my eyes are half close now & my table is filled with notes which i have brought back to study for the upcoming exam on fri.. despite the physical tiredness, my emotional one felt worse..... was told about the news this afternoon, it came really sudden.... though we had all prepared for the thing to come but when i was told about it, i still felt quite sian n upset......
i just cant bear to see ppl leaving.. i know i am just being too emotional cause in the workforce, this kinda situation is very common, esp in the financial sector.... but i just dun like this feeling la... argh~~~
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
i am feeling~~~
just what am i feeling now?? i just know that its not a happy feeling.. sad? tired?? lonely??? regret?? mayb its just a mixture of everything... i really duno how to describe it... i am getting more n more unsure of everything... i am feeling that i duno myself more n more....
btw, i wan to emphasise once again that this blog is a place for me to be myself n let my fren who is not always having a chance to meet up with me to know wat is happening to me... i really dun wish wat i post here to be a topic for ppl to discuss explicitly in places where they shouldnt even be mentioned in the first place.. i hope this blog will still be a private place for me & hope this decision & wish of mine will be respected... thx alot...
btw, i wan to emphasise once again that this blog is a place for me to be myself n let my fren who is not always having a chance to meet up with me to know wat is happening to me... i really dun wish wat i post here to be a topic for ppl to discuss explicitly in places where they shouldnt even be mentioned in the first place.. i hope this blog will still be a private place for me & hope this decision & wish of mine will be respected... thx alot...
colleagues outing??
went out yest to meet my group member for our final project that is going to be due this coming fri... there are so many things up on our sleeves these days... the previous night, i spent more den 5 hours doing my individual reports on shipping sector.... after partially completing that, we still have another 3 more things to complete by the end of this week...
found out from declan that group 4 was in orchard too, so we sort of meet up with em n do our project.. why did i say we sort of meet up? well, its because we are at the same place but sitting quite a distance away doing our own stuffs.... finally have some idea of wat to do for the project.. after discussing & allocating the work, we went on to finish up our sales pitch thingy... ard 3 plus, we went to Food Republic to have our meal....
Went to Kino after that & quite a few of us decide to go n catch a movie.. i was supposed to meet Wayne for dinner & movie, so i asked him to join in for the movie thingy with my colleagues... We watched the Tropic Thunder as requested by Maurice... the show is really funny but at times it can be quite gross...
after the show, me & wayne went to have dinner @ the HK cafe.. finally get to eat my baked sphagetti, i have had a craving for that since last wk lo.. anna came to join us moments later.. we chatted & eat there until 12 b4 heading to balcony for a short chillout session until 1 plus...
i din go to bed immediately after coming back home.. decide to finish up the last part of my individual project b4 slping cause i dun wan to have alot of unfinished job on hands... just dun like the feeling of that...
found out from declan that group 4 was in orchard too, so we sort of meet up with em n do our project.. why did i say we sort of meet up? well, its because we are at the same place but sitting quite a distance away doing our own stuffs.... finally have some idea of wat to do for the project.. after discussing & allocating the work, we went on to finish up our sales pitch thingy... ard 3 plus, we went to Food Republic to have our meal....
Went to Kino after that & quite a few of us decide to go n catch a movie.. i was supposed to meet Wayne for dinner & movie, so i asked him to join in for the movie thingy with my colleagues... We watched the Tropic Thunder as requested by Maurice... the show is really funny but at times it can be quite gross...
after the show, me & wayne went to have dinner @ the HK cafe.. finally get to eat my baked sphagetti, i have had a craving for that since last wk lo.. anna came to join us moments later.. we chatted & eat there until 12 b4 heading to balcony for a short chillout session until 1 plus...
i din go to bed immediately after coming back home.. decide to finish up the last part of my individual project b4 slping cause i dun wan to have alot of unfinished job on hands... just dun like the feeling of that...
Monday, October 20, 2008
revolving about work~~
reached home about 2 hours back.. was called up to attend a careet talk @ NTU @ the very last min... the reason why i was chosen is because i am the ONLY gal in the group... they asked us to go there is to let them have a feel of how the training is like & we are the best person they should ask cause we are going thru that right now...
the session ended ard 8 plus that explains why i am back so late.. back home still have to prepare for my presentation for tml.. realise that time is running out.. just know that in another 10days we will be presenting our final project to our big boss & we are not even a quarter way thru it... den there's still test n everything...... i need more den 24 hours!!
was browsing thru my previous entries & realise i seldom blog this days, if i do it will all be about my job.... i miss those days when i can just slack n blog about my feelings, my outings with frenz, familes etc....
its been less den a mth & i am missing my Dim Sum buffet session with my mum, my weekday window shopping with my frenz, movie & lunch session, mahjong almost every twice a wk..... i need a short getaway... can i have one to pamper myself after the final project is over??
the session ended ard 8 plus that explains why i am back so late.. back home still have to prepare for my presentation for tml.. realise that time is running out.. just know that in another 10days we will be presenting our final project to our big boss & we are not even a quarter way thru it... den there's still test n everything...... i need more den 24 hours!!
was browsing thru my previous entries & realise i seldom blog this days, if i do it will all be about my job.... i miss those days when i can just slack n blog about my feelings, my outings with frenz, familes etc....
its been less den a mth & i am missing my Dim Sum buffet session with my mum, my weekday window shopping with my frenz, movie & lunch session, mahjong almost every twice a wk..... i need a short getaway... can i have one to pamper myself after the final project is over??
Sunday, October 19, 2008
out to relax..
had been going out for the past 2 nights with anna.. on fri, we went out for a chilling session @ one of the pub @ tanjong pagar, followed by a 2nd round @ live impact Shenton way with my colleague...
it was the 1st time so many of us went to chill out together.. the session was really cool but for me, i felt sth is just wrong.... partly is because of not having sufficient slp & partly also due to some stuffs happening at the work place which makes me doubt about my ability & capability.. its like i am starting to doubt myself if i am up to this job or not...
mayb i am just feeling paranoid, just like the time when i first started this job.. or mayb its due to the lack of slp that makes my mind run wild.. no matter wat, i just hope that this feeling will not come back to me again...
i went out with anna yest to have a short shopping session @ bugis.. after that we went to shaw house for dinner @ the thai eatery with benny.. the food there is pretty tasty... after dinner, we went to orchard to meet his frenz who were there celebrating his birthday.. we din stayed for long & decide to go back...
on our way to the station, we met my Uni mates... its been a long time since we met, so anna & i decide to hang out with em... in e end, we went back to the ktv where we previously came out from.. haha.. its a very fun & enjoyable session.. we sing until 2 plus b4 taking a cab back...
it was the 1st time so many of us went to chill out together.. the session was really cool but for me, i felt sth is just wrong.... partly is because of not having sufficient slp & partly also due to some stuffs happening at the work place which makes me doubt about my ability & capability.. its like i am starting to doubt myself if i am up to this job or not...
mayb i am just feeling paranoid, just like the time when i first started this job.. or mayb its due to the lack of slp that makes my mind run wild.. no matter wat, i just hope that this feeling will not come back to me again...
i went out with anna yest to have a short shopping session @ bugis.. after that we went to shaw house for dinner @ the thai eatery with benny.. the food there is pretty tasty... after dinner, we went to orchard to meet his frenz who were there celebrating his birthday.. we din stayed for long & decide to go back...
on our way to the station, we met my Uni mates... its been a long time since we met, so anna & i decide to hang out with em... in e end, we went back to the ktv where we previously came out from.. haha.. its a very fun & enjoyable session.. we sing until 2 plus b4 taking a cab back...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
a busy week~~
it had been a tiring but fulfilling week for me.. preparing & doing all the presentations, learning all the things from operations, doing research, going to office b4 the sun comes up & only able to go back when the sky turn dark.... now i finally understand wat the team leader say.. if u do not have the passion for this job, its really hard for u to stay on.....
the news on the 1st person leaving our team came on wed... when i heard about it at the conference room, i was quite shocked by the news... its only the 5th day into our training & ppl is quiting... its amazing but fairly understandable.. this jobs really requires alot out from u.. after work, the time is not yours cause we still need to do research & prepare for the presentation the very next day...
everyone only can get max 6 hours of slp per day.. 6 hours sometimes is consider a luxury already.. for some i heard, they only slp for 2-3 hours a day.. now i understand why dealers like to drk & chill out... its really a very tiring job & after work, they should really reward themself & let themself relax...
personally, i thk drking really help.. on thur, we had a impromptu chilling session... went to drk @ a ktv pub near our workplace... we went to drk w/o eating anything & i got alittle tipsy after drking only 1.5 mug... the moment i reached home, i concuss all the way until the next morning.. but that was the most quality slp i had ever since i started work.... b4 that, every night b4 i slp, i will toss n turn ard half an hour on my bed thking about my working stuffs.. the dreams i had was also all those relating to the stock market & work..... its crazy right....
yest some of my colleague & i decide to go clubbing.. we had dinner near our workplace & went to a ktv pub again nearby cause it was still to early to head to a club.. Anna darling came to join us.. we head down to the Double O @ 11.. its been a long time since i went there on a Fri night.. normally i will go there on Wed Ladies night.. hehe..
we stayed there & dance until 2 plus b4 heading home cause this morning, we need to attend a seminar conducted by our trainers to the public... sth happened & i am expecting a scolding on mon... haiz..
the news on the 1st person leaving our team came on wed... when i heard about it at the conference room, i was quite shocked by the news... its only the 5th day into our training & ppl is quiting... its amazing but fairly understandable.. this jobs really requires alot out from u.. after work, the time is not yours cause we still need to do research & prepare for the presentation the very next day...
everyone only can get max 6 hours of slp per day.. 6 hours sometimes is consider a luxury already.. for some i heard, they only slp for 2-3 hours a day.. now i understand why dealers like to drk & chill out... its really a very tiring job & after work, they should really reward themself & let themself relax...
personally, i thk drking really help.. on thur, we had a impromptu chilling session... went to drk @ a ktv pub near our workplace... we went to drk w/o eating anything & i got alittle tipsy after drking only 1.5 mug... the moment i reached home, i concuss all the way until the next morning.. but that was the most quality slp i had ever since i started work.... b4 that, every night b4 i slp, i will toss n turn ard half an hour on my bed thking about my working stuffs.. the dreams i had was also all those relating to the stock market & work..... its crazy right....
yest some of my colleague & i decide to go clubbing.. we had dinner near our workplace & went to a ktv pub again nearby cause it was still to early to head to a club.. Anna darling came to join us.. we head down to the Double O @ 11.. its been a long time since i went there on a Fri night.. normally i will go there on Wed Ladies night.. hehe..
we stayed there & dance until 2 plus b4 heading home cause this morning, we need to attend a seminar conducted by our trainers to the public... sth happened & i am expecting a scolding on mon... haiz..
Saturday, October 04, 2008
tiring but exciting~~
2nd day into my new job & i am already feeling how dynamic this environment is.... it was a total unexpected first day at work for me.. i tot that it might just be like a normal first day with all the orientation thingy & should be quite slacked but guess wat?? i end at 730 with a project presentation the next day.....
i reach home about 9pm, forced myself to eat sth even though i am not hungry at all... ard 10, i went online to discuss about the project thingy with my colleague.. realised my Office has just expired which means i need to depend on others to do the slide for me... must really thx my colleague for helping me out & answering the stupid qns i have raised... i really like know nuts about all this thingy.. all those figures doesnt convey any msg to me at all, i just look at them like normal numbers.. those ratio, well, wat isit for???
today, i woke up at 530 cause i need to be in e office by 730am... b4 the job start, i tot that its ok for me to wake up late because i can still slp on the train.... well, its NOT true.... we were told tat we have to read up the BT b4 going to work to see wat is happening to the companies, stock market.... best is u can read up the Straits Times also for those things that are not being captured on BT but might have some direct or indirect effect due to that piece of news........
1st time i reached Shenton Way when the sky is still blue... its another hectic day filled with trg programs... we were discussing at Mac over lunch regarding our project... frankly speaking, i really ''catch no balls'' on wat is going on.... haha.. ORGANIC?? wat is that?? i only heard of it b4 in my BIOLOGY classes & know it is once a brand for a shampoo.. other den that, wat can it means?? sounds stupid rite, that's the way i am feeling right now.......
after lunch is our presentation.. i really duno how i fare lo.. if i were to rate myself, i will say its definitely a FAIL.. no eye contact with most of the ppl present, just trying to get over the thing ASAP, ( at sometime i wonder am i going too fast?? ), forgetting some of the points which i should have mentioned... if u are grading me, thk u will give me that kinda grade also.... damn disappointing.....
den it comes the mentor introducing session, thk i screwed up that session.... quite pissed with myself... argh~~ same as yest, we went back at 730.. i went to my grandma's place to run an errand for my mum b4 coming back home.... thk i am just too tired, i took the wrong direction train... should be taking the West one but i took e other one instead & its under the condition when i am not rushing into the train lo... i was reading the newspaper & only realised i took the wrong train when i reached Lavender.... another big ARGH~~~
met up with Anna, Meiyun & Chye @ Cwp... only managed to reach after 930.... we chatted until 12 plus b4 going back home.... i just love the gathering session with them... its so relaxing, so joyous.. haha...
ok, my hair is dried up now.. should head for my bed... officially out of bed for 21 hours.....
i reach home about 9pm, forced myself to eat sth even though i am not hungry at all... ard 10, i went online to discuss about the project thingy with my colleague.. realised my Office has just expired which means i need to depend on others to do the slide for me... must really thx my colleague for helping me out & answering the stupid qns i have raised... i really like know nuts about all this thingy.. all those figures doesnt convey any msg to me at all, i just look at them like normal numbers.. those ratio, well, wat isit for???
today, i woke up at 530 cause i need to be in e office by 730am... b4 the job start, i tot that its ok for me to wake up late because i can still slp on the train.... well, its NOT true.... we were told tat we have to read up the BT b4 going to work to see wat is happening to the companies, stock market.... best is u can read up the Straits Times also for those things that are not being captured on BT but might have some direct or indirect effect due to that piece of news........
1st time i reached Shenton Way when the sky is still blue... its another hectic day filled with trg programs... we were discussing at Mac over lunch regarding our project... frankly speaking, i really ''catch no balls'' on wat is going on.... haha.. ORGANIC?? wat is that?? i only heard of it b4 in my BIOLOGY classes & know it is once a brand for a shampoo.. other den that, wat can it means?? sounds stupid rite, that's the way i am feeling right now.......
after lunch is our presentation.. i really duno how i fare lo.. if i were to rate myself, i will say its definitely a FAIL.. no eye contact with most of the ppl present, just trying to get over the thing ASAP, ( at sometime i wonder am i going too fast?? ), forgetting some of the points which i should have mentioned... if u are grading me, thk u will give me that kinda grade also.... damn disappointing.....
den it comes the mentor introducing session, thk i screwed up that session.... quite pissed with myself... argh~~ same as yest, we went back at 730.. i went to my grandma's place to run an errand for my mum b4 coming back home.... thk i am just too tired, i took the wrong direction train... should be taking the West one but i took e other one instead & its under the condition when i am not rushing into the train lo... i was reading the newspaper & only realised i took the wrong train when i reached Lavender.... another big ARGH~~~
met up with Anna, Meiyun & Chye @ Cwp... only managed to reach after 930.... we chatted until 12 plus b4 going back home.... i just love the gathering session with them... its so relaxing, so joyous.. haha...
ok, my hair is dried up now.. should head for my bed... officially out of bed for 21 hours.....
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
gonna be tied down~~
in another 2 more days, i will step into a new stage of my life.... NO MORE being a student & teenager, NO MORE slacking as & when i wan, NO MORE going to genting like how i used to in e past, NO MORE accompanying my mum to restaurant for Dim Sum Buffet, JB for shopping trips, watching HK drama @ home & alot of others '' NO- MORE''....
that's why over the past weeks, i am at home most of the time to acc my mum as much as i can b4 i start work.. once i start work, she will be like all alone at home most of the time cause my sibings will be schooling also... really cant bear to see her all alone at home facing the wall most of the time.. well u guys might say that when i am schooling in e past, i also leave her alone at home wat... yes i admit i did but working will take up more time den schooling...
if u asked me am i excited about my new stage of life now, i will say NO... i quite like wat i am doing now, spending all those quality time with my family though i am earning just enough to keep me going.. thk i am just too used to the lifestyle after my exams & this is making me becoming less goal-oriented & maybe too homely.... shall change my mentality & make myself more aggressive...
was watching the F1 race at home yest with my family.. its the 1st time i ever watch the full race... i was really fascinated with the skyline of Singapore & the performance of the drivers & the car.... the whole race was really exciting with all those events going on & the results was really unexpected.... i wonder are all the F1 race so exciting if yes den i will make it a pt to catch each & every one of them live.... if there is a chance, i will want to catch the race live @ the marina next yr, experiencing the power of the engine & the speed of the car...
that's why over the past weeks, i am at home most of the time to acc my mum as much as i can b4 i start work.. once i start work, she will be like all alone at home most of the time cause my sibings will be schooling also... really cant bear to see her all alone at home facing the wall most of the time.. well u guys might say that when i am schooling in e past, i also leave her alone at home wat... yes i admit i did but working will take up more time den schooling...
if u asked me am i excited about my new stage of life now, i will say NO... i quite like wat i am doing now, spending all those quality time with my family though i am earning just enough to keep me going.. thk i am just too used to the lifestyle after my exams & this is making me becoming less goal-oriented & maybe too homely.... shall change my mentality & make myself more aggressive...
was watching the F1 race at home yest with my family.. its the 1st time i ever watch the full race... i was really fascinated with the skyline of Singapore & the performance of the drivers & the car.... the whole race was really exciting with all those events going on & the results was really unexpected.... i wonder are all the F1 race so exciting if yes den i will make it a pt to catch each & every one of them live.... if there is a chance, i will want to catch the race live @ the marina next yr, experiencing the power of the engine & the speed of the car...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
back from genting~~
i am back from my genting trip.. as usual its a trip full of eating, standing & minimum slping... i went there on Sun & came back on Tue.. over the 3D2N period there, the place are PACKED even though they claimed that it is their low-peak season....
i took more den 3 meals a day when i was there.. breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper..... sometimes, there's tea break also.. haha.. though its not really misty, the weather is pretty cooling... had my latte & cheesecake on the 1st day.. :) wonder next time will i just go there specially for their latte & cheesecake.. haha...
some of the place there changed... well, things do change, dont they?? even things had changed, let alone humans... feelings arent the same anymore but at times i will still feel my heart aching over that issue... wat's tat aching feeling linked to?? well, i am not sure about it also..
gonna start work in another 2 weeks time.. feeling quite skeptical about it cause of the financial issue arising over the week.. thing seems really unstable.. hope after the trg period, the market will be alot better..
i took more den 3 meals a day when i was there.. breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper..... sometimes, there's tea break also.. haha.. though its not really misty, the weather is pretty cooling... had my latte & cheesecake on the 1st day.. :) wonder next time will i just go there specially for their latte & cheesecake.. haha...
some of the place there changed... well, things do change, dont they?? even things had changed, let alone humans... feelings arent the same anymore but at times i will still feel my heart aching over that issue... wat's tat aching feeling linked to?? well, i am not sure about it also..
gonna start work in another 2 weeks time.. feeling quite skeptical about it cause of the financial issue arising over the week.. thing seems really unstable.. hope after the trg period, the market will be alot better..
Saturday, September 13, 2008
genting again~~
going to genting in another few hours with my mum again.. just wanna go there b4 my work commence... this is the 3rd time we go there this yr... ever since last yr, genting seems to be my favourite getaway but it only become one when the incident happened...
initially, i went there to reminsce on the past but as the time goes by, i begin to love the feeling of being there... i love to go out there in e middle of the night.. for those who does that too, they will understand wat i mean.. the nightlife there seems totally different from that of the day.. the air seems fresher & cleaner, not forgetting to mention its also cooler.. :)
guess after this trip, it will be harder for me to go there with my mum le.. having only 14 days annual leave doesnt leave me much luxury to go there like how i used to be when i was a student.. on top of that, for the first 6 mths i dun thk i can get any leave cause its our training period... haiz.. i am beginning to miss my slacking lifestyle even b4 i start working... :(
initially, i went there to reminsce on the past but as the time goes by, i begin to love the feeling of being there... i love to go out there in e middle of the night.. for those who does that too, they will understand wat i mean.. the nightlife there seems totally different from that of the day.. the air seems fresher & cleaner, not forgetting to mention its also cooler.. :)
guess after this trip, it will be harder for me to go there with my mum le.. having only 14 days annual leave doesnt leave me much luxury to go there like how i used to be when i was a student.. on top of that, for the first 6 mths i dun thk i can get any leave cause its our training period... haiz.. i am beginning to miss my slacking lifestyle even b4 i start working... :(
Thursday, September 11, 2008
eating & shopping ~~
went to meet billy @ tanjong pagar this afternoon cause need to get from him the study guide & some mock papers for my upcoming M5 paper..
my mum accompanied me there cause wanted to go & have the Dim Sum buffet @ Chinatown.. this is the 1st time i saw billy after the taiwan trip, he looks more n more like a working adult now.. guess that will be our image for the next 20 yrs ba.. hehe...
after meeting him, we walked down to Chinatown & shop @ OG first.. they are having their once a year sale so i started looking ard for my blazer.. after a long search, i finally saw a really nice one but they only left with S size which is a little too loose for me.... i know i wont be able to find a nice fitting one unless i went to tailor made one but with the monetary & time constraint now, i should leave that for later..
after buying the blazer, we went for the buffet before continuing our shopping spree.. haha.. this kinda lifestyle reminds me of my taiwan trip... shopping & eating all the time... hehe... shao yun's birthday is just round the corner so i was shopping for her present at the same time also.. finally got her sth but i duno whether she will use it or not, really hope she will like it....
was booking the room for my genting trip with mummy.. this time round, i am the one who initate the trip.. wanted to have a relaxing vacation b4 i start working in Oct.. i really love the place at night.. with the cool atmosphere ( with the occassional mist ) & a hot cafe latte accompanied by a piece of new york cheesecake, that is enough to keep me energise for months... :)
my mum accompanied me there cause wanted to go & have the Dim Sum buffet @ Chinatown.. this is the 1st time i saw billy after the taiwan trip, he looks more n more like a working adult now.. guess that will be our image for the next 20 yrs ba.. hehe...
after meeting him, we walked down to Chinatown & shop @ OG first.. they are having their once a year sale so i started looking ard for my blazer.. after a long search, i finally saw a really nice one but they only left with S size which is a little too loose for me.... i know i wont be able to find a nice fitting one unless i went to tailor made one but with the monetary & time constraint now, i should leave that for later..
after buying the blazer, we went for the buffet before continuing our shopping spree.. haha.. this kinda lifestyle reminds me of my taiwan trip... shopping & eating all the time... hehe... shao yun's birthday is just round the corner so i was shopping for her present at the same time also.. finally got her sth but i duno whether she will use it or not, really hope she will like it....
was booking the room for my genting trip with mummy.. this time round, i am the one who initate the trip.. wanted to have a relaxing vacation b4 i start working in Oct.. i really love the place at night.. with the cool atmosphere ( with the occassional mist ) & a hot cafe latte accompanied by a piece of new york cheesecake, that is enough to keep me energise for months... :)
Friday, September 05, 2008
tired from walking~~
feeling super tired now... i duno how many kilometers have i walked for the past 2 days..... i just know i am on my feet like ard 80% of the time when i am out....
went for my M1a test @ MAS yest.. woke up early in e morning to recap all those theories n regulations... i am super nervous n scare about this paper cause the passing mark is 75%, not the normal 50% and the 34% which UOL is having....
frankly speaking, i felt damn scared when i was taking the paper... i checked like twice for each qns b4 answering... cause from the mock paper i did, a word in the sentence will make a huge difference!! when i was collecting my results, i am super nervous about the results.. i dun wan to go thru the memorising process once more.. its really torturing.... luckily this nightmare is not going to come true.... hehe..
after taking the paper, i went to have a quick bite.. din really eat much for the whole day.. after that i took a bus to Orchard cause gonna meet Mr Teo for dinner there.. walked ard the department store while waiting for him to come... i just realised it can be quite comfy to walk n window shop alone... can just stop to look at things that interest me & go n try out the clothes without needing to wait for others or let others wait for u.... but one bad thing about it is, u dun have anyone to give u comments & opinions...
i met him at heeren, walked ard to Cine b4 taking a bus down to PS for dinner... had japanese food for dinner & some mango dessert thingy @ the basement after that.. the desserts reminds me of taiwan.... i really MISS taiwan!!!
as for today, i went for my tuition at 1030 first b4 coming back home to change... meeting Mr Teo today to go bugis jalan jalan..
wanted to go arab street for the chicken murtakbak one but we din manage to eat it cause the shop is only available for take-away orders & only will be open for dine-in after 7pm... so we walked to Suntec instead... but on the way there, we rested at the Strudel place... had their apple strudel & this is my 1st time eating it.. abit 'sua gu' right?? the thing is out for so long le & this is my 1st time tasting it...
we walked ard Suntec b4 settling @ Pastamania for our dinner... after tat we went to Esplanade & took a bus back home... the lighting for the F1 race is ready for use or should i say in use already.. everything seems perfectly in place, all ready for the race to start anytime... this is gonna be a very grand event of the year!!
went for my M1a test @ MAS yest.. woke up early in e morning to recap all those theories n regulations... i am super nervous n scare about this paper cause the passing mark is 75%, not the normal 50% and the 34% which UOL is having....
frankly speaking, i felt damn scared when i was taking the paper... i checked like twice for each qns b4 answering... cause from the mock paper i did, a word in the sentence will make a huge difference!! when i was collecting my results, i am super nervous about the results.. i dun wan to go thru the memorising process once more.. its really torturing.... luckily this nightmare is not going to come true.... hehe..
after taking the paper, i went to have a quick bite.. din really eat much for the whole day.. after that i took a bus to Orchard cause gonna meet Mr Teo for dinner there.. walked ard the department store while waiting for him to come... i just realised it can be quite comfy to walk n window shop alone... can just stop to look at things that interest me & go n try out the clothes without needing to wait for others or let others wait for u.... but one bad thing about it is, u dun have anyone to give u comments & opinions...
i met him at heeren, walked ard to Cine b4 taking a bus down to PS for dinner... had japanese food for dinner & some mango dessert thingy @ the basement after that.. the desserts reminds me of taiwan.... i really MISS taiwan!!!
as for today, i went for my tuition at 1030 first b4 coming back home to change... meeting Mr Teo today to go bugis jalan jalan..
wanted to go arab street for the chicken murtakbak one but we din manage to eat it cause the shop is only available for take-away orders & only will be open for dine-in after 7pm... so we walked to Suntec instead... but on the way there, we rested at the Strudel place... had their apple strudel & this is my 1st time eating it.. abit 'sua gu' right?? the thing is out for so long le & this is my 1st time tasting it...
we walked ard Suntec b4 settling @ Pastamania for our dinner... after tat we went to Esplanade & took a bus back home... the lighting for the F1 race is ready for use or should i say in use already.. everything seems perfectly in place, all ready for the race to start anytime... this is gonna be a very grand event of the year!!
Thursday, September 04, 2008
FIRST CLASS HONOURS~~~
i finally made it.... i got my results on tue & my 3 years hard work finally paid off.... i got my FIRST CLASS!!!!
for the past week, i was feeling really sick... had to study for my CMFAS paper even though i am not feeling well.. can only blame it on me being too ambitious... :(
so when my frenz told me that the results will be out on tue, i wasnt feeling nervous or watsoever... when the results is out, i am only concern about did i pass my MA?? as for the class n stuffs, i totally forget about it.... its only when i am done looking thru wat results i had gotten den i realise the classification at the middle of the page........ its FIRST!!
i am not as escatic as how i felt now when i saw the results cause i am too pissed of with my progress on my CMFAS to be bothered about other things... its only until yest when the ecstatic feeling came to me & surrounded me with it..... all my time studying in the library from yr 1 until yr 3 had finally paid off.... all my time spent studying & neglecting my family had finally paid off & made it seems all worthwhile......
can cancel off quite a few of my wishes under the wish list on the left hand side of this blog cause its no longer a wish anymore.. i had made it come true.... i had acheived it.. its really fulfilling when u made those wishes into a real thing.... i love that feeling & enjoyed it....
for the past week, i was feeling really sick... had to study for my CMFAS paper even though i am not feeling well.. can only blame it on me being too ambitious... :(
so when my frenz told me that the results will be out on tue, i wasnt feeling nervous or watsoever... when the results is out, i am only concern about did i pass my MA?? as for the class n stuffs, i totally forget about it.... its only when i am done looking thru wat results i had gotten den i realise the classification at the middle of the page........ its FIRST!!
i am not as escatic as how i felt now when i saw the results cause i am too pissed of with my progress on my CMFAS to be bothered about other things... its only until yest when the ecstatic feeling came to me & surrounded me with it..... all my time studying in the library from yr 1 until yr 3 had finally paid off.... all my time spent studying & neglecting my family had finally paid off & made it seems all worthwhile......
can cancel off quite a few of my wishes under the wish list on the left hand side of this blog cause its no longer a wish anymore.. i had made it come true.... i had acheived it.. its really fulfilling when u made those wishes into a real thing.... i love that feeling & enjoyed it....
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i love slacking~~
went to collect my M1a guide @ MAS yest, met up with Cousin Joy for lunch as her office is really near the place.. haven seen her for almost a yr.... time doesnt seems to have any effect on her cause she still looks so attractive.. hehee.....
we catch up about alot of things.. i also asked her about alot regarding her work & how's the market is going to be like....
after lunch, i went to collect the guide & took a bus down to Orchard to meet ah ma... as usual, she was late.. so i went to walk ard @ my fav. hangout -- > Watsons.. i just love shopping at Watsons, esp the Taka one cause its damn big!!
we started walking ard doing some window shopping b4 deciding to go & find wanyui, who is working @ Suntec.. planned to give her a surprise but we failed cause she is not @ the workplace.. ;(
we went to MS & shop b4 having our dinner @ Waraku... mus thx Wayne for introducing me this place.. thk i am quite addicted to the food there.. hee... bought a pair of shoes from Charles & Keith.. am trying to get my working clothes bit by bit now....
we catch up about alot of things.. i also asked her about alot regarding her work & how's the market is going to be like....
after lunch, i went to collect the guide & took a bus down to Orchard to meet ah ma... as usual, she was late.. so i went to walk ard @ my fav. hangout -- > Watsons.. i just love shopping at Watsons, esp the Taka one cause its damn big!!
we started walking ard doing some window shopping b4 deciding to go & find wanyui, who is working @ Suntec.. planned to give her a surprise but we failed cause she is not @ the workplace.. ;(
we went to MS & shop b4 having our dinner @ Waraku... mus thx Wayne for introducing me this place.. thk i am quite addicted to the food there.. hee... bought a pair of shoes from Charles & Keith.. am trying to get my working clothes bit by bit now....
Thursday, August 21, 2008
i made it~~~
the heading stands for 2 things which happened in 2 days... shall start with the one yest....
i met HIM.. we haven seen each other for almost a yr & never really had a serious talk or watsoever during this period.. den u mus be wondering why we met each other yest... well, its really impromptu & random.. its all because of the trainee trader/dealer interview i had today... he is like the only one in my group of frenz who had gone for this type of related interview & got in somemore.. so i wanna ask him about some interview tips & stuffs...
if u ask me is this an excuse for me to find a chance to meet him after so long... well, i can only say its a gd opportunities to meet up, so why not?? its also time for us to catch up.. :)
i duno for him, i can only say i was quite nervous b4 i met him... but the whole catching up session turns out to be quite comfortable & enjoyable... i quite like that feelings.. thk i had really got over the whole issue.. we only chatted for an hour & he had to go back to work... as for me, i had to roam ard in Orchard cause Mr Qin Cheng stood me up because of his MIA Tv set...
i just started loitering ard in Orchard, walking ard aimlessly for 2 hours b4 anna, shaoyun & meiyun arrived... by the time i was quite famished... we went to Fish & Co @ paragon for dinner..
San Thit was supposed to meet us for dinner but i thk she is really busy with her work cause when we finished the food, she is still at her office... we went to the Coffee Club nearby for a coffee session.. i ordered my fav. mud-pie even though i felt really full...
i met HIM.. we haven seen each other for almost a yr & never really had a serious talk or watsoever during this period.. den u mus be wondering why we met each other yest... well, its really impromptu & random.. its all because of the trainee trader/dealer interview i had today... he is like the only one in my group of frenz who had gone for this type of related interview & got in somemore.. so i wanna ask him about some interview tips & stuffs...
if u ask me is this an excuse for me to find a chance to meet him after so long... well, i can only say its a gd opportunities to meet up, so why not?? its also time for us to catch up.. :)
i duno for him, i can only say i was quite nervous b4 i met him... but the whole catching up session turns out to be quite comfortable & enjoyable... i quite like that feelings.. thk i had really got over the whole issue.. we only chatted for an hour & he had to go back to work... as for me, i had to roam ard in Orchard cause Mr Qin Cheng stood me up because of his MIA Tv set...
i just started loitering ard in Orchard, walking ard aimlessly for 2 hours b4 anna, shaoyun & meiyun arrived... by the time i was quite famished... we went to Fish & Co @ paragon for dinner..
the mouth-watering complimentary salad..
San Thit was supposed to meet us for dinner but i thk she is really busy with her work cause when we finished the food, she is still at her office... we went to the Coffee Club nearby for a coffee session.. i ordered my fav. mud-pie even though i felt really full...
we decide to pass anna her belated b'day present after San Thit said she wont be joining us cause of her work.. we bought her a Swavorski necklace.. i thk it looks lovely on her..
today is a super hectic day for me.. 2 interviews in a day with a damn big KA-LONG in between them.. the worse thing is i was super unprepared for the morning interview cause the HR only tells me like <24>
i sort of screwed up for my morning interview cause the day just din start out well.. on top of that, i am quite tensed up already due to the afternoon interview session which is like scheduled days ago... i really treated the afternoon one very seriously cause its an interview for my dream job.... 1st time in my life i prepared for an interview until so seriously & felt so nervous about it....
after the 1st one, i met up with shaoyun for lunch.. was supposed to meet anna after that to acc her for her medical appt but i din cause of the timing... i stayed at the Starbucks nearby, trying to recall some of my previous investment stuffs but i just cannot squeeze any information in... in e end, i end up msn-ing for that 2 full hours there....
i went earlier than i was scheduled.. the interview was not wat i had expected it to be.. they din ask those qns which i had anticipated them to ask & the interviewer were not as intimidating like i tot they to be... the session only lasted for 15 min & they offered me the job... no additional rounds of interviews like i tot & they gave me an answer immediately also.. till now, i still cannot believe i got in...
i am grinning from ear to ear when i walked out of the building.. called my mum to tell her the news immediately.. this is e 2nd time i felt this way, the 1st time is when i got my driving license..
went to meet anna & came back for dinner b4 coming to my house to make the flight booking for bbk... but due to some unforeseen circumstances, we might have to change to another destination or even postpone the trip.. shall see how it goes... :)
Monday, August 18, 2008
missing~~
its a very simple yet profound word... it has 2 meaning, 1st one will be u are thking about someone, 2nd one will be something that is lacking... for me, this 2 meaning are actually linked... when u are thinking about someone its because this person is actually not with u or missing in ur life.....
for the past 1 ~2 weeks, i saw anna going thru the same thing which i had gone thru in e past.. the long lost feeling that a r/s will bring to our life comes back to find me once again... it made me thk of him more & more frequent...
i told anna that i'll never ever had the courage to go thru all this things once more... i am really afraid of r/s now... afraid of the hurtful feelings which will linger for very long for me once it starts... i haf like totally lost faith in it...
seeing wat anna has gone thru now made me reflect about wat i am doing in e past when it happened to me.. wat she is doing now is wat i had done, just that now i can see clearer from an outsider point of view.. this view made me realise how silly i was in e past.. the person involved will really be blinded by love cause they will not see those things which are damn clear to em...
when the outsider tell em about it, they will not listen to it & will just go ahead with wat their heart told em to do, which most of the time, will hurt them even more.. we just like to learnt it the hard way, cause that's the only time we learn.... this is just like a cycle, a cycle that will keep on repeating...
wat i am telling her during our gathering is actually wat i wanted to tell & warn myself... i am really scare that i will not be able to act like wat i had told her to if i were to encounter this shit once again... gals will always be gals... always allowing themselves to be blinded by love...
for the past 1 ~2 weeks, i saw anna going thru the same thing which i had gone thru in e past.. the long lost feeling that a r/s will bring to our life comes back to find me once again... it made me thk of him more & more frequent...
i told anna that i'll never ever had the courage to go thru all this things once more... i am really afraid of r/s now... afraid of the hurtful feelings which will linger for very long for me once it starts... i haf like totally lost faith in it...
seeing wat anna has gone thru now made me reflect about wat i am doing in e past when it happened to me.. wat she is doing now is wat i had done, just that now i can see clearer from an outsider point of view.. this view made me realise how silly i was in e past.. the person involved will really be blinded by love cause they will not see those things which are damn clear to em...
when the outsider tell em about it, they will not listen to it & will just go ahead with wat their heart told em to do, which most of the time, will hurt them even more.. we just like to learnt it the hard way, cause that's the only time we learn.... this is just like a cycle, a cycle that will keep on repeating...
wat i am telling her during our gathering is actually wat i wanted to tell & warn myself... i am really scare that i will not be able to act like wat i had told her to if i were to encounter this shit once again... gals will always be gals... always allowing themselves to be blinded by love...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
birthday celeb~~
went for a frenz b'day celebration for 2 consecutive day... feeling abit shag now but the whole thing was really fun n enjoyable.. :)
i went for my UOB 2nd round interview in e afternoon on fri.. it was a damn long n tiring session.. the whole session took almost 2.5 hours.. i was already quite seh when i am at the last part of the profiling test.. i duno wat i am answering, jus simply anyhow answer so i guess my answers are quite inconsistent...
after the session ended, i rushed back to woodlands cause i am having my tuition from 530 to 730... went back home n had dinner b4 changing into a new set of clothes for the nite activities.. both of us din know where is butterfactory & had a hard time finding it..
the place is playing R & B but i still thk phuture is e best place for it.. the crowd is also quite different there, mostly working adults.. we stayed there until 3 when the club closed.. a fren sent me n anna back home & i only managed to slp ard 5 am..
i woke up ard 10 plus cause will be having tuition with my sec 4 gal.. after tuition, i had to go down to my grandma's place to run an errand for my mum.. stayed there chatting with my aunties n cousins whom i haven been seeing for quite some time b4 i left to meet anna @ AMK...
we shopped ard for Hsien Hong's present & waited for amanda b4 going down to his place... his place is quite cosy n big.. we waited for everyone he invited to arrive & started the cake-cutting session...
we celebrated anna's birthday for her which falls on the same week..
we were drinking & playing some games at his place.. drk a few bottles & cans of red wine & beer.. ard 11 plus, we decide to go to ktv instead & drove down to the Partyworld @ Orchard.. the b'day boy started dozing off during the ktv session.. guess he is really tired out by the late night out for the past 3 days...
the thing ended about 430 & the guys sent us back home b4 going back to their place which is at AMK & buangkok... :) thx for sending us back home.....
Friday, August 15, 2008
dilemma~~
i was being offered the headhunter job on wed.. i went down again to meet with their divisional manager & staffs to get more insights about wat the job is really about.. after hearing wat they said, i really felt interested & wanted very much to take up the job & give it a try...
they sent me down to the HR to take a look at the package which they will be offering me.. upon seeing the package, i find that there is a need for me to really consider about the job offer.. the T & C was really demanding.. i duno if that is the case for each n every job cause this is the 1st time i am seeing one..
after that session, i am finally giving my career & job thingy a serious tot.. i had always wanted to go into trading.. should i just start out as a trainee trader right away or should i go into banking den switch to it after that?? from wat i heard from the others, trading & banking doesnt have any links at all... should i just continue searching for the job until i found one that i like or should i just take up any banking job that comes along to gain some experience 1st???
i have wasted my 1 yr right after i grad from JC because of some reasons so right now, i dun wan to waste anymore time... wat should i do now??
they sent me down to the HR to take a look at the package which they will be offering me.. upon seeing the package, i find that there is a need for me to really consider about the job offer.. the T & C was really demanding.. i duno if that is the case for each n every job cause this is the 1st time i am seeing one..
after that session, i am finally giving my career & job thingy a serious tot.. i had always wanted to go into trading.. should i just start out as a trainee trader right away or should i go into banking den switch to it after that?? from wat i heard from the others, trading & banking doesnt have any links at all... should i just continue searching for the job until i found one that i like or should i just take up any banking job that comes along to gain some experience 1st???
i have wasted my 1 yr right after i grad from JC because of some reasons so right now, i dun wan to waste anymore time... wat should i do now??
Sunday, August 10, 2008
looking for a goal~~
life seems really monotonous for me now.. there's nth for me to look forward to.. thk its time for me to move on to another stage of my life -- > working..
i have been slacking for more than 2 months.. finally i am getting bored of the rotting life i am leading now.. i wanna get a job soon & tried sth new which i have never really tried before.. but den on the other hand, i know that once i start my working life, i will never be able to go out with my mum as n when like wat i am doing now.. :(
the interviewer asked me the other am i a complicated person? well, i thk i am one.. like now, i wan to start my working life soon but i cant bear to give up the freedom which i have when i am slacking at home.. no more going to dim sum & buffet with my mum in e afternoon or tea time, no more going to genting as n when i want, no more slping late, no more rotting with my mum in the living room together for the whole day n so on......
so wat i should do now is try to acc her as much as possible.. should go to the chinatown dim sum buffet with her some time soon but this wk i damn packed with tuition from Mon to Thur.. my kids are having their exams.. feel like giving up my tuition class asap.. nowadays, i have no more passion in teaching them, when the time come for their tuition, i'll be dragging my feet to the place n hoping time will pass by asap but most of the time, i will feel the contrary..
i have been slacking for more than 2 months.. finally i am getting bored of the rotting life i am leading now.. i wanna get a job soon & tried sth new which i have never really tried before.. but den on the other hand, i know that once i start my working life, i will never be able to go out with my mum as n when like wat i am doing now.. :(
the interviewer asked me the other am i a complicated person? well, i thk i am one.. like now, i wan to start my working life soon but i cant bear to give up the freedom which i have when i am slacking at home.. no more going to dim sum & buffet with my mum in e afternoon or tea time, no more going to genting as n when i want, no more slping late, no more rotting with my mum in the living room together for the whole day n so on......
so wat i should do now is try to acc her as much as possible.. should go to the chinatown dim sum buffet with her some time soon but this wk i damn packed with tuition from Mon to Thur.. my kids are having their exams.. feel like giving up my tuition class asap.. nowadays, i have no more passion in teaching them, when the time come for their tuition, i'll be dragging my feet to the place n hoping time will pass by asap but most of the time, i will feel the contrary..
Saturday, August 09, 2008
interview, moive & club..
its another day filled with programme as usual.. ever since i am back from taiwan, i either like to pack my day full of prog if not, i will be slacking the whole day at home..
went for my interview @ battery rd early in e morning.. this time round, i din waited very long b4 the interviewer came into the room.. its not as bad as the 2nd one but neither is he very frenly like the 1st interviewer.. he keeps on emphasising about me being stubborn n impatient.. i duno its the impression i give him tat causes him to make that statement or isit because of the profile test which i had taken.. he said that he will consider & give me an answer next wk...
right after the interview, i went to Suntec cause i will be meeting Wayne for movie.. i was really early & decide to shop ard for a frenz present & also for my working clothes.. need to add some collection to the pathetic lot i had at home..
went to G2000 & tried out alot of their clothes.. had a hard time getting the right size cause its my 1st time i am getting it.. luckily the sales auntie there is really nice n frenly & helped out with my selection.. Wayne came right to G2000 to find me & help me with the selection also...
after paying we went to the cinema quickly cause we were like 10 min late for the show.. we missed part of the show, hope it wont affect too much.. we watched 'The X-files' & i thk it was a wrong move.. :(
when the show ended, both of us were feeling really hungry.. Wayne suggested to go to the Japanese restaurant @ the 1st level of MS.. i never knew there is a Jap restaurant there.. i forgot wat is the name already but the food there is really nice... must thx Wayne for the recommendation & also the treat.. :)
we talked about alot of things, esp those on our Taiwan trip.. both of us went there ard the same time with different group & happened to meet @ Xi Men Ding.. hehe.. they really combed alot of places in Taipei.. its almost twice as much as us... i really wonder how they manage to do it in 6 days??
we walked to peninsular plaza after the meal to shop for his frenz present & settled down for coffee @ Raffles City.. We parted after the coffee session & i went to meet Anna @ cwp.. we stayed there until 8 plus b4 deciding to join Anthan & his frenz for a clubbing session @ St James.. it was really impromptu & sudden..
we reached there ard 1030 & waited for Hsien Hong, anna's frenz, & Anthan to arrive b4 going in.. isit because of the music or isit because i am old already cause i dun really enjoy dancing like how i used to in the past.. sometimes i cant even dance to the music.. on top of that, i dun really like to socialise ard with their frenz also.. only replied to things which they asked & never probe more.. just wat's happening to me now??
went for my interview @ battery rd early in e morning.. this time round, i din waited very long b4 the interviewer came into the room.. its not as bad as the 2nd one but neither is he very frenly like the 1st interviewer.. he keeps on emphasising about me being stubborn n impatient.. i duno its the impression i give him tat causes him to make that statement or isit because of the profile test which i had taken.. he said that he will consider & give me an answer next wk...
right after the interview, i went to Suntec cause i will be meeting Wayne for movie.. i was really early & decide to shop ard for a frenz present & also for my working clothes.. need to add some collection to the pathetic lot i had at home..
went to G2000 & tried out alot of their clothes.. had a hard time getting the right size cause its my 1st time i am getting it.. luckily the sales auntie there is really nice n frenly & helped out with my selection.. Wayne came right to G2000 to find me & help me with the selection also...
after paying we went to the cinema quickly cause we were like 10 min late for the show.. we missed part of the show, hope it wont affect too much.. we watched 'The X-files' & i thk it was a wrong move.. :(
when the show ended, both of us were feeling really hungry.. Wayne suggested to go to the Japanese restaurant @ the 1st level of MS.. i never knew there is a Jap restaurant there.. i forgot wat is the name already but the food there is really nice... must thx Wayne for the recommendation & also the treat.. :)
we talked about alot of things, esp those on our Taiwan trip.. both of us went there ard the same time with different group & happened to meet @ Xi Men Ding.. hehe.. they really combed alot of places in Taipei.. its almost twice as much as us... i really wonder how they manage to do it in 6 days??
we walked to peninsular plaza after the meal to shop for his frenz present & settled down for coffee @ Raffles City.. We parted after the coffee session & i went to meet Anna @ cwp.. we stayed there until 8 plus b4 deciding to join Anthan & his frenz for a clubbing session @ St James.. it was really impromptu & sudden..
we reached there ard 1030 & waited for Hsien Hong, anna's frenz, & Anthan to arrive b4 going in.. isit because of the music or isit because i am old already cause i dun really enjoy dancing like how i used to in the past.. sometimes i cant even dance to the music.. on top of that, i dun really like to socialise ard with their frenz also.. only replied to things which they asked & never probe more.. just wat's happening to me now??
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