Bangkok~~ Here i come...

I am going to bangkok SOON.. haha.. well, its next year feb la... Jus book the air ticket for the trip about an hour back...



Been wanting to go on a trip really badly.. Best is can go this year end but because of my indecisiveness & such, i keep missing the good promo deal cause by the time i decide i want to go, the promo is either over or the timing is fully sold out..



Like the Bali one.. I had been dying to go that place but i miss the 200 plus deal.. argh... Then comes the time when i think that booking for promo fare that travel in Jan very off cause I am dying to go in Dec.. haiz.. Now, i jus dun care so much le.. Dun wan to miss the deal again.. Like this afternoon when i was checking the fare & slot, the Fri leave & Mon come back slot is still there but because i tot i might need to get my passport no. to book, I leave the booking until I came back home.. Who knows by then, the slot from Fri to Mon is already gone & now, I had to book the Sat to Tue slot..



Why i wanna travel in Dec so badly is because i really need to get some fresh air overseas badly & also, its a special month for me.....



I really duno after so long of not updating the blog, will there be ppl still coming to read it... Cause to some extent, I am still quite aware of wat i am writing here currently.. I really duno how has access to this blog & who hasnt.. Like for Benny, i am totally unsure he knows about this blog, even if he does, will he bother to come n look at it...



I hadnt been uploading alot of my entry which i written in a fit of the moment when things happened which i dun dare to upload it.. Cause i am scare of the consequences which might be hiding behind the things i said.. I scare that it might impact others thus i rather keep those entry unpublished.....

Recently I had been having alot of expectations of him & I dun think its a good thing at all.. Cause normally this kinda expectations thing will mostly lead up to consequences that are skewed more to a negative nature.....

Example, I had some expectations of him & will naturally hope he will do it.. But when he din, i will feel disappointed & this is the feeling which i HATE the MOST.. In order not to feel that, I will den try to tell him what i want, which in turn he will do it for me.. But at that point of time, I will feel that he did it because i ask him to not because he wanted or had the intention to do so.... That makes me sianz.. But in the first place, he might had the intention to do so, jus that b4 he did had the chance to, i already told him n make it known liao.... Contradicting, isnt it? Complicated too? Well, i think so too..... Haiz, is that consider as 钻牛角尖?

Erm, feel much better after blogging this out.. hehe...