for the past few days i am going thru all those emotional trauma.. i haven been slping earlier den 3 for almost a wk.. despite slping late, i haf to wake up almost every morn b4 830 because of my sch & work commitment... i wanted to make myself really tired cause only den i will jux slp immediately i hit my bed n not thking abt anything nor letting my imagination & emotion run wild..

i am sort of like testing my limit & seeing how far i can stretch myself until the pt of breaking down.. i always tot tat i am tat kinda of person who needs to cry it out in order to make myself feels beta but for those who knows, i dun cry easily.. tat's is y i am feeling so miserable inside.. tat's y i wanna make myself breakdown cause only aft tat i will pick myself up together n forget abt everything... but sad to say, i dun understand myself at all.....

its a fren of mine who point to me tat i am already totally crushed... i haf already breakdown emotionally le.. its so sad rite cause i din even realise tat until he said so..... its e 1st time i duno wat the hell i am doing at all.... i am jux hurting myself & i cant control it.. while toking on e phone last nite, my whole body was paralysed... i am tat tired to the point that i cant even open my eyes at all.. but i still wan to kp myself awake to make myself even tired..... tat's really lame rite.....

tis is e 1st time i am doing all tis & i hope tat there wont be e next time.. i am jux doing harm to my body & i can feel it now already... the gastric tat hasnt been bothering me for quite some time is back.. i jux wanna haf a gd rest aft tml's work & dun thk abt anything else other den my studies.....