felt so motivated to study~~

nth to do now so come update la.. haha.. went to e POA course wif johnathan today.. promised him if he came clubbing den i will go wif him.. n i did.. see i very jiang yi qi one hor.. haha.. but heng i go lei, coz its really interesting n at least i know some basic things lo.. erm.. so muz thx him for 'forcing' me to go la..

met him at marsiling stn at 745 n he was wif his fren guowei.. din really tok much to him.. coz i abit tired den in stoning mode.. haha.. yest slp at 2plus den woke up at 7 today.. or else i will be super talkative one.. hehe.. johnathan paid for my breakfast.. thx for ur treat.. i tell u, next time i will sure find a chance to treat u back one.. dun u dare reject my kind offer.. or else u will...... huh~~ :p

learn quite alot of things abt accountacy today.. b4 that i am like a blank paper lo.. wif no background even in econs, very jia lat rite?? but i thk that might be a gd thing oso coz like that den i will study harder ba.. hehe.. by e time we finish e lect i was damn shagged liao.. den tonight still gt 2.5 hrs tuition.. wa.. really feel like dying.. haha.. i took an hour to reach home sia.. rest for less den half an hour den went for tuition le.. really xiong rite? hee..

but i very responsible lo.. i taught my kids very patiently n explain to em every detail lo.. hehe.. i reached home at 910.. finally can rest le.. it was a long day for me today sia.. came online here to log into my student portal.. den shun bian update my blog.. while i was happily chatting wif u guys n updating that time, i received a sms.. it was from HIM.. i never expect that he will contact me again lo.. n dun haf any hope on that oso.. so when i read e sms n saw his no, i broke down once more.. damn rite.. haha.. felt terrible lo.. coz those memories n stuff came back once again.. i am jux starting to enjoy my life n stuff n his unexpected sms really caught me off guard.. haha.. dun worry guys, i am fine aft a gd cry le.. haha.. erm.. wanna thx ah li n anna for consoling me.. thx babes.. muackz muackz..*shy*

its a fully packed wed~~

i will jux write abt wed 1st.. alot of things to update n i was happily writing jux now n MY COMP HANG~~~~ i need to rewrite everything now.. argh~~~

let's start everything again..

yest was e 1st time i went out so early b4 a nite to club.. haha.. gonna meet anna n rouhui they all for ktv at toa payoh ma.. today was really full of prog lo.. afternoon gt ktv, nite gt free dinner at fish n co, lastly is club at chinablack.. wahaha.. today my last wed free lei, muz make full use of it sia.. next wed onwards cant club liao coz i thur gt morning lesson.. haiz..

i met em at 2 n we went to kbox to sing.. it was quite fun lo.. haha.. but there is 1 thing i wan to complain.. y all e ktv air con so cold one sia.. i was like freezing inside lo.. next time muz feed back to em sia.. erm.. wanna thx a kind hearted soul for lending me his shirt --> johnathan.. thx hunk.. haha.. (although it din help much n i am still freezing there)

we went off to meet xxx at 715.. anna intend to fleece him n we did.. we ordered quite alot of food at fish n co.. haha.. i totally agree to wat anna was doing lo.. no need to pity him sia.. anna, ui am TOTALLY behind u~~ during the dinner, i was damn pissed by him lo.. damn.. he is such a big JERK N BASTARD!!!! after dinner, we jux wan to get away from him asap lo.. cant stand him at all.. i thk he know me n anna going to club lo.. n he was like trying to hang ard wif us aft dinner see we will ask him to join us or not.. NO WAY MAN~~~ its IMPOSSIBLE.. i rather go home den ask him go lo.. we told him we gonna go liao n zhao as fast as we could lo.. wahaha..

we went to chinablack n the queue was consider long at 9 plus lo.. den we know that it was e anni n guys are having free entry n drk till 12.. inside e club it was like super crowded lo.. n there were balloons everywhere, really like a birthday party.. so fun.. anna n me went up e stage to dance after drking 2 glasses of vodka.. haha.. we went to e highest one sia.. thk we were really enjoying outself n high liao.. erm.. wanna apologise to ryan n johnathan for making u all come n wait downstairs for so long.. sorry sorry.. felt so guilty lo.. Gomenasai :(

oh ya, yest i am a bit high n seh le.. not drunk lo.. haha.. pai seh for misbehaving in cab n toking so loudly.. wahaha.. tis is e 1st time i am so seh n behaved that way lo.. such a disgrace sia!! erm but u all should feel honoured for seeing me in that state.. ( i am jux consoling myself lo, its so 'throw face' sia) *shy*

it's party time again~~

yes~~ its finally wed.. gonna party once more. haha.. tis time will be the last time i will be going to club for e next mth.. erm, if everything goes on smoothly n i gt into SIM.. hehe.. muz really enjoy myself n havoc tonight.. after that, i will become a nerd who will go to e lib n study.. haha.. so those who wans to go study plz ask me along.. hehe..

still deciding wat to wear now.. haha.. headache ah.. thk when i wake up den any how mix n match ba.. really hope can meet some of my frenz at e club tml n dance wif em.. ah ma.. try to come k?? very long never dance wif u le.. hehe.. i am gonna make sure tml will be a super fun nite out.. n i will spread out my NET.. wahaha.. wish me gd luck~~

haf i really forgotten him??

i haven been thking abt him for very long le.. but now after reading my previous entry, i am feeling so bad deep inside.. jux wat am i doing?? i felt like crying now.. i felt like getting myself drunk now.. will it help?? i duno.. i really duno..

i had been telling everyone i am enjoying my singlehood now.. but am i really enjoying it or i am making myself enjoying it?? i felt so terrible now.. i haf been going to club tis days coz that is e only time i feels gd abt myself.. mayb its e alcohol, e music or e crowd.. i duno.. i wonder when will i get an answer?? when will i be really ok?? i hated myself now..

i am so tired now~~~

yeah, i jux reached home not long ago from KL.. super tired lo.. thk i slp less den 12 hrs 4 e past 2 days.. haha.. imagine a pig, who is me slping so little.. will die sia..

woke up at 430am yest morning n i slp at 3 lo.. haha.. my dad drove us in n we reached KL by 830am in e morning.. we had dim sum for breakfast den went to our condo at KL 2 see see.. haha.. haven renovated yet so cant stay there.. let's hope by next yr the renovation can be done n i can drive there to shop as n when i like.. KL is such a shopping HEAVEN!!!

we checked into e hotel near sungei wong, n rite aft putting we put our luggage, we went SHOPPING!! haha.. but today shopping trip was really super rush lo.. coz we need to finish shopping by 6 n by e time we reached e shopping centre, its already 230pm.. sianz.. in e end, i jux bought some top n din manage to walk thru e whole shopping centre lo.. argh~~ so sadded.. and i din buy my levis jeans.. no time to even try it.. oh anna.. they run out of e basic color le.. so i din help u get..

rite aft dinner, we went to my grandma house n my aunt's house.. we stayed there until 2 am!! haha.. heng, i managed to slp on a chair for an hour there or else really will die.. haha.. amazed rite, i can slp on a chair.. guess when someone is desperate, they can really do amazing things.. wahaha..

tis morning, i woke up b4 10am n went to the chinatown at KL.. my mum wan to buy sth from there ma.. den i oso wan to see whether e straw bag i wanted is still available there?? hee.. aft having our breakfast, we went shopping for awhile den went to mu aunts place to say farewell.. haha.. i am coming back singapore.. i miss my comp, i miss my bed n i miss my....party!!

tml going to SIM to pay the duno wat thing oso.. haha.. guess i am a still blur as ever.. hee.. well, cant help it la, a leopard never change its spots lo.. hee.. let's hope everything will go on smoothly n i can start sch next week!!

its an impromptu date~~

yeah~~ it was an impromptu clubbing trip.. hee.. but it was so fun..

in e morning i was awoken by my mum.. coz we are going 2 knit at JEC.. e previous nite i slp at 3 n i am so tired!! went there until 4 den came home le, i tot tis will be e end of the day liao but i was wrong.. haha.. i sms my fren wind asking him wan meet for midnight show?? den he asked me to go orchard coz he was so into n crazy abt a jap movie called BE WITH YOU.. he wanted to go orchard to search for the movie OST n DVD.. since i gt nth beta to do at home den i went wif him lo.. haha..

hey, muz apologize to him coz i make him wait half an hour for me at e station.. cant help it la.. it was so last min ma den i need to prepare one ma, who ask him to wear till so nice.. wahaha.. at least he gt psp wif him lo.. haha.. den we headed straight to orchard, really very long never went out wif him like that le.. thk gt more den 3 yrs ba.. n we lost contact for e past yr lo.. hee..

we went to THAT CD SHOP n found the cd le.. it was only 7plus den n we were like gt nth to do liao lo.. so we jux go walk ard lo, n went to heeren HMV.. both of us were like 'Wu Tou Chang Ying' lo.. duno where to go.. haha.. wanted to catch The Island at Cine one but only left the front seats lo.. so sadded.. haiz.. so i tot of going to chinablack n had a drink 1st b4 going home.. since the covercharge is waived for both guys n gals today.. but he was not really keen lo.. so we headed to e train station wanting to go home..

Jux den zhiwei called wind saying he was near the station oso.. so we waited for him to come n meet us.. well today zhiwei was heading to chinablack but his fren haven reached yet so we pysco wind to go n say will leave at 10 but....... haha.. we never kept our promise.. hee.. eh actually felt quite bad abt it lo.. coz the whole nite wind din dance at all n jux sit there listening to e music.. n he had already told me he needs to go back home early previously le n i still.. really sorry lei.. GOME..

i know quite alot of his frenz n they are really very nice n fun loving.. really had alot of fun lo.. erm.. thk tis is e 1st time i decide to club so last min lo.. haha.. but still feels very guilty towards wind la.. make him sit there e whole nite waiting for us.. we went back home at 3 plus.. thk its late enuff le.. cant make him sit until 5 rite?? haha.. i not so inhuman lo.. erm.. thk i was quite crazy yest lo.. but thk i am e craziest when i am wif the 'ahs' last wed lo.. haha..

calling the 'ahs' gang, let's go clubbing soon!!!!

the 'ahs' gathering day...

haha.. ya, the 4 ahs-- ah ma, ah shu, ah li n me, ah yam had a gathering finally.. hee.. well y are we call e 'ahs'?? haha.. i oso forgot liao but i know its becoz of ah ma.. hee.. but we are e 4 beauties of 02s2.. ( very bhb rite?? )

woke up today den saw ah ma's sms saying she having rashes.. haiz, muz take gd care of urself ah.. u haf e most besutiful n delicate skin among us lo.. cant let it go to waste!! so i din meet her at 3 lo.. stayed at home n continue my daily routine, which is rot... wahaha..

thk rot until 4 den i went to prepare liao.. today thx to ah li's creativity, we had a theme for our dressing-- young n cute.. we muz dress up like sec sch gal n those who din go wif e theme will be push or throw into e fountain w/o mercy.. wahaha.. damn fun rite? but duno y ah li say dun wan to tell ah ma.. erm.. ah ma, its a blessing la, at least u look so normal!!! i really dress like a sch gal lo, still wear the Cat's earing.. but they keep saying i am not lo.. thk they jealous coz i look like a jap sch gal, den ah li look like a taiwan sch gal and ah shu...... a china one.. wahaha..

we went to suntec sizzler for dinner.. eat till damn full lo.. wow, reminds me of our jc days when we would keep going for buffet dinner n stuffs.. dun see we all small small size lo, we are we e big eater of 02s2 hor.. esp our ah li who is our record maintainer of buffet.. wahaha.. had so much fun inside e restaurant, we keep taking pics wif all kinda of expression n is those weird weird one lo.. cant let others get hold of those foto.. haha, will really spoil our image sia.. very long never had dinner wif em le.. really very fun lo.. i miss my jc days!!!

haiz, today meet too late liao la.. din really catch up much n had fun den muz go back home le.. muz really organise another 'ahs' outing soon la.. n muz be one whole day one lo.. or else wont be enuff for us to update n had fun.. hee..

am i really ok? or its juz a pretence?

i woke up at 1130 unwilling coz i am not awaken by my internal alarm clock.. i need to help my dad do some of his company stuff so muz wake up early.. hey, its consider early lo coz i slp at 430am yest.. haha..

my mum went knitting at JEC today, wanted to go wif her one but by e time i finish doing e stuff its already 2 liao.. so stay home beta coz gt tuition tonight.. very long never went JeC knit wif my mum le.. ever since i am done wif e jacket for him i din went there le..

duno y i kp thking abt him today.. i thk i miss him.. haha.. i oso not very sure wat i am thking n doing.. i muz scold myself again liao.. i will wonder how haf he been n how his life is getting along.. isit beta off w/o me or he is too busy wif his ndp thing n din haf any time to thk abt other things at all?? i hate myself lo.. why muz i go thk abt him?? dunno la.. argh~

i jux love to club now coz only den i can forget abt him n really enjoy myself n had fun.. jux let me indulged ba.. like wat ah ma say, i am really going thru a tough time now.. i wonder is there any magic potion in e world that will help us forget things that we wan to forget?? i am feeling so bad deep inside me..

i had so much fun yest...

damn it.. i am re-writing the blog again lo.. jux now write alomost finish liao but i accidentally cut off e power.. haiz.. but i am still write down wat happen yest.. it was so happening..

early in e mornin, i was awaken by a call from mediacorp ppl.. they asked me down for a show host by michelle chai.. it is a dating show.. i never tot that he will call lo coz previously i told him i am attached le.. i dun mind going to e show lo.. but den he told me that i might need to wear bikini lo n that put me off.. my mum quite object to e idea of me wearing bikini on tv n me too felt a little weird lo.. although i always go to sentosa n wear bikini there but wearing it in front of tv is a so diff lo.. in e end, he told me can exempt me from wearing bikini so i agree to go down.. but moments later, he called n said another producer found someone who can wear bikini on e show liao so i am not needed.. haha.. but i am not disappointed lo coz its so sudden n i am not prepared at all.

in e afternoon, i went to cwp to haf lunch wif my mum.. hee.. den shop ard wif her lo.. coz tonight cant acc her ma.. finally its party time.. haha.. i met steph at orchard stn n that ah li n ah shu is forever late one lo.. we went to shop ard n go to shaw tower to meet ah li.. told her to meet at e walkway mac but she went to e lido cinema mac, cant stand her lo, always so blur.. we bought subway sandwich while waiting for ms shu.. finally she same lo.. luckily the queue at chinablack was not so long lo, or else we will haf to queue for very long n ms shu will get it from us lo.. haha..

e moment we went in the place is already quite crowded liao.. we went to get a drk 1st den look ard for seats.. thx to ms shu for 'electriying' e waiter n we got to sit at e vip seats.. all e other ppl who ask him aft that was rejected by him.. so e 3 of us came up to tis conclusion, he likes indian.. haha.. the party started at 11 lo.. n we went to e dance floor le.. but we were not high at all n felt a little restrained.. mayb its due to e music ba.. luckily thing change for e better n we were enjoying ourselves so much lo.. very long never had so much fun le.. we were like a bunch of crazy gals.. haha.. n we went to e platform to dance, never try dancing wif a whole group on e platform lo..

ard 12 we went to get tequila slammer ( its actually tequila pop but shu keep insisting is slammer).. aft that i still drk another 2 glasses of vodka.. thk by e time i finish it, i am high liao lo.. haha.. but its oso partly bcoz of him.. i suddenly thk of HIM aft sth happened to me there.. while dancing on e platform, a guy suddenly come up n stand behind me n hold my hand in a midst of 'smoke' lo.. i shake off his hand immediately but he still stand close n started dancing rite behind me.. luckily ms ah li came to my rescue.. haha.. how i hope HE is e guy who is dancing behind me.. i know i am very stupid la.. haiz.. den felt like getting myself drunk but i dun wan to be a burden to my fren n let em take care of me..

oh ya, n we met a few sickening guys there.. they jux kept on knocking into us n squeezed us to a corner till we cant dance lo.. in e end when they knock onto us, we will jux elbow em back.. haha.. violent rite?? den gt tis guy who look so much like Johnny Bravo dancing beside ah shu.. haha.. he kept on dancing close to shu lo n shu was like trying so hard to avoid him.. haha.. it was so funny.. n gt some guys wans to know ah li.. oso another funny case la.. yest was so so fun lo.. never play till so crazy n had so much fun for so long le.. haha..

at 3, we went home liao.. i am e last to reach home one.. its e 1st time, normally i am e 1st.. haha.. e moment i reached home i am so tired.. my legs n practically whole body is aching like hell lo.. haha.. but it was really a very fun experience.. hey babes, lets go party again nxt time.. hee..

let's havoc tml...

ya.. looking forward to tml.. finally can go clubbing wif the jc gang again.. but den our AH MA wont be joining us coz she is in indo.. haiz.. nxt time let's go in full strength again.. wahaha..

i dye my hair today but its not e color i wan.. its no loud enuff n doesnt really carry off e haircut lo.. hope my hair will grow damn fast la.. hey if u all gt any methods to make hair grow plz TELL ME.. i am desperate ah..

today slack at home lo.. although i slp until 11 am, i can still take a 2 hour nap lei.. very power rite.. duno lei, today jux like a pig, eat liao den slp le.. haha.. den by e time i wake up its dinner time n i feel hungry again..

i went thru my wardrobe for clothes today.. coz of e new haircut, muz make myself look younger tml lo.. or else later ppl thk gt anutie go clubbing ah.. wahaha.. den i realise that i make a mistake by throwing away some of my clothes.. sadded lei.. haiz.. den my hair.. argh.... tml muz find ways to make it look less ugly liao.. wahaha..

jux leave me alone~~~

ya..that's wat i am feeling rite now.. jux leave me alone.. dun come n bother me wif all e things n stuff.. really felt so innocent lo.. its like i am involved in sth which i oso duno y i am.. damn it man.. n DAMN PISSED now.. i muz say again now lo.. i am not XXX who likes to break ppl up & i dun like to be involved in ppl's r/s pro esp when it makes me felt like a bitch n a 3rd party.. so nxt time if u wanna find topics to tok abt plz leave me out of e conversation.. plz thk of my feelings when u said sth n things to me k.. although i am a very playful n easy going person but i oso will haf temper one lo..

wan to come up n write abt wat happen e past few days one but now in no mood to write at all!!

4th week le~~

today is e 4th wk since i broke up wif him.. well, he is like disappear completely from my life liao lo.. very scary rite, we are so close to each other b4 that n needing each other company so much but now we can be like complete stranger not contacting each other.. i find it amazing lo.. i thk he had forgotten me completely le ba.. forget everything abt our r/s n is leading a gd life now.. that's y he dun bother to contact me as a fren oso.. well, that mayb a blessing in disguise oso.. at least i wont anyhow thk le ba.. thking its still possible b/w us..

yest, tim suan ask me do i hate him?? actually i duno e ans now oso.. but i know at 1st i do hate him abit esp aft wat he told me n how he handle our r/s.. now i jux know i dun haf any wish to contact him lo..

life's been fine w/o him but today duno y i kp thking abt him.. esp when i took 963 n pass by bukit panjang that time aft i went SIM for my registration.. i jux tot of how i always pass by e same route wif him sitting nxt to me n oso our r/s.. den suddenly my tears filled my eyes again.. well, tonight i muz cry my heart out at shu's house.. haha.. hey guys, rem to lend me ur shoulder hor.. (but duno will cry or not lei) let's hope i will haf a nice time out at shu's house..

den i was 'confronted' by someone today.. sadded case la.. jux feel so wronged by someone lo.. jux playing a joke wif a gd fren of mine will cause such a big trouble lo.. thk nxt time i muz really control n not be so playful towards ppl le.. jux cant believe that my fren has so little faith n confident in me lo.. thk i wan to get myself drunk tonight liao la.. today super sadded ah...

happening days~~

haha.. very long din blog liao.. been really busy recently lo.. n oso deciding on which course i should take in SIM.. dun thk i going to waste another yr lo.. really wasting my youth.. n gals youth worth alot lei..haha..

lets start on wed 1st : went clubbing wif anna at zouk lo.. my frenz pang sei me in e end lei.. so ke lian lo.. but heng anna frenz came along or else e 2 of us really dunnoo how sia.. b4 i went clubbing i went to get my pay at my cousin's company.. i oso needed some advice from her regarding which course i should take up lo.. she really help me alot lo.. felt touched.. hee..

after that i went to orchard wif anna while her boy went back home first.. we loiter ard orchard lo, waiting for her frenz to come n fetch us to zouk coz we 2 blurry duno can take wat bus down.. haha.. know wat, i change my image yest but i felt so bitchy.. haha.. need to find another style for myself le.. we reached zouk at 10 plus den met chay heng there.. haha.. such a coincidence lo, very long never see him le.. hee.. den anna fren came by n we left chay heng le.. personally i still prefer chinablack lei.. zouk is not as fantastic on mambo like wat my fren told me lo.. instead i felt a bit sian there..

at 2 plus we left le, we went to geylang eat 'tian ji zhou'.. felt man zu coz at 10plus i already felt hungry liao.. wahaha.. it was fun to dance wif anna's frenz.. they are really very frenly n nice ppl.. esp a guy call gary.. very humourous..

ok so thur now : woke up at 1030.. coz gonna go SIM to take brochure n clear some o my doubts regarding the course.. hey, tze weng met me n go down wif me coz i duno wat bus n how to go there lo.. thk i become more n more sua gu liao lo.. rite aft that, we took e train down to meet anna 4 a ktv session at suntec.. she was late lo.. so i went to raffles city to look at e olympic exhibition.. thk i am too engrossed liao lo, coz ronggui was jux standing beside me but i din notice him at all n he din call me oso lo.. when i left e place liao den he msg me.. haha.. thk i am super blind on top of being blur..

e ktv session was fun n i thk tis is e 1st time tze weng they all hear me sing out of tune so many times lo.. haha.. we sing until 730 ah.. den i went to shop at bum.. so lucky to meet anna fren who is working there n he is really nice to gif us extra discount n help us book our stuff.. n he turn out to be in jj for e 1st 3mth oso lei.. but i dun haf any impression of him lei..haha.. another examplle to show my blurness.. den we went to sizzler.. it was fantastic lo, i love e salad bar.. wow.. yummy yummy!! i muz bring my mum down nxt time.. we eat n chat until 10 ah den took train home.. erm muz thx weng n yang for taking e same route back wif us.. ( they were forced to do so actually) haha..

summary is i had a lot of fun tis couple of days lo.. but i muz decide my course by tml le.. haha.. big big contrast ah.. hope i din make a wrong decision to choose banking ba.. hee.. tis time round muz gambatte n cant play play liao..

sentosa day out~~

i am dragging my fingers over e keypad now lo.. damn tired ah.. cant tahan anymore lo.. so chop chop finsh tis.. haha..

woke up early in e morning n met yang n qi at marsiling.. they were late lo, muz be yest nite up to some mischeif so woke up late today.. haha.. den met weng at je.. n we went down to my fav place -- SENTOSA..

the whole place was empty when we reached sunset bay lo.. tot today is sun so no much ppl lo but i was wrong.. hours later the place was packed.. n full of 'fishes'.. (those who went wif me today will understand wat i am talking abt) hehe.. but den i din manage to get any la.. din put out my fishing rod ma..

waiteng ah.. ur fren damn pro lo.. i look so clumsy n lousy when playing wif em ah, demoralised me sia.. but heng later i oso managed to hit some ball ball.. hee.. met bikila guy at e beach today.. so qiao lo, yest i saw him in jurong, den today in sentosa.. erm, he muz be stalking me lo.. haha (Joking la)

went back at 4 plus.. today quite lucky, aft we bath it started raining heavily.. n everyone was like rushing to e shower lo.. muz thx waiteng for her insight.. hee.. we went to suntec later on, bcoz Ms huiqi wan 2 get her adidas jacket.. den aft dinner, we met anna n went home together..

'HE' sms me e part of e remaining mms tonight.. i din expect he will send me back lo.. over the past few days, when i receive mms i will thk that its from him but now when i least xpect his msg, he will jux pop up lo.. haiz.. really too tired to thk y he msg me e remaining mms aft a lapse of 6 days lo.. now i jux feel like Zzzzing.. haha.. continue tml ba..

i wan a new bikini~~~

hey babes n hunk.. looking at my title, u all should guess that i am really ok le.. haha.. yes, i am back to e same old self, e bikini crazy gal.. haha..

met waiteng, anna n rouhui at orchard aft kena cheated by my aunt lo.. dun tok abt it liao.. haiz.. but b4 i went to meet em, sth happen to me.. i nearly fall down e escalator lo.. all bcoz of my damn shoes.. it was scary sia, heng din fall ah or else u all no need to see me again liao.. hee..

went to chinablack that tower to see e bikini.. i jux like to buy bikini from there.. thk its nicer den those at flash n splash heeren.. i went to try on a very nice bikini.. the cutting is sth that i had been looking for very long.. not those string one, erm.. duno how to describe it but den it is really nice lo.. n e support is oso very gd.. but den, no my size.. sadded lo.. only left wif size 10 i thk.. haiz.. really like it alot alot lo.. so disappointed.. hope next time i go will haf new design n gt my size.. that's e most impt thing lo.. haiz haiz haiz..

today i jux went ard orchard looking for bikini wif waiteng lo.. den went home at 6plus le.. cant find any hunks to go out n haf dinner wif me.. sianz.. i was approached by a guy from a modelling agency on my way to e train stn.. he jux came up to me n started chatting to me lo.. he told me he gt lobang for part time work.. its a wine promoter thing at the taka, e international buffet place.. paying $40/hour.. duno true or not lei.. if yes i dun mind working.. haha.. only need to work 4.5hours but can earn ard $180/day liao lei..

erm.. still gt thk of him today la.. but its only when i pass by e places we went b4 den will thk of him.. hee.. which is like quite alot of places, but den e sadded feelings is not there anymore when i thk of him.. thk i really move on le ba.. but den, i dun wan to meet him still lo.. i dun wan to overestimate myself again n feel sad later on lo.. haha..

jux hope i can get a job soon n settle down..

life haf no goal for me..

suddenly feel that life haf no goal lei.. last time my life can still be revolving ard him n i know that at least i haf someone who will be there for me lo.. but now aft he left me, my life seems abit meaningless.. esp i am slacking now.. no job, cant get into uni n my future seems so dark.. if i haf sth to do den i wont feel so sian lo.. but i dun haf anything to do now lo..

hasnt been thking abt him so frequently le.. now, i started a campaign.. .. hee.. ya, its to save me.. from missing him n loving him n waiting for him.. so frenz, plz support tis campaign.. gt time muz ask me out lei.. n intro guys to me plz.. haha.. i need to broaden up my circles..

went out wif went today.. wentt o bugis n simlim.. we wanted to get zen micro but the price is a bit high lo.. sianz.. muz wait until it e price drop lo.. erm.. i oso wanted to get a mini skirt, change my hairstyle, pierce naval ring.. i jux wan to change my image, my style.. i want to haf a new start n a new me.. hee.. i cant let him look down on me.. i muz make him regret n feel that its his loss to hurt me n dun wan me back.. haha.. ( consoling myself only la, watever i do now he oso dun gif a damn lo)

chat alot wif weng today lo.. very long never haf such a chat wif frenz n go coffee bean le.. ,uz go more often now, e feeling is really gd lo.. it has been sth which i havent been doing for more den a yr.. i thk i really miss out alot of things during my time wif him, now i muz catch up wif everything that i haf miss.. hee..