busy busy~~

had 3 full days packed with programs.. it had been a very long time since i last enjoyed myself so much..this is gonna be a very long blog with lotsa pictures b4 i left for genting tml night with my mum..

11th june ( Wed ) :

waited very long for this MJ session cause its been a long long time since i last played MJ with jean & cheng darling.. there was a small conflict between me & jean darling b4 the nite but am glad everything was ok when i woke up the next morning..

i was preparing for the night out when jean darling reached my place.. so we waited for cheng & junhao to reach b4 the game can start.. while waiting i was busy with my make-up & jean darling started taking photos with my phone..

now den i know how i look like when i was having my make-up done..

cheng & junhao finally reached my place @ 3.. we played until 615 b4 heading down to clarke quay to meet the others @ brewerkz for dinner.. the star of tat night is jean darling who will be leaving us for US on this coming mon for half a year..

we were supposed to meet @ 7 pm but everyone was late.. we waited more den 45 min for the table.. that's the trouble when u went out with a large group of ppl cause waiting for a table that can accomodate everyone is simply difficult..

while waiting we had a photo-taking session..

finally we got a table @ 830.. we were damn hungry by the time the food came..

don't the food looks nice?? hehe.. we shared & tasted the food ordered by everyone..

billy left with lishan right after the meal.. as for us, we waited for guochao b4 heading down to to double O for our 2nd round... cheng, Rex & me walked over there while e others hitch a ride on guo chao's car but we still reached there earlier den them...

ah ma & wanyui came to join me to club.. its been almost 2 years since we came out together & the 1st time we went to club.. the night turned out to be a really crazy one.. we kept on toasting with jean & her gal frenz.. it was pratically like a gals night out cause we just left the guys on their own to drk.. haha.. its only @ the dancefloor den we met them & started dancing as a group.. haha..

the night was simly fun & enjoyable.. the guys took really great care of us & i really wanna thx them for doing so & sending us back home safely.. esp jai.. thx for sending my frenz down to meet her bf while i was taking care of another in the washroom & sending us back home even though its really quite out of the way for u.. :)

photos taken b4 we went crazy..

12th june ( Thur ) :

was supposed to have my 4 hours tuition today but it was cancelled in e end by my tutee.. after i woke up to reply their msg, i just could not go back to slp.. decide to rot on my beloved sofa watching dvds b4 going down to the PC show with mummy to get the desktop for Sis.. daddy had agreed to come & fetch us after we bought the thing..

was damn upset by the efficiency of the salesperson.. he said we will be able to get the desktop after half an hour so i called daddy & asked him to come after 15 min as he was in balestier.. in e end, the whole waiting process took an hour & i can sense that daddy is quite unhappy about it as he cant wait for us @ the pick up point & has to drive ard the area while waiting for us.. i can understand why he is feeling that way cause if it was me, i will feel more upset..

daddy fetch me to Holland V. after picking us up as i was supposed to meet my JC frenz to celeb andy's bday.. b4 that, i had a short meeting with ah ma & wanyui @ sushi tei.. we talked about the night b4, about our post-grad plan & the trip that we planned to go together sometime later in e yr.. the dinner session was really enjoyable..

went to meet e others @ Settlers Cafe after dinner but they were not there.. was told by the owner they had gone out all together, leaving their things behind.. guess that they had gone to wala so went there to look for em instead.. we came back after buying the drks there & continued with the game...

den its wala night out..

andy's version of ''enchanted''

i duno who suggested to take photos with our license but we just started doing it during the break.. it was really hilarious cause ah li & ah shu keeps wanting to join in though they were holding.......

the 3 with the authentic license..

3 authentic license + 1 PDL + 1 PowerPuff Girl

happy with their PDL & PowerPuff..

the live band there on thur is really great.. shall go there more often..

13th june ( Fri ) :

Its a tiring day with 4 hours of tuition in a row.. by the time everything ends, it was already 3pm.. was supposed to go to JB with mummy to get the bus tic for genting on sun but sth crops up.. while setting up the desktop which we had bought the previous day, we found out that there was no keyboard.. we din check the set when we were @ the store as we were rushing for time but how could anyone expect a brand new set to be w/o a keyboard??

after fixing the wireless adapter onto my new desktop , Mummy & I went to Suntec to 'reason' with the salesperson.. well, we din really reason cause he could rem we din check the set.. so after explaining to him, he just gave us the keyboard..

i brought mummy to Tony Romas for dinner.. its her first time there so i was the one making the order.. i ordered their signature onion loaf, St Louis Ribs & my favourite skillet cookies sundae...

ended the day @ alvin's place with 3 rounds of MJ that ends @ 5am.. we had breakfast b4 he sends us back one by one & i was concussed until 2pm the next day..

waiting..

am @ alvin's place now waiting for the MJ session to start.. anthan just went down to withdraw money & we are still waiting for yan ling ( philip's gf ) to come.. so decide to come online 1st to blog 1st..

haven upload my pic from wed's nite onto my new comp which i got @ the pc show yest & from jean's darling blog.. shall do that tml if i have the time.. hehe... still deciding want to go JB tml with my mum to get the bus ticket to genting on sun nite or not.. she said we can go n get it on tat day on e spot but i am afraid there might not be seats available...

realised alot of my frenz had already gotten a job.. as for me, i am not even looking @ the ads now.. really duno wan to wait until the taiwan trip is over den start looking or wat.. let's hope there will be news for the taiwan trip soon.. :)

i am so bored~~

have been slacking @ home ever since my paper finished.. i am pratically rotting @ home with nothing to do & wanting to do nth... haha.. other den occassional tuition in between the days, i will just lie on my big sofa watching dvds..

i am not looking for a job @ all.. felt that a graduation w/o any graduation trip isnt complete @ all.. i wan to go for a trip first b4 stepping into the working society but den, there isnt seems to be any plan going on @ the moment.. the air tickets is damn ex now which means getting a cheap tic is only possible if we are to go on e vacation @ a later date.. this means, i will continue to slack for half a yr!!

well, i thk i am a workaholic... not doing anything for the past few days is driving me crazy.. i just cant seem to slack w/o doing anything.. this is just not for me... @ least let me have sth like my fav. MJ to keep me company...

erm... finally, i am having sth to do for the next few day.. tml afternoon there will be a long awaited MJ session @ my place, den will be having a Uni gathering @ brewerks.. after that will be going to club (hopefully).. thur will be tuition 1st b4 meeting mery & wanyu for dinner or some chill out session b4 another round of MJ start.. Fri will be going to the PC show cause i really need to get a desktop.... will be going to genting for a short getaway on sun @ least its better den staying in e country...

shall talk about my job after i come back from genting ba.. at the moment i shall continue to slack.. hehe....

going to meet anna for supper.. shall talk about my boring life again ba... :)

it's over~~

my student life ended officially @ 530 yest.. yest morning is the last i woke up early @ 6 plus to study for my paper...

b4 the paper start, i was already thking of how to play.. thking of how to spend my long hols... the 3 hours just passed w/o me realising... the moment they took my script away, the memories of the past 3 years when i took my exams flashed back in my mind... i could still rem clearly how i took the paper 2 years back for the 1st time in expo, complaining about the journey & the air con.. now its already the last, that's how time passed....

it was raining damn heavily so i asked billy to fetch us to the station after the papers... but as time was still early to meet anna they all, i tag along to AMK where they went to have sushi... we were talking about meeting up after we grad & realised wat billy said is quite true... we are all 'disperse' in a sense, we never really meet to go out during our uni time because of alot of other committment, the only time we meet is when we are in sch for lecture.. after hearing that i felt damn sad lo... so many years in uni & we are still not that close.... :(

will it be like my sec sch ?? we only become closer after we grad.. haha.. i meet them in cwp for dinner yest... eventually we went to sakae for sushi.. yest i just cant seem to skip sushi for dinner... had some catching up with them... its always fun & happening when we go out together... hehe...

over in another 24 hr~~

it marks the end of my student life in another 24 hours ( well, provided i din flunk the paper today n gonna make it for tml... )

in e 1st time for UOL exam, i went to AJC to take the paper.. the norm is to take it @ the far far away expo.. i am so used to the exhibition hall examination condition... the last time i took a paper in a sch hall is during my JC last paper..

today's MA paper is a killer.. no matter how i calculate, i cant seem to score 34 , the passing mark for our paper.. u can see how difficult it is... on top of that, being an accounting paper & practising for those quatitative qns throughout my whole yr studying for MA, i did 2 essay qns instead today... the quatitative qns is really one of the kind.... never come out b4 & i hope it will never... felt damn demoralised after the paper started & had to grit thru my teeth to sit there, struggling to squeeze some words out... i am still left with 2 qns @ the last hour of the paper & those 2 that i had done, i only did part of them..

tml will be the last paper.. i only managed to reach home @ 7 & dun have any energy left to study & prepare for the 4 essay which i am going to write tml in 3 hours... shall slacked @ the moment 1st.. later den see gt any "Feeling" to study.. if not i shall wake up early in e morning tml...

haiz.. the demoralising effect is still lingering ard me.. so sad......

studying~~

went to ngee ann poly today to study with teck, jean & cheng... felt quite pissed off with myself because of MA.. its really a very torturous subject.. if i were only left with FI & MSM, i will be slacking rite now.. why must i have a MA in between that 2 paper?? why i stupidly go n take up this module which is not a core of mine but of others BSc program??

in another 10 more days, studying will not be a job of mine anymore.. thk i will come to miss the days when i am in sch.. ppl will always come to treasure things when they have lost it.. i conc on studying FI today... dun wan to care about the others until when its near the exam date...

am already thking of how to celeb my end of student life & exam.. hee... guess i will be having endless of gatherings & partying to make up for the loss time with my frenz.. there's so much things i wanna do..

sec sch gathering @ clarke quay...

its finally my long awaited relaxing nite out.. ever since my ME paper has ended, i only went out for a MJ session & that's it.. ok i know i still another 3 more paper that needs my full attention but i am someone who needs some relaxation b4 i can go on full blast for revision.. its weird but its not an excuse...

i met pingwei @ JE station b4 going to clarke quay together.. very funny rite, i din meet wei shyang who is staying in wlds as me & went to meet pingwei who is staying in jurong.. haha.. well, cause i duno wei shyang is coming also.. he din reply to my msg...

we had a hard time looking for a place for dinner.. alot of places were crowded.. afer much walking we finally settled down @ hooters.. after dinner, i suggested to go arena to take a look... but we din settled there, in e end, we walked to MS old bar.. walked passed the bridge that was filled with some memories.. ever since the last time i walked there with HIM, i have never gone there anymore & that was like more den a yr back...

when we reached the place, it was filled with ppl.. realised that it was double O 10 yr anniversary.. they are having this free entry & free drk celeb so we went in there.. must apologise to those who dun have any intention to club in our gang for being 'dragged' in by me.. :)

wei shyang & ping wei..

shaoyun, meiyun & anna..

gals of the nite..

met shaoyun's sister there.. it was a real surprised to see her cause i never know that she is so happ.. hehe... guess its been almost a yr since i last went to double O.. the music was considered gd for such an early start.. we were already hitting the dancefloor @ 10 plus but we also left quite early caused most of them had a very early day @ work..

i reached home ard 1230 & went to bed @ 1.. the normal time for me to go to bed even if i din go out.. :) now i shall be @ home counting down to my 3 killer paper in a row.. no more going out for me.. really need to buck up & complete the last lapse of my Uni examination.. wish me gd luck..

dinner celebration~

it may seems a little too late for Mothers' Day celebration & a little too early for Fathers' Day one but on tue, we were just doing that @ Sakura Clementi.. its been more den a yr since we last went there for dinner...

b4 that i was in sch studying for my MA with jean & cheng.. progress was really very bad.. i never felt so lost in my entire life studying b4.. even for ME, though its a very tough subject but at least i know wat i should study but for MA, i totally duno wat i am doing.. tat whole day in sch was spent feeling upset & whining about how stupid i have become....

daddy came to fetch me in e late evening.. frankly speaking i was quite disappointed with the dinner... it was not as sumptuous as b4 but i really like the ambience there... the environment is really serene.. though the food is not really great but having ur family together & that's enough to make up for any imperfectness..

did you realise that we din have a family shot?? yup, that's the imperfectness of the nite...

relieved~~

yeap.. my scariest ME paper finally ended today.. its really such a relieve for me but i am damn tired now..

been up for more den 16 hrs with only about 4.5 hrs of slp from e previous nite.. woke up ard 545 to re-read those notes that i have made n went thru those formulas for fear that i might mixed them up during the paper... studied for ard 1.5 hrs before leaving my house for the far far away Expo... going there from woodlands is really torturous.... slept thru my journey until City Hall..

met cheng n billy outside the exam hall.. have to walk more den 10 mins to reach Hall 1.. haiz... finally got into the exam hall n got this panic feeling.. wow.. really wondered wat the smart female lecturer had prepared for us this yr.. i can only say that she is really the smartest lecturer whom i had come across.. it can be seen really clearly from the qns she set....

gt the paper n 1st time in my life, i read thru the qns for the whole paper n tot about it b4 starting to write anything.. felt relieved when i saw that the auction qns set this yr is not on calculation.. that chapter is really a killer n has been coming out for the past yrs w/o fail.... @ one pt, my mind went blank n i cant thk of anything.. decide to go to the washroom to take a breather.. surprisingly, when i came back n went to tackle the qns which i was having problem, i am able to thk of the solution....

but one thing really upset me, i din managed to finish the last part of the last qn... i am pretty sure of knowing the mthd to do it & will be able to get the solution if i am allowed to but times up & pens down.... argh.. really regret to spend so much time on the qn in section A which up till now i also duno whether i am right or not.....

left with another 3 more paper in june.. having another 2 weeks to study but all e 3 papers are together.. which means i have to study for all 3 n divide my time according during this 14 days... worse thing is among them, one of them is MA.. well, at least i should be glad that ME is cleared today rather den with the other 3...

felt like going to chill some time soon.. i am those who need a break b4 i can fully conc on doing a thing.. the only relaxing for me now seems to be chilling out or having dinner with frenz.. felt like i only have frenz to study with now n no one to go out with me & have fun.. well, mayb its because my frenz are either studying now or working & doesnt have the time for me... that's the sad thing of being single, when u wan to go out, u cant find someone to go out with u.. haha.. that's when someone always come into the picture.. hehe.. guess u guys should know who he is... :)

prepared??

went to sch & study with cheng & jean early in e morning yest.. been studying for ME for the past 2 weeks.. finally touching my ME examiners report.. i still believe concepts is very impt for a subject which the examiner is a very smart woman.. u never know wat type of qns will be coming out, there are no trends for u to speculate wat's gonna come out & the qns every year is totally different.. there are 101 different scenarios & 101 ways to solve it.. it really boils down to how u thk on e spot with the paper in front of under examination condition...

tis yr, unlike the past, i am not studying as much so i do not have that type of saturated feelings.. i am taking things as it is.. no special feelings about it, just wanna get down n get done with it.. isit because this is my 3rd yr or because my mind is preoccupied with other things which i, myself dun even know wat it is...

received a unexpected call from someone yest.. its been months since i last heard his voice.. if i am not wrong, the last time i gt his call is last yr.. was quite surprised to see his name popping up my caller ID when the phone rang.. the feeling of getting his call is so familiar in e past, now it has become a surprise instead...

over e short conversation, he surprised me again with wat had happened to him over the past weeks.. was quite shocked about the things that had happened & quite worried about him as a fren.. things seemed to be quite serious at his side.. mayb i am too sensitive or wat but i felt that from his tone, he is sounded troubled.. really hope everything will turn out fine for him & hope his life will be smooth sailing from now on...

it should have ended~~

thing were supposed to end a yr ago, i had expected it to be a one-off thing... ending when we come back from the getaway.. that's wat i told myself when i went for the trip with em.. that's wat i had prepared myself also.. dun harp on things that i know in e 1st place which doesnt belongs to me... but i was wavered by him, wavered by the things he said to me, wavered by how he had treated me & wavered by his promise... i began to fall deeper n deeper for him & things went out of control...

i duno why i am taking so long to let go of things which i am supposed to do so a yr back.. tat shows who weak i am rite.. how easy it is to get me down when it comes to r/s... guess i will never be able to forget this ba... its not everyone chance to experience wat i had experienced.. hee...

1 yr anniversary..

yeap, today is the day when we went to genting a yr ago.. apart from being a super humid day & having a slight headache when i woke up this morning from the alcohol yest, nth seems abnormal for me...

tot i would feel very upset or sentimental today but things are not as bad as i tot it would be.. when i was on e cab with anna yest, we did talk about this issue... about how i felt towards him now, how i wished things would be now... wanted to come n blog when i was outside arena waiting for anna's frenz... luckily i din cause during that time, i would have said a lot more stupid things than wat i am doing now... guess alcohol will have this magical effect to let u spell every single truthful word out of ur mind n heart..

ppl always say in order for u to get over a past r/s totally, u need to get into a new one.. erm, i strongly agree with this sentence..

shouldnt harp on this topic too much.. if not i might felt emotional.. went to meet anna for dinner @ suntec & Clarke Quay for a chilling session which i did not deserved at all.. haiz.. my pace of studying is very very bad this yr.. i am still trying to figure out wat the notes are saying rather den questioning every single concept like how i was doing for the past 2 yrs... getting more n more panic & hot-tempered now... so pls dun come n agitate me unnecessarily this days cause my tolerance level is really really low at the moment....

talk about tolerance level.. yest i was quite pissed off while we were dancing at the dancefloor.. a guy just come out from no where & started dancing ard me & anna.. i dun mind guys dancing ard us, its how that matters to me... apart from moving his hands like some octopus, he kept his distance damn close to us n kept brushing against us.. normally, i will just move away from this kinda ppl but yest, i stand still & started staring at him.. really wanted to vent my anger on him, luckily anna pulled me away...

been going to clarke quay for the past 2 weeks.. loving their nightlife & ambience there more n more.. guess i will be visiting the place frequently after my exams..

another 11 more days to my 1st paper.. really hope i can pull thru all my modules this yr...

围墙

wrote a blog entry on my new phone 2 days back while studying for my ME.. but the content of the entry has nuts to deal with my exams.. its about some other things which some ppl might know wat it is about..

until just now, i was still deciding whether to post the entry? now i have come to a conclusion... it shall be left as a secret inside my phone.. sometimes things are not meant to be said.. :)

was looking @ my long abandoned facebook & realised how distant i am from my frenz.. ever since the preparation of my exams or long b4 that i haven had much contacts with em... i duno since when, i have been closing myself up.. not allowing ppl to come close to me & vice versa... in e past, i will still have this blog to vent everything but now, i dun even wish to come here & talk about it cause wat i said in a moment of sadness or anger might actually hurt others indirectly...

i really duno know who i am more n more & wat i wan in my life... who exactly am i?? the walls that had built up w/o my knowledge has shut me out of my heart also..

last day going for lecture..

today is officially the last day of me going for lecture in SIM & being a student in my entire life... i doubt i will have the capability n drive to study Master after i started working, even though i wish that i can have a chance to do so...

i can still rem the 1st day when i went to SIM for a pre-POA lesson.. its at LT 1.03 & this morning, my FI revision class was at the same place also... when i was there for the 1st time i was amazed by the size of the LT & tot each n every LT in SIM is of the same size but den.... i was wrong... ha... 3 yrs passes by really fast... my education journey will come to an end in another 6 weeks time...

alot of things happened the past few days but i just dun have time to come over n blog about it.. been too busy & trying to force myself to study cause time is really running out..

still rem i wanted to get a macbook?? well, i still wan to just that i will put it on hold 1st cause my dad 'got' me a LG KS-20.. well, the phone is not for me in e 1st place.. its actually for his own use but the very next day after he gt the new phone together with my brother, my phone died on me w/o any apparent reason!! i just charged it for 2 hrs as per any normal day n leave it on the table.. the very next morning when i woke up, there's this 'Limited Service' replacing my M1-GSM thingy... no matter how i tried, i just cant msg or make any call out.. for those who called my no, they will just hear my 'swt' voice saying i am not available......

i gave up in e end & used back my old nokia 7250 which i bought 5 years back... upon seeing this, my dad gave me his new phone cause he say its quite hard to 'manuveour' the phone as it does not support chinese language.. today den i realise that the older model LG Viewty is much better cause it not only support chinese, it also has a louder alarm... but the appearance of KS-20 is defintely much much more nicer than viewty & its really light!!!

with this new phone that allows me to go online & acts like a mini comp, i decide to put the purchase of the comp on hold.. since every half a yr, macbook will have a mini improvement on their specs.. i shall wait another 3 more mths to see wat new technology is going to be incorporated in it... guess by den i will be quite broke from my grad trip ba... haha.. really hope we are going somewhere after the paper.... its such a significant event lo... hehe...

ok, i know this is a super long blog just bear with me for a little while more...

guess wat day will it be tml?? a year ago, tml is the day when we studied in NUS & went to watch movie for the 1st time @ Vivo... so how am i feeling now?? well, very very normal... mayb the time to feel sth is not here yet ba... haha.. i duno... shall see how ba... but tml i am going to Vivo... but its not going there specially to reminisce on the past... i am meeting anna & her ex-colleague to club @ St James.. realise its time to let loose & reward myself with some appropriate entertainment... been staying at home, either doing nth or just studying.. felt that i have touched of the world & being a young adult...

hope to have some real fun tml with them.. but den i can foresee some old 'memories' coming back to find me while i am there.. dun worry, i will handle em well & hope they will be kind to me also... :)

studyholic~~

yeap.. its a new word use to describe me now after being labelled a clubber, player, domestic & bimbo.. hehe.. was in e lib from 1030 to 830 with cheng & jean the whole day.. only having a lunch break of an hour in between.. was at the secluded corner of the 2nd level.. i like the lighting there cause direct sunlight wont be shining in... i just dun love the sun when it comes to studies cause it will cause the environment to be 'unfit' for that activity.. hehe..



the last time i went to that corner is after exams with HIM.. some memories flashed back but its not as painful anymore.. guess the mindgames that i have played b4 is really accurate.. it says that i will need almost a yr to get over the past r/s.. for teck, that's the case, for HIM, its about the same time also..

gathering~

had a mini dinner gathering with my sec sch frenz yest.. was supposed to anticipate another 2 more guys to come but in e end, it became a gathering for the gals instead... in e past, gathering for me, shaoyun & anna will only occur during the bday of either one in the group... its only this yr, we get into constant contact & gather more for updates between each other life or for some relaxing gal's talk.... its sth which i had not imagined but i am glad that things turned out this way... :)

shao yun just came back from her thailand volunteer trip.. she bought some sovenier back for me & anna & told us about her trip there to teach the kids mandarin... it seems like a really cool & heart-warming experience..if possible i will like to do some volunteer work in other places of the world that really need our concern...

we chatted until 10 plus b4 heading back home.. for them, its been 14 hrs since they are out of their house for work.. for me, its a 12 hr thingy cause i was studying in the lib.. for the past 2 day i was with wei shyang & his frenz there.. this time round, i really manage to get back my study mood & momentum but studying only a chp per day seems a little bit too little for someone who is having a paper in exactly a mths' time.. but i just dun like to rush things or just read thru briefly.. if i wanna study that chp, i will jolly well know every single tinny winny things about it & get myself more den 95 % sure about its content.... that's one thing bad about me, too persistent when i come to serious stuffs.. :)

other than studies, there is another issue that i wanna update.... i just dun understand how some ppl can be so irresponsible & lie through their teeth... i was being scolded for telling the truth to my colleague when someone can simply denied everything & have the cheek to call me up to scold me & confront me for lying....

b4 this incident, i will still thk whether i have gone too far as a fren to do things until that extent.. but judging from this incident & wat my family, frenz had told me, i thk i have tolerated & gone far enough as a frenz.. giving them time for more den 6 mths time & doing so much things for them but getting back nth except reprimand & warning... well, that's the furthest i can go...

was thking of getting a laptop.. macbook is my no. 1 choice.. wonder should i get it now or wait until my exams are over b4 getting it???

near accident~~

i nearly gt into an accident with a bus when i was coming back home yest.. it was along the road outside my sch.. i really hate the layout & the traffic over there...

it was a long day yest in sch.. lesson starts from 10am & ends at 10 pm... though in between the lessons there was a 3 hr break, i used that time to study for my FI.... which means its almost 12 hr of intensive study.. felt really tired when i stepped into my car... finally the 'taste' of studying is coming back.... really hope i have the determination to continue the studying regime...

stressed..

feeling super stressed up now... was trying to do my MA budgeting which i had revised but i cant seem to make out was was required by the qns.. looking at all the things which i havent studied yet, the panic & emergency siren is sounding loud now & its really time for me to buck up & do some really intensive studies but i just cant seem to find the drive that kept me going for the past 2 years.... just wat is lacking this time round this yr that makes me so restless & stupid??? feeling really helpess now... last yr & why isit so disastrous??

super pissed off...

i am damn pissed off with myself now for being that clumsy n.... argh.. i really duno wat word can i use to describe myself now... i bought a mask just now & lost it within 15 min after i bought it & the worst thing is i cant rem exactly HOW & WHERE i lost it!!!!! in addition, i only realised i lost the thing almost an hour later.... argh~~~~ super super pissed with myself now... i am pissed not because of the monetary value that i have lost, i am pissed with myself 4 not knowing & cant remembering wat had exactly happened!!! ah......... just when i tot things have become better for me this days, ms blurry, mr forgetful & ms clumsy have found their way to get me once again...... not forgetting granny pissed will be acc me thru the night today... :~(

a stone off my chest..

finally have a chance to take a break from all those shits that i have encountered.. the monetary incident had finally come to an end & its really a load off my mind & my emotions.. you really cant imagine wat kinda emotion trauma i am going through... struggling whether to get back wat i deserved or just let it be because of the frenship that we had.... but like wat others said, its kind enough for me to give him so much time so i had to do wat i had to......

studies is getting more n more on the track.. i love reading my financial intermediation subject guide now.. its really interesting to read about the stuff but i duno whether i will be able to rem all those that i have read & regurgitate it out under exam condition.. hehe.. reading & writing is just 2 totally different issue....

went to shop with my mum & aunt yest after my tuition.. went to bugis & realise tat there's alot more new restuarant around... we went to the HK cafe for dinner & had their sizzling hot plate set meal... erm... i had been indulging in food for the past one wk... having fei cui, jack's place etc etc..... guess my eating spree is coming back to haunt me once again...

the food taste much better than it looks in this photo...

the accessories that my brother & sis are crazy about.. but i really duno wat is so nice about it.. guess that's the generation gap we usually talk about..

my sister & i getting zi lian once again..

my younger cousin.. the most naughty one i had ever encountered...........

negatives...

sth happened to my sis in sch.. she cut herself accidentally with a penknife & the teached called us up to bring her to a doc as the blood cant seemed to stop.. drove there immediately with my mum & brought her to our family doc... as i got a lecture @ 10 in sch i have to leave them there...



during breaktime i called home & the call was picked up by my sis.. she got 5 stiches in total... can imagine how severe & deep the wound is.. thought tat was e end of but i was wrong.. my mum called me up @ lunch time & told me sth that i have never imagined that my sis will ever do.... its just too shocking...



there just too much things up on my mind these days that made me damn moody & cant conc on my studies due to those negative feelings.. there's just so much things that needs my attention & so much which doesnt require any but i will just spend so much time on.... i really need a breather but @ this pt of time, will it be too much of a luxury for me???

busy busy busy~~

it has been a very busy week for me for the past week.. having 2 UOL revision classes within a week, with one at the Management House behind Hwa Chong Institute.. its really a place that i will only visit once a year because of the revision class... guess if no classes were held there, we will not even know about its existence.. am glad that this will be the last time & last yr for me to go there.. its really very inaccessible but den, i enjoy looking at the mansion type bungalow while walking along the road....

i enjoyed the moment now even though it seems really hectic & busy... i love keeping myself occupied cause time passes faster this way & life seems more meaningful as compared to wasting my time at home watching those drama & rotting for no apparent reason... guess i will miss this type of busy studying life when i go out to work next time.. so now i shall enjoy my last remaining full time student life... cause i guess i will never have the luxury to do this anymore in my entire life....

going to lib to study with jean darling le.. its the 1st day of my studying life in the lib this yr, hope it will be very productive.. tml & the day after, gonna have another 2 day revision class with the london lecturer.. hope he/she can show me some insight about wat to prepare for my final yr paper... :)