missing~~

its a very simple yet profound word... it has 2 meaning, 1st one will be u are thking about someone, 2nd one will be something that is lacking... for me, this 2 meaning are actually linked... when u are thinking about someone its because this person is actually not with u or missing in ur life.....


for the past 1 ~2 weeks, i saw anna going thru the same thing which i had gone thru in e past.. the long lost feeling that a r/s will bring to our life comes back to find me once again... it made me thk of him more & more frequent...


i told anna that i'll never ever had the courage to go thru all this things once more... i am really afraid of r/s now... afraid of the hurtful feelings which will linger for very long for me once it starts... i haf like totally lost faith in it...


seeing wat anna has gone thru now made me reflect about wat i am doing in e past when it happened to me.. wat she is doing now is wat i had done, just that now i can see clearer from an outsider point of view.. this view made me realise how silly i was in e past.. the person involved will really be blinded by love cause they will not see those things which are damn clear to em...


when the outsider tell em about it, they will not listen to it & will just go ahead with wat their heart told em to do, which most of the time, will hurt them even more.. we just like to learnt it the hard way, cause that's the only time we learn.... this is just like a cycle, a cycle that will keep on repeating...


wat i am telling her during our gathering is actually wat i wanted to tell & warn myself... i am really scare that i will not be able to act like wat i had told her to if i were to encounter this shit once again... gals will always be gals... always allowing themselves to be blinded by love...