i have been thking wat title should i put for this blog entry and could not decide on a precise one.. its been a long time since i updated my blog and there are so many things which i wan to talk about but the most impt thing i wanna update is more about wat i am feeling rather den wat is happening..


i haven been speaking my mind n blog about my most inner tots on this blog for a really long time.. there was a period in the past which i had this experience b4, but for that time its mostly because i dun wan wat i blog here to affect someone.. as for this time round, there are alot more factors which i wanna factored in.. its not only target at a certain person but rather a few of em....


the nature of this blog has changed.. it used to be a place where i can vent out my emotions and voice out my inner most tots so that i will feel much better.. but now, i jus cant seem to be voicing out my tots as freely as how i used to in the past.. isit because of the world i am in now or isit because this is also part n parcel of growing up? there are alot more factors to thk about when u wan to speak ur mind.... its because of this issue, i seem to be bottling up alot of stuffs this days.. i lost the touch of speaking my mind and if i really wan to do so, i need alot more courage n time to process wat i wan to say out.. most of the time, i jus end up saying 'orh ok'..


was reading thru my blog b4 i start my work.. i really miss the time i spent at home with my mum.. just nuaing on my sofa, playing my PSP all day long, if not just lie there watching dvds with my mum.. i miss the time when we can go genting as n when we wan.. we can like mention about going today n jus go n book the room tml.. i miss the overnight MJ session at alvin's place, i miss the weekday window shopping session in town with my frenz, i miss going to JB in the afternoon with my mum jus to have our lunch & haircut there... all-in-all, i miss my FREEDOM...


really wish to have a resort vacation soon.. jus wanna lie on the beach with a nice cocktail beside me... its been a long time since i go suntanning.. need to get some color back to my skin..


but b4 i can fulfil that wish of mine, i will be going to KL for this Chi New Yr once again.. New Yr always seems to be a very boring occassion for me, this yr its no exception again.... but luckily this yr it doesnt fall on or near my b'day, if not i will be even more SIANZ... i can still rem there was a yr when it falls exactly on the same day.... its total bullshit la, having to put on a false front n fake a smile on a SUPER special day of mine...


well, at least this yr, i will be glad that i can have 4 day straight off and can slp all i wan there.. hehe... super looking forward to the amount of rest which i can get during the new yr period in KL... hehe... well, this is to prepare myself for the different 'tua' of gambling sessions which will be waiting for me when i come back from KL.. wahaha... I miss MJ-ing~~~~

summary of the month..

its been almost a mth since i last updated my blog.. alot of things had happened over the past mth.. i get to meet up quite a few of my frenz whom i haven seen for ages during the festive season, i got to attend parties which i had never attended b4 in e past, i went to places where i had never explored in my life in singapore b4.. all-in-all, the past mth seemed to be a fulfilling mth for me..


but one thing is, i have been showing too much emotions already.. emotions which i shouldnt have shown in e first place.. argh~~


roadshow is coming to an end soon, gonna go back to the dealing room for my OJT already.. last week, the new batch just came in, seeing them reminds me of my first mth in the company.. time really flies, i had been working for 3 mths already.. i really love the culture in my company, mayb more specifically, the culture of my team... we will hang out for dinner, drks or chilling session after work or even during weekend.. :)