Friday, July 15, 2005

am i really ok? or its juz a pretence?

i woke up at 1130 unwilling coz i am not awaken by my internal alarm clock.. i need to help my dad do some of his company stuff so muz wake up early.. hey, its consider early lo coz i slp at 430am yest.. haha..

my mum went knitting at JEC today, wanted to go wif her one but by e time i finish doing e stuff its already 2 liao.. so stay home beta coz gt tuition tonight.. very long never went JeC knit wif my mum le.. ever since i am done wif e jacket for him i din went there le..

duno y i kp thking abt him today.. i thk i miss him.. haha.. i oso not very sure wat i am thking n doing.. i muz scold myself again liao.. i will wonder how haf he been n how his life is getting along.. isit beta off w/o me or he is too busy wif his ndp thing n din haf any time to thk abt other things at all?? i hate myself lo.. why muz i go thk abt him?? dunno la.. argh~

i jux love to club now coz only den i can forget abt him n really enjoy myself n had fun.. jux let me indulged ba.. like wat ah ma say, i am really going thru a tough time now.. i wonder is there any magic potion in e world that will help us forget things that we wan to forget?? i am feeling so bad deep inside me..

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