I am already trying my best.. Trying my best to be the perfect gf for you.. To be understanding, not to be agitated on the slightest thing you said to me.. Trying to look beyond my point of view and understand it from yours too.. Trying my best to leave you alone at times.. Not probing so much for days when in the past I will jus keep asking on & on, not letting you off unless I get an ans... I am really jus worried about you but all these was being seen as me being curious, be not being understanding n me straining the r.s we are having..



I dun deny that I am curious about wat is making you upset these days because I am really upset to see you feeling that way.. This was yet, in turn being perceived as about me again.. I said this because I care for you, its not because I dun wish to have that unhappy feeling so I DEMAND you to be happy for me.. Why must you shut me out and distort how I felt for you.. Thking that what I did is always for my own interest and not yours.. Do i really look like those selfish & inconsiderate bitch??


Wat you said yest, its also all about yourself.. YOU feeling unhappy and WHY am i feeling the way that you do?? The answer is simple isnt it, its because we are a couple.. We will affect one another.. You can not some strangers to me whom I wont give a damn of.. Why am I making myself unhappy over you when I can happily ignore you & let you continue living in your own world of sian-ness..


I am already trying my best to be understanding towards you.. But what I get from you is the same old sentence of me being not understanding.. Have you take a step back and see the changes I had done for you.. I admit that I was not a reasonable & understanding gf in the past.. I am trying now, but you are not seeing it at all or you are choosing not to see it at all..


I tried to take a step back to be in your shoes and reason why had you done this & that.. But are you doing the same things to me?? From my pt of view, you are still using the past experience to judge me.. You can not looking at the things that I am doing for you now..


This entry is not for me to justify what is right or what is wrong.. I am just voicing out how I feel at this point of time.. In a relationship, there are always a lot of things that is under the grey area... Most of them are on how we feel about things & such.. I maybe assuming a lot of things which is totally wrong or baseless here but that is because I really cant find any justification or affirmation of the answer and has to induce a possibility..


I guess the best thing now is to leave you alone.....