yest was helping my mm making loveletter so forsake my studying schedule.. today i am trying to make it back but well, it only lasted 2hrs?? haha..

tis couple of days, the weather is really grey n sad.. well, it is jux the exact thing i am feeling rite now.. i haf been having tis feelings, ever since tat day, HIS attitude towards me changed.. and i got this feeling once again, i am at his mercy once more.. his action n words will haf a directly effect on my mood n feelings.. frankly speaking i hate that, i hate to be out of control again.. that is why i am trying to put an end to tis.......

now, i mux conc on my studies n revision.. i cant let history repeat itself.. i dun wan to flunk like how i did in JC.. i duno whether i should blame him partly for my failure, mayb i should even blame n hate myself for being so easily influenced..

thk i muz really re-organise my feelings n mood to welcome the Chi New Yr.. n my dreadful MOCK exam in march..