duno wat to put for my header once again.. guess the lack of blogging this days has made me very bad with words n expressing myself once again... this is a really serious problem cause i cant articulate n show how i am feeling inside as freely as i used to do it..

i rem when i used to blog quite frequent in the past, things seems to be a lot more simpler to explain & i seemed to understand wat i wanted better... nowadays, i am really unsure.. unsure of wat i really want in my life.. sounds pathetic isnt it? think that is the transition state everyone talks about esp at my age....

today i was damn demoralised at work.. screwed up on the things i did for the team , i made it seems as if i din put in any effort but in fact i treat it really seriously.. over the weekend, i made it a pt to read n do up the whole thing but in e end, i still screwed it up because i use the wrong template & because of my nature of not being meticulous.. i admit that is a weakness of mine & now, i mus really look at it n improve on it seriously..

i was quite affected on wat happen at work today.. i cannot forgive myself for screwing this thing up & caused my team to be reminded again on the importance of this... i am quite particular about things at times & this is one of the issue that will affect me deeply...

but this time round, i am more lucky cause i have someone whom i can share n listen to me... i felt blessed not only because i can share things with him rather is more of me being ABLE to share things with comfortably... its been a long time since i felt i can trust in someone whom i am romantically inclined to... well, think its because i have been closing up & not being trusting for a very long time... i am really glad that i can feel that way towards HIM.. but i realise i still have some problems with myself.. i cant seem to be able to express myself freely with words... i am still quite bad at telling HIM how i feel towards him at times cause i duno how to not i dun wan to... maybe songs seems like a better way to express myself...