have been going to play badminton with my sis & mum for 2 consecutive day... well, was totally upset about my revision pace that's why thought of going out for some fresh air & sweat it out..
cant believe that this is my last yr being a student.. stepping into SIM for the 1st time seems like sth that happened yest.. from the age of 20 to now, 23... from a young teenage to being a young lady now.. learnt alot of things during this period... things that made me who i am now,things that made me change my perceptions of life..
from a very boring person, i turned into a clubber to now, domestic.... will things change once i stepped into the big society?? well, i am sure it will.. looking forward to the changes to come..
nowadays my mind is filled with past memories.. was reminded of wat happened last yr @ this pt of time.. it just get more frequent as the day draw closer to the time when we went to genting.. i still havent let go, have i?? if yes, why am i feeling that way?? i am not yearning for anything, i know very clearly that we are out of each others' life now, having almost no association ( even though we claimed we will always be there for each other when we parted.. ).. i tot & always hope that we can be like how i am with teck now.. close frenz, can talk to each other about anything, or at least, can msg each other with ease even though its not about something serious or impt... but i thk things will never be wat i hope it to be... that's another small regrets one will have in life.. things will not always go the way u wish or hope it to be... or maybe i am not blessed & lucky enough for heaven to grant me that ''little'' wish of mine.. wat to do?? life still has to go on isnt it??
sometimes i will ask myself, am i asking for too much?? heaven is really kind to me for giving me a chance to know that my love towards him is being reciprocated & he was once true to me.. wat more can i ask for?? we have had happy & loving moments together though its only a short period but everything is real & true.. that's enough isnt it?? frankly speaking, i am really grateful that i have a chance to experience the love that i had always wanted... he made all those fantasies that i wished to have in a r/s come true.... that's enough to make me rem & for it to stay in my heart for the rest of my life....
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