headache by then.. din really care about wat is happening & jus force myself to take a nap first... by the time i woke up, we are at the place to buy the local goodies... bought some stuffs and continued slping all the way until the 2nd pit stop.. haha... guess i am really tired, wat i did on the bus is slp n slp n slp... din really get to enjoy the movies, games provided...

the bus uncle was really nice & crappy.. haha.. was really amused by wat he said.. by 9 pm, we already reached singapore.. had our dinner at golden mile, the very same place where we sit with rex 2 nights back while waiting for our bus.. haiz....

everyone felt damn sian about coming back esp when we have to work the next day.. well, that's how everyone will feel whenever they come back from the vacation ba.. its like coming back to reality..

all-in-all, this is really an enjoyable trip with the greatest company ever.. it was fun, informative, everyone is comfortable with everyone, no quarrels or conflicts, we were all very accomodating to one another and i thk that is really very important cause during the trip, the most impt thing is to have fun & enjoyed it.. in this trip, it fits everything... i really enjoyed everything i did during the 2D1N trip.. wat could be improved is the duration, it could have been longer but due to the working schedule of each n everyone, its hard to accomodate and made it longer.. wonder when will the be the next nearest trip...

opps, i just came back from one about 2 hours back and i am now thking for the next one... haha..

do i understand myself??

sometimes i feel like i duno myself at all.. do i really dun understand myself or i just dun wan to go n face it?? working life is making me becoming more n more complicated.. there are so many contradictions... i am like getting more n more away from my wishes of being simple in life.. i want to trust in everyone that comes into my life but i know its impossible to do so in this world... i miss my sch life~~ it was much simpler back then lo..


why are those ppl who are sincere n truthful always at the losing end in this society?? why are they being taken n look upon as a fool for being sincere?? the wrong is not on them but on those ppl who are treating them like fools... ppl are getting wary n suspicious when someone treat them better, they will always think he/she has a motive for doing so... why cant they believe that they are doing so because they wanted to do it that way?? things are actually very simple but why are we making it becoming so complicated.....


how long do i have to live in this sickening society?? i am getting tired of this lo.. i hate to face this kinda shit and i dun thk i am cut out for it also.. is that why i am getting tired?? is becoming a part of the majority the only way out for me to survive in this world??

this was supposed to be my place where i can voice out everything but now i am being skeptical about talking here because of some reasons.... thk i just brought it upon myself lo.... its a first new lesson learnt.... guess there will be more to come.. i found a sentence said by my team leader to be really relevant in life.. dun keep banging ur head into the same wall... its a simple sentence but hard to carry out.....

happy halloween~

yest it was the first time i went out to club & chill on halloween night itself.. in e morning, we were having our papers.. seriously i din really study much cause of the time constraint, its just impossible to finish that whole pile of notes....

the paper took 1hour 45 min... b4 that, we saw declan & eugene.. they had come to tender their resignation... feeling quite sian when i know they are leaving.. i was quite close to em, in a sense tat we talked more den some of my other colleague.. really cant bear to see them leave.. i know the world is cruel & there are alot of things that are beyond our control... guess i have to adapt to this cruelty soon....

in e evening we had our sales assessment.. wait until i wan to slp le.. when i went into the room, my mind was blank, those things which i had forgotten everything i prepared earlier so have to thk about it on the spot.. by the time i finished it is already 8 pm le..

after that i met anna & we went to the riverside by the UOB building to chat while waiting for the others.. i never had a chance to look at the lovely night scene by the singapore river over there even though my office building is just a 2 min walk away...

we went for dinner with junxing, joel & ken.. donavan & sebastian came over to join us later.. after dinner we went to clarke quay.. its damn happening there.. u can see alot of ppl dressed up for the event & it was packed with ppl... its been months since i went to clarke quay.. it has always been my favourite chill out place.. i just like the lighting and feeling the whole place gives me... it feels soothing, relaxed and romantic.. isit because of some happenings there that relate me to the latter feeling? erm.. mayb it did contributes to some of it ba...

we wanted to go to pump room but it seems quite packed... we decide to go to double O n take a look & it seems worse there... turned back to clarke quay, went ard looking for the shortest queue & finally found a place to settle in.. Lunar.. never been there b4 but i find it to be quite alright... only managed to get a drk after 1130...

i can only say that we drank alot & mix alot.. it was really scary looking at how & the amount they drk la.. i can never ever drk like tat lo.. i dun wanna get drunk, high is enough already.. you wont be enjoying the night if u get drunk... they took alot of photos n videos.. shall take a look at them on mon...

we stayed there until 3 plus n went to take a cab home.. reached home ard 4 plus & chatted online with a fren until 6 sth... that explains why i just woke up an hour ago.. haha... just feel like lazing ard at home n not doing anything.. felt quite bad cause cant acc my mum to go out today..