after i start working, i realised how precious weekends are... not forgetting to mention how short it is.... this is the only time when i can rest & meet HIM.. because of our working hours, its quite hard for us to meet up during weekday, so weekend becomes the only moment we can hang out n spend quality time with each other but its also because of that, he din really have much time left for his frenz & usual routine...
i hate to see him give up or should i say compromise wat he usually do so as to spend more time with me but den, on the other hand, i would like to spend more time with him also cause like wat i said this are the only days we met.. its hard to have the best of both world in life but i would really like to strike a balance on this issue....
yest while i was on the bus to meet him, i past by the usual route where i used to travel everyday to sch... its been a long time since i pass by there... reminded me of my sch days & quite alot of things also.. i realised that after i started working, time doesnt seems to be on my side anymore.. i am like not in control of my own time at all... there are alot of things which i want to do but because of the time constraint i can only think about it but not being able to implement it......
i am still unsure of wat i exactly want in my life.. i am living my life now for the sake of living it & not in line with the goal i had set for myself earlier on... its time to re-think about wat i wan & how should i go about to achieve it already... i missed my character in the past.. i missed the me who was 2 yrs back, though i am more reckless & dun really think about the consequences of the things i did, but i am much clearer of wat i wan & will go all out to achieve it... i am like more KIASI now.. is this because age is catching up on me??
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