today's my sis b'day.. we are going to haf a mini celebration @ Vienna.. it has been our routine to celeb her b'day there.. but tis time round, we were quite disappointed wif their service & dishes.. its not as gd & nice anymore.. on top of that, one of the waitress is DAMN rude.. from now on, i am going to boycott that restaurant.. but den i still took alot of pics n videos there..



b4 the dinner, we went to Orchard to shop.. as usual the suayness of mine continue today.. most of the things that i wanna buy is out of stocks.. & i duno y i kept meeting those rude sales personnel today.. is tis whole suayness & rude thing gonna continue thruout my whole GSS & hols?? if that's the case den i........ argh~~~ its damn fustrating la.. but i still bought 2 stuffs today....

den i am quite upset by one thing oso.. i went down to e job agency 4 a roadshow job but was told that all e vacancy had been filled up when i reached there... felt that i had wasted my trip & there goes my chance of earning the extra cash that i needed badly..

but things turned 4 e beta when e roadshow IC called me & told me there had been a misunderstanding b/w the agency & company.. the job is still on & i will be working tis coming weekend..

tis is e 1st time in tis couple of days that i felt things are turning 4 e beta.. haha.. let's hope it will continue thruout my hols..

jux realise that in less den 2 wks, i will be single for a yr le.. thruout tis yr, nth much happen.. i am pretty much e same.. well, mayb i became more mature & know wat i wan & expect in my life.. sometimes when i look back, i found myself to be pretty demanding, naive & childish..

ok... i tried to upload my video but failed.. can anyone tell me how do i go abt it??

haven been feeling so relax for a long long time.. no need to rush to e lib n study nor wake up early to go to sch.. how wonderful it is.. haha..

i went for my tuition @ 1130 n aft that went to meet my mum @CWP.. we shop ard n guess wat.. i bought a pair of shoe aft so many mths of 'shoe quest'.. it was 'love at 1st sight'.. haha.. i knew i muz get it or else i will regret... thus i bought it even though its a little painful at e front.. hehe.. i oso bought a new sunblock cox e current one i am using is a little too white..


my new shoe & sunblock~~

aft the shopping.. i still felt quite upset cox e kose skincare set that i wanna buy had gone out of stock.. & rem the Converse bag, i cant even find it @ CWP branch.. thk this time round really whole S'pore gone out of stock liao.. argh~~~

we eat @ Pizza Hut b4 coming back home.. tml will be another shopping day 4 me.. e battle ground tml will be our shopping heaven -- Orchard road.. let's hope tml i will not be suay anymore.. haha..

went to shu's place yest for movie marathon.. as usual, some of us were knocked out halfway.. we watched 3 shows in total, but for me i only watch 2 cox i watched e 3rd show b4 le..
we watched e show in e following order..

1. not another teen movie
2. battle royal ( really duno wat its toking abt )
3. butterfly effect

as usual, we left shu's place b4 sunrise.. but tis time round, we din went straight home.. instead we went to mac to haf breakfast cox all of us were damn damn hungry.. haha.. and its not a bad thing to slp rite aft a sumptous breakfast.. hee..

i took a train back n went straight to bed aft i bath.. woke up at 12 plus cox later meeting Teck.. i wanna go check out e GSS n e Health & Beauty Fair at Suntec.. he meet me at wlds stn n we went to Raffles City to check out e new MarketPlace.. there is a exhibition of Lego too..


the FIFA world cup is the hottest thing now other than GSS.. even the Lego is into it now..

we went to e Beauty Fair aft that.. it was not as i expected it to be.. it looks more like a Chinese Medicine fair den a beauty fair.. but i met cheng leng there, she was hosting for Adonis there.. it had been mths since i last saw her at Li's b'day party.. she is still as pretty.. haha..



we had our dinner at Sizzlers.. had been craving for it since last wk.. hehe.. as usual, i keep taking e soup.. i really love their clam chowder n mushroom soup.. yummy yummy.. i had swiss grilled chicken while he had spicy chicken..


our 1st round & 2nd round wif main dish.. actually there are a few more round aft this.. hee..
i took tis w/o him noticing.. dun get it wrong, he is not praying.. haha


aft the dinner, we went to shop ard.. i wanna get e Converse World Cup ( netherland ) pvc bag.. but its out of stock already.. why isit always happening.. argh~~ the other time is e jacket, den now is e bag.. why i am always so suay..

we went to marina square in hope the Converse shop there still haf e bag.. but when we reached there, we realised that the shop is gone.. no more Converse shop @ marina anymore.. thk i am really cursed... haiz.. but the happy thing is there is a Australia roadshow @ marina.. the decoration is really nice..

esp e hot air balloon.. i am really fascinated by it.. haha..

we went to world of sports n i realised there's so much things i wanna get.. but i am damn broke now lo.. argh.. i need a job badly now..

yeah~~ i finally survive thru my tedious n tiring exam.. haha.. e air is filled wif freedom now.. i can do watever i wan n like.. wat excite me e most is the GSS.. haha.. i am going to shop till i DROP~~

tis morning i went for my 1st facial.. wah.. the extraction session was really a torture but i really love e mask n its really relaxing.. wanted to post e B4 and After photo one but dun wan to scare u guys.. haha

really sorry for e delay in e uploading of my JJ talentime photos.. been busy preparing for my pbf for e past wk.. hehe..


ha.. tis is my beloved mum.. thk its the 1st time she came to support me during my comp..
really very happy she came.. hee..


tis is Mr Tan, the teacher who asked me back for e comp.. really happy he asked me back.. haha..


my JJC teachers & classmates..


they are my SIM buddies.. they came to support me specially even though we still haf another paper next wk.. haha.. thx guys..

lastly, let me show u how 'zi lian' n how obsess i am wif my trophy.. haha.. thk u will wan to beat me up aft seeing the photos..


but i am really happy to be able to go back n once again, experienced the feeling of being in a comp.. although in SIM i join the talentime oso.. but the feeling is alot more diff.. mayb i am really attached n like my JC more.. haha.. still thk my JC days was the best time of my life..

jux reached home at 1 from e JJC talentime at NTU auditorium... am really excited abt it.. i really din regret joining the comp as an ex-jjcian.. it reminds me of my jc days n i can feel e vibe in me once again..

it was really fun n it had been so long since i last felt tis way.. e only thing i regret is i din take gd care of my throat these days.. that's y i can only play safe n sing w/o the high notes today.. quite upset because i cant hit e high notes during rehearsal this afternoon.. thus haf to make e decision of not singing n skipping it at e last min..

tis might be e last time i am joining such a singing comp again liao.. that is y i really treasure it n wanted to write down how i am feeling down even though i am damn tired now.. i scare if i write tml den i will forget how i am feeling liao..

am really grateful to mr joseph tan for asking me back tis time for such a big event.. i haven had so much fun for a very long time le.. e last talentime i had in jj was like 3 yrs back.. this time when i go back, i felt that i am really old liao.. haha.. wif all e juniors ard me feeling so energetic, i felt age is really catching up on me.. wahaha.. i gonna update my photos soon.. wanna set up another webbie den can post photos but guess it will take a very long time so decide to write here now 1st.. den tml create one.. haha.. going to slp liao.. really very tired now....

woohoo.. haha.. today was was my last 2nd paper.. in another 8 more days i will be free.......... ( i believe i can fly.... i believe i can touch e sky..... )

had been under alot of stressed tis days.. or should i say e stress had been building up for a few mths le.. suddenly felt very relieved n very 'eng' now.. thk aft my exam i will feel very free as compared to now..

wanna change my blog skin to a simple one but den i still like this blogskin lei.. haiz.. wat should i do??

doing my last min revision now.. in another 2 hrs time i will be on my way to expo for my long awaited poa exam.. aft today i will feel more relac cox one of e major subject is cleared.. e next big one n e most fearful one will be econs.. which is on next mon.. u cant imagine how straining n scary UOL econs is.. e passing rate is slightly more den 50% only.. argh~~ can only pray hard that i am one of e 50% passing.. haha..

okok.. gonna go back to my revision liao.. will update u guys abt my battle wif poa paper later.. haha..

another 2 more days to my POA test, 3 more to e rehearsal for talentime @ NTU & 4 more to my Maths 1 test.. and the thing is i am SICK.. it had been a very long time since i last fall sick.. i hate falling sick, esp during my exam period.. it is so pek cek n inefficient cox i cant study much.. i needa alot of rest but at tis period, resting seems so out of place..

i jux hope that i can survive thru this 'ordeal'.. let me be well or at least beta by tue.. i dun wan this thing to affect my performance..

jux changed my blog song.. alot of feelings came back to me tis couple of days.. when i heard this song, this made me tot of him.. i mux really wake up from a dream that i should haf woken up from long time ago..........

had been having UOL revision lect for 2 consecutive days.. yes its 2 consecutive days n the worse thing is there are 3 more to come in e next 4 days.. can u imagine how drainin it is.. esp when u dun understand wat the lecturers are toking abt... it really add on to e stress that had been building up for e past mth lo.. argh~~~ when is all tis going to end?????

tml gonna haf my maths revision class again.. jux realised that i haf forgotten all e mths n formulas liao.. gonna memorise n try e paper n e examiner's report soon.. i really have short term memory lo.. cant rem things for long..

e only thing that motivates me tml is e gathering that i will be having wif my JC gang at timah market.. but b4 that, gonna go billy's house to sing ktv 1st.. its really time to relac abit liao.. my shoulder n neck is really killing me now.. i need a massage soon..........

i am feeling so listless today.. i am feeling all e stress now.. esp when my exam is jux less den a mth from now.. i cant seem to understand wat i am studying.. i tot i had known everything but aft doing the papers, i know that is not e case.. i feel that all the time i spent studying for e past mth is useless...

is there is potion tat will improve my understanding?? if there is any, plz get it for me.. i need it badly lo..

stress seem so never ending..

hey guys.. i will be updating my blog here from now on..

it's my mum b'day today.. but i gonna go for e exhibition job briefing so cant acc her the whole day..

went to cityhall & meet peifen for lunch.. aft that den we went down to Suntec n meet Leon.. the booth is quite small as compared to the one at expo last yr.. but cant help it oso cox tis exhibition they are not e main exhibitor.. one thing is the pay is definitely beta den the previous one.. hehe..

we had a briefing by em at the cafe.. it was quite fun as usual n the staff can still recognise us..

woohoo~~~ finally ended my mock yest.. felt so relief.. esp when i can do my pbf paper wif only 3 days of intensive study at e lib wif wilson n billy ( my study gang ).. mus really thx em for teaching me n answering my stupid cum simple qns.. sometimes i oso cant stand myself for asking that qns oso lo.. haha..

went out wif my my dearest mum for sushi yest.. had been 'abandoning' for a couple of days due to my studying schedule.. its time to spend sometime wif her b4 i am going into the hectic study thing again..

as for today, i went to orchard wif her n my sis.. my bro went to camp liao so only left wif e 3 pretty 'babe' of our family.. haha.. wanna get alot of things to pamper myself today but den i realise how broke i am now lo.. had been spending quite alot on food these days while studying at e lib.. there goes my pampering session..

i am lookin forward to my working session next wk at e natas travel fair.. at least can earn some money n donate it into my piggy bank.. haha.. it had been hungry duno since when le.. haha..

had my econs mock test today.. it was really a disaster lo.. i forgot all those market structure thing that i had been studying for more den a mth the moment i look at e paper lo.. wat thing can be worse den tis... feel really demoralised when i walk out of e hall aft trying for more den 1.5 hrs.. ( the paper was 3 hrs )

went to study for stats while waiting for wilson n billy.. they finished e full 3 hr paper.. had lunch at mega bites den we drove back to wlds n study at e lib.. i studied until 6 n came home le.. coz today is my dad's b'day.. gonna haf dinner wif the whole family later.. now am waiting for em to prepare.. hehe..

muz burn midnight oil tonight le.. cox while revising for stats jux now, i realise i forget most of the things n formulas le.. haiz.. y i do not haf a photograhic memory lei..

went to ah li's 21st b'day chalet @ the PA holiday flat near pasir ris park.. had a hard time finding e place n a parking lot there lo.. luckily, i am not a road idiot n din get lost wif ah ma.. haha.. e place is really cosy n nice.. would love to haf our jc gathering there soon lo.. hehe..

had a lot of fun catching up wif my jc frenz n tok cock wif em.. haha.. there will always be laughter n jokes whenever they are ard lo.. hehe.. hope we can alot of gathering soon.. but everyone is like busy preparing for their exam at tis moment.. haiz..

wanna upload those photos here one but thk tis blog skin is really not appropriate for me to do that wif e settings lo.. gonna change e skin soon.. so wait for me k???

wanna send ah ma back one but den sth happened.. i went off at 12 wif andy, jackson n guan wen.. drove em back to panjang there cos i am meeting him for supper.. we actually had a small misunderstanding over e fone.. its abt small very small stuff again la..

i drive home alone ard 2 plus aft having supper wif andy & him at yew tee.. was feeling damn tired lo.. really scare will jux doze off half way driving.. luckily i managed to make it back but am having a terrible headache lo.. went to bed straight aft i finish bathing..

doing my maths qns now.. another 4 days to my mock exam but i am not prepared at all.. wat i haf revised is not even half of e syllabus lo.. haiz.. e worse thing is i am not even gan jiong abt e exam at all.. how can anything be worse den that rite..

quite a couple of things had happened within e wk.. i am still trying to adjust to those news..

i received a call its from e clinic tis afternoon.. its abt e medical report of my mum.. though e nurse din really tell me wat is e pro but from her tone n stuff, i know things are not that simple.. it mux be sth bad but i duno wat it might be.. i dun really dare to tell my mum abt e nurse's tone n that it might be sth serious coz i dun wan her to be worrying e whole nite lo.. so i jux told her e doc jux wanna discuss sth wif her.. i am feeling quite bad now.. really duno wat the doc will say tml.. the thought of sth bad really chills me..

went out wif him again n jux reached home less den an hr ago.. wanted to watch final dest 3 but there were no more tics.. in e end, we went to eat Sizzlers at Suntec City..

haf been meeting him for 3 or 4 consecutive wks already.. it had been like those times b4 we broke up.. he can be really nice n swt at times.. but he can be insensitive n uncaring too..

jux know from him today that he had actually came n read at my blog twice when his fren told him abt my entries.. previously, he told me that he din come n read at all.. so when i knew abt it today, i finally know why andy tells me that actually the guys know wat we gers are doing n they will feel sad abt it..

i feel that tis blog is where i can express my emotions n where i can let out my fustration.. because other than here i duno who or where can i express my emotions n feelings to.. i will jux write how i feel at that moment of time.. it mayb be in a fit of anger or it mayb anything.. i know tat sometimes wat i say might hurt HIM but i really dun haf e intention of doing so.. i jux wan to be truthful when i write my entry.. on e other hand, i dun wan him to feel sorry n pity me abt wat i went thru during the 1st few mth aft we broke up lo.. that is y i feel quite upset when i know that he did read some of my entries today..

i really hope that he meant it when he say he had forgottten my blog add.. cox i really dun wan him to come n read at tis blog again..

been trying 4 a few days to update my collection of photos up here.. but as u can see here.. i din succeed.. haha.. been very confused abt how to resize it to e actual size i wan.. do until wanna puke blood liao..

drove to sch today 2 meet Gan n e others.. study there for abt 3 ~4 hrs.. well, e progress is definitely beta den i am at home.. at least i wont be tempted by my bed n tv there.. thk muz really go there often to study.. haha.. but i wont get to drive soon coz my dad is going to drive his car to e apartment carpark in town soon.. haiz..

haven really get into e momentum to study yet.. hope the momentum is on the way now.. i am waiting for you~~ haha.. asked me out k? i feel so sian staying at home e whole day to study.. i miss clubbing..

i had so much to write.. there is a special blog on my b'day.. haha.. cause there are so much things for me to upload n write.. so plz go to this webbie..... hehe..

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