felt like crying~~

i had been trying to do my MA tutorial from 1 until now & i only managed to do 1 qn... worse thing is i still required the solutions to help me understand & do the qns..... never felt so demoralised b4... felt like crying...

its been mths since i last started my sch but i haven been doing my assignment for other modules.. i have only touched on MA... felt so lost & lagging behind of time... qc said this yr will gonna be a tough yr & now i understand wat he means... having 3 incompetant lecturer isnt helping at all & its adding on to my burden instead... i need alot of time for self-study but i still have to work in order to sustain myself..... argh~~~ help me!!!!

slping beauty...

i have been slping more den 16 hours in total.. that's damn alot & now i am having this symptom when u slp too much ---> headache...

the clubbing on wed was crazy.. me & yaoquan had dinner together after i met him in sch.. we went to the tiong bahru shanghai restaurant.. its been more den 8 mths since we last went there.. that time was b4 he sold his civic away.. aft dinner, we went to zouk & it was already damn crowded.. had to park at river valley there cause the carpark anywhere near zouk is full, even the traffic was damn chaotic...

kevin & his fren were there too & they were behind the odac ppl in the queue.. can u believe, the queue had stretched until the bridge there.. wow... den we cant go in thru velvet cause there's a rule today.. if phuture n zouk was full ( which normally they will.. ) those having velvet chop cannot go in until 230.. so no choice, we have to continue queuing even though my fren at the velvet queue asked me to go over n join him.. argh!!

so from 1030 we stayed in the queue until 12 & end up being barred from entry cause everywhere was FULLHOUSE.... wat the hell.... so no choice, we have to change location & went to clarke quay instead.. went to the club call 'arena'... the music is not bad & there's a live band singing in between...

we stayed there until 4 & decide to go for supper cause the odac ppl from zouk was there already... by the time i was quite gone le.. find it damn hard to open my eyes & have to keep it close all e time.. when i reached the place, i was like lying on the table, slping most of the time.. totally duno who was there & wat they were doing & talking about... haha.. just waiting for time to pass & go home only.. hehe...

yaoquan send me back home in e end.. he had to take e longer route back because he scare i will wan to puke & he cant stop his car immediately alone the expressway.. :P thk i really always trouble him.. super pai seh ah... make him travel longer & reached home later.. by the time i reached my place its already 6 thk for him its even later lo....

slacking once again~~

was supposed to go & study wif jean darling today but we end up eating at Cartel & shopping ard bukit panjang plaza....

the weather today is damn nice for slping.. when my alarm clock ring, i just off it & started lazing.. ha.. its been so long since i last did that... i just hate to have morning classes during this weather...

was late for lesson once again cause of the traffic but its understandable as everyone is moving slower.. finally hand up my MA assignment.. aft class, we decide to go to panjang to study & met samantha @ the bus stop... went for lunch at panjang together cause she was going there to get a cake for her brother also.. that's when we decide to go to Cartel & 'give up' our study plan..

look at the amount of butter we took..

that's the combo meal we shared.. its damn filling..

we chatted about quite alot of things cause its really very hard for us to get together.. aft the meal, we went to shop for jean's fren b'day present.. its been half a yr since i last shop there, the last time was when we were having our CF paper.. haha.. still can rem how we used to study there b4 our paper.. hee...

i came back home after that cause was feeling damn tired but i just cant get to slp.. so jus nua & wait for time to pass.. gonna go & prepare soon for a zouk nite out with the odac ppl ( including billy & yaoquan.. ) hope its fun.. hehe...

brought ah chye to the facial place yest right aft my lect.. as for me, i went to find my aunt who stayed near the place instead cause now damn broke to go for facial.. had some catching up wif her cause quite long din see her also le.. the facial session lasted for ard 2 hours...

den we took a bus down to orchard to support pingwei who was there for SUBARU challenge.... when we reached, it was their breaktime & the whole thing is super chaotic.. they have to eat, drk, go to the washroom, rest, get the massage & do the necessary during that 5 min break!!! i must really salute to those who is still there when i reached.. its been more den 60 hrs since they stood there w/o any slp & must withstand those super unpredictable weather...

sorry for the poor quality photos.. my phone camera sucks..

aft seeing him getting his break, we went to haf our dinner @ mos burger cause the foodcourt is full of ppl... must thx ah chye for the treat.. :) aft dinner, we went straight up to support pingwei & his sister who was at the other side.. they really had alot of supporters & this moral support from em really help em to hang on in the competition.. we stayed from 8 plus until 2 plus b4 going back home with chye.. wei shyang stayed behind to keep him company cause yest nite is really a very crucial timing for em....

when i woke up this morning, i am really concerned whether is he still inside the comp & started msging em.. wei shyang only manage to reply me in e afternoon.. he told me that pingwei was out of the comp & in quite a bad state now, he is start to hallucinate already... he was the 2nd runner up in the comp.. really felt very 'ke xi' for him cause he was still in a very very gd state when we left him... but den i believe he already done his best & reached his limit le cause he is someone who is very very determined & will not gif up unless its really really necessary.... i felt really proud being a fren of his & have the chance to go to support him.. he really din let his frenz & family members down lo... to the frenz & family, he already won the match le.. :)

other than that, i also admire his sister.. she is very strong n determined also.. the whole lot of us can see she is at the limit & cant hold on anymore le... alot of ppl had told her to give up but she just dun wan.. she say she will want to hang on for as long as possible... from her looks we know she really cannot le but her mindset is really damn determined & positive... i must admit defeat to her determination cause i know i will never behave that way....

another thing i wanna mention is my dad's car gt into an accident!! the car was crashed by another m'sia car at the T-junction near my place.. when my mum called & tell me this i was damn sian lo.. cant imagine how my dad felt at that pt of time lo.. thk its even more sian den me.. wa.. tis yr we were damn suay lo... its not e 1st time this yr le!!!!! argH~~~~

biggest surprise~~~

went to JB early in e morning wif my family cause i need to go & get my make-up remover which is depleting... was feeling damn down tis morning cause i cant find my fav coin purse.. had been searching high & low for 2 days le but still cannot get it.. super sad.. :( tot my day would be damn sian already but i was TOTALLY wrong...

we went to have the 粿什 that mummy has been craving for mths.. its quite different from those normal one cause the 'kuey' is being replaced by hor fun.. on top of that, there is 猪血!!! its been super long since i ate that.. can still rem when i was really young, mummy would always bring me to Maxwell market to eat mee sua with that.. hehe.. those were the gd old memories...

the food looks appetising... yum yum...

as the time was still early, daddy suggested to go n take a look at the showroom of terrace house near Jusco.. since the shop wont be opening so early, we did not have any objection to wat he had suggested.. looking at those nice showroom, i will really have this envious feeling & wonder when will i be able to get such a place for my parents...

that's the swimming pool at one of the showroom..

we just kp looking at the diff showroom in the vicinity den daddy just drove into a completed housing estate... he drove in using the resident pass & park in front of the 1st house.. den he took out a key & ask my bro to go & open the gate.. the 1st thought that came to my mind is, he just got a new project & is bringing us to come & take a look at the place only.. that's wat he normally do lo... i even tell my mum tat when she questioned him whether he had bought the place... but tis time round, i was wrong........ my dad had bought the place & its only like 19km away from my place!!!! i was damn damn shocked.... this is e 1st time in my life that i experienced this feeling.. its not that i din experience any shocking or surprise b4, its just that this surprise is too big for me to handle le..... he had bought the place 2 yrs back & we din know until now.... wow, i mus really hand it to my dad... he had kept us in e dark for almost 2 yrs!!!!

we went to Jusco after our feelings had settled down.. went to haf pizza for lunch b4 walking ard the place.. my make-up remover went out of stock so need to place an order with em instead... den we went to stock up our daily neccessity b4 going back home...

felt quite bad cause i din managed to go & support pingwei who is in the subaru challenge.. no one to go down with me.. hope he wont mind & hope that he will hang on & win the competition.. :)

差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
遇上了错的人
渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程 走完了就分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口
你是我等不到的路人
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分 如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分　

went to JB with my mum yest for lunch.. never tot that i would be 'leaving the country' yest.. when i was at the custom, some memories flashed back.. my whole mood is being affected to some extent once again... but i am trying my best to keep it at the controllable level...

we went to the HK cafe again & had the korean style stone rice.. haha.. abit funny rite, go to the HK cafe to eat korean food... but we gt drk the 'yuan yang' so still alrite la..

that's the japanese style one for my mum.. as for mine, i forgot to take the photo.. haha.. only realise that when i was stiring it... ( for ur reference, i took the curry pork one... )

as usual, we walked ard the place & see if there is any cheap bargain.. actually i am more interested in going to the super big jusco at the outskirt cause i need to get my make-up remover from the shop there.. apart from that place, i will have to go to KL or genting to get it!! shall ask my dad to bring me there on tis coming sun... hehe... finally no tuition on sun le, can go out wif my family.. because of the tuition thingy, they have been going to JB on sun w/o me.....

we came back in the late afternoon & i helped my dad to settle some of his stuffs.. aft that, i finally get my ass down to study & should i say read thru the articles for my MA.. next wk gt 2 assignment due & i am still blur about the concept.. having a test during one of this wk somemore.. tis time abit gone le...

as for today, i woke up early in e morning cause gonna work @ tampines with kevin.. luckily i gt a straight bus to go there so the time travelling is similar when i go to town.. as usual, we were quite slack in the morning.. not much mood to do the calling but force myself to do it cause at least need to account to the person who is paying us.... den the fujifilm IC call me up to brief me about the pay & the job scope.. yes, i got another new part-time job!!! this time round, i will be going ard selling fujifilm cameras.. just hope everything will be finalised & wont be like the SE thing..

that's how messy is our table when we are at work... ( that's still not the worse!!! )

aft work, we went to IKEA.. hee.. was craving for their swedish meatball & cheesecake but i din have both in e end, we went to eat their hotdog instead & den went over to Giant le.. din stay at IKEA to shop although i am more interested in staying there den going over to Giant cause i thk shopping at IKEA will need more time & energy but i am having none at that pt of time.. dun wish to go back home too late.... the Giant is really very similar to those that is in malaysia but it is still smaller in comparison... the coffee there is damn cheap & i bought 1 packet together with a hazelnut cuppucino back specially from tampines.... been quite a coffee addict recently.. esp having alot of cravings for hazelnut cuppucino......

after having dinner with kevin, we both took 168 back.. was thking of meeting alvin they all if they are still at CWP when i go back but by the time i call em, they were already preparing to go play basketball le... wanted to join em but while walking back, i felt damn tired so i din go in e end...

that is the present yaoquan brought back from aussie for me.. i actually have the intention to go & get it so when i saw the present i was really damn happy & surprised... must really thx him for being so sweet & nice towards us.. thk he muz have spent a bomb on the presents that he bought for us... he had to forego his favourite steak cause he need to buy the present for us lo... damn poor thing...

sitting on my bed with my special room light on & listening to the songs.. feeling abit moody now.. mayb i shoulnt use the word moody, thk emotional is a more appropriate word to describe how i am feeling ba...

was being reminded of the things that happened again today.. thk this will last for another few more days ba.. just hope it will be like today & wont get any worse... at least, i am still able to handle wat's going on inside of me now....

i dun thk this will be going on for long ba.. everyone is like back to where they are used to be already.. back to where their life is like when we din cross each other's path... i am saying this in general but in this aspect, yes, i mean me & him... we once promised that we will always be there for each other... i believe at that point of time we really meant wat we said but actually its very hard to fulfil it... that's the cruelity of reality & humanity... its not because we dun wan to do it but its because we cant.. i always believe in our heart, we will still care for each other just that using action to show it might be abit hard for us ba... :)

duno why, i just felt that we juxt cant be close frenz.. we can be considered to be clubbing frenz in e past, only asking each other whether we will be going to club that day or not.. mayb its due to my lifestyle in e past ba.. if not, i will ask him out to study but that's like only once.. other den that, we like dun haf any association at all until that point of time when things started... now, its even worse... thk he will feel weird asking me to go club because of wat we had gone thru & studying together its abit out of the qns also cause both of us cant conc when we are studying together.. so that leaves us with ZERO association now...wow, that's like even worse than the past...

sometimes i might thk that things might still be e same way as it is IF we din go to genting together.. haha... alot of ppl might thk ---> pls la, where gt so many if lo... things had already happened le so why bother to go & thk about the IF.... true la, but human will always like to thk about the possibilities when there is a IF because it just allows em to let their imagination run wild once in a while & let em enjoy the different 'outcomes'.... but come to thk of it, i really dun regret about the decision that i made during that time cause that outcome is sth which is beyond my imagination list... so now instead of feeling sad, i should feel contented instead & seriously, i am feeling that way... just like wat the song said even though i am losing him, i will do that with blessing... i really appreciate wat he had done for me in e past & wanna thx him for everything, everything that he had taken part in my life....

insomia~~

just came back from the 'fetching yaoquan' session.. yes, our mr yaoquan has come back from aussie... really missed him alot.. went to billy's place & go down to the airport wif him since he was driving.. was trying to study at home this afternoon but was distracted... distracted by wat i had written this afternoon......

was supposed to go to work but i din cause i just wan to be out doing sth i like to make up & make me forget the sad feeling & i dun thk working will help me to achieve that... so i rather forego the chance to earn some extra cash....

how's my new image with e hairband?? billy thk it looks abit weird... :(

yaoquan was @ the arrival pick up point when we reached there but lijing is still not there yet so we decided to go & fetch her... aft picking her up, we went to geylang to have tow huay & the oyster mee sua..... the mee sua is really quite nice.... den we went to pick lishan who is at clarke quay up.... wanted to go to settlers cafe but it closes at 11... so we change to timbre & this is where lijing got treated a flaming tower by billy... i see also feel seh for her lo....

the FLAMING tower...

we din stay at timbre for very long cause they tot of going to club @ zouk but we end up going to billy's place to try out yq's collection.. the bacardi 151 which has a super high alcohol content...

billy : "pour faster lei, i wan to try... "

yaoquan :"relac la..good thing is worth the wait lo... "

( the above conversation is created by ms yam... )

see the color of the alcohol, its yellowish.. ( the normal one is white in color... )

den yq show me a picture of another alcohol call 'astime' ( or sth like that ) that is packaged like a perfume.... but dun be taken in by its appearance cause it has an alcohol content of 80%!! that is almost equivalent of drinking pure alcohol used during injection.. that's crazy.....

lijing & billy's dog, coco....

am feeling super tired now but i just cant get to slp... alot of things are going thru in my mind now.... half a yr or i should say 26 wks back, at tis moment, i am like preparing to go to genting with em....... ha, you guys must have tot i am crazy or damn bo liao rite?? got the time to go n rem & thk about all this... sometimes i thk i am also very eng ah.. can rem & bother to rem this kinda of things... but that's me, when i get serious about sth, i will rem all those very small & minor details if not i will just f*** care about practically everything & will not waste my time & brain cell to go n thk about it...

i admit that i will still be affected by this issue but the sadness level is not as much le... its not excruciating anymore but i can still feel the pinch...

having the right to feel emotional today...

memories are tying me down, holding me back & making me feel suffocated....

i tot i have moved on & i did but i am moving in circles... i will always walk back to the starting pt when i have 'finished' one round.. wat's diff is the circle seems to become larger & larger so, the time for me to go 'back' just become longer....

i am someone who wont fall for a guy easy, this my frenz can all vouch for me.. that is because i know once i fell for a guy, i will give out all my feelings & bare my heart to him.. i dun care about wat others thk or obstacles are there... ( and i really mean DUN CARE...) i will just go all out to like & love him... because of this characteristic, i am always getting 'bruises' all over myself... all my frenz thk & deemed my actions of being stupid.. well, i agree totally.. but despite that, i just cant help doing it again & again..

sometimes i really hate myself cause because of my selfish action, someone might get hurt.... i really dun haf any intention of hurting anyone with wat i did.... i felt really sorry towards those ppl who got hurt of my action... really really sorry... i am not trying to be a saint here by saying all this.. some ppl might thk tat i am just trying to portrait myself to be a gd & holy person... well, i can tell u guys i am NOT~~~ if really i am trying to portrait myself to be someone, den i thk i am more like a loser or a bitch....

just came back from a supper session with teck at the prata outlet near my place.. he had cycled all the way from teck whye using the old woodlands road until here.. he want to try out his new bicycle & is using all the chance to work out as much as he can.. he is really obsessed with working out tis days.. but he also eat alot for supper.. he had a roti john, a plate of hot & spicy sotong, a banana shake & bundung..

while eating, i was fascinated by one of the small tinny winny sotong.. it has 2 super duper long tentacles in the middle but it already has 8 of em surrounding it.. i tot normally an octopus only has 8, how come tis gt 10!! so we got into a octopus, sotong, squid & cuttlefish topic.... its really damn stupid but very funny.. haha... ya, that's wat we normally do when we meet up.. talking & debating about tis kinda of stuffs.....

look at how long the tentacles are....

after sch, i met anna in my sch, we haf decided to go & haf botak jones at woodgrove.. was walking ard the bizzare with billy while waiting for him.. realise that the bizzarre tis time round gt the most 'buyable' stuffs throughout my 2 yrs of studying in SIM.. our bizzare is finally improving!!! while walking, billy bought sth for his gf to cheer her up.. its really sweet of him....

the sweet little gift for his gf.... of course there's others also....

once again, we were all very bored during ms beth aka ladybird lesson... OMG when will my suffering ends??

even our honours tan was yawning.... special thx to jean 4 contributing the hand & hp...

while walking out of the MSM class with billy i saw this!!! haha.. thk our lecture is boring our fellow lecture-mate here & lead him to drawing his great piece..

met rex in the lect & asked him about his halloween night @ zouk... look at the video & you will know how happening it is.......

the one in yellow is mr rex aka 僵尸道长...

yeah... the 3 days weekend job has finally ended.. this assignment is really very very slack.. other than standing there to take care of the counter & serving those interested customer, we are pratically using the comp & online most of the time.. if not, we will be having our break!! but still, my leg doesnt feel like mine at all now.. its super painful at the soe.. thk its because of how i stand, i tend to put all the pressure at the sole...

i came in late today because i need to go for my tuition at the centre.. its my last lesson with my class le.. 有点依依不舍.. had been teaching em almost 4 mths, the kids are really very 懂事.. seriously i had met those who just come for tuition to waste their parents' money.. they are not in e mood to study but just there for the sake of being there.. as for this class, they seriously wan to learn & i felt happy teaching em.. really hope that everyone in the class will score well.. :) i am really going to miss em...

ok enough for the sad feeling.. a super amazing thing happened today at the roadshow.. the rain started dripping into the sony camera booth next to us from the top of the glass ceiling.. there was a small commotion cause everyone was like gathering ard the booth trying to shift it to somewhere 'safe'...

shifting in process due to --->

me & ah li were in jeopardy while taking this photos cause while we were doing it, the IC was just next to us, looking damn pissed at the whole thing & we were like gloating over their 'misfortune'.. haha.. super bad rite??

aft the whole commotion is over, we continued our slacking session.. this time round, together with the promoter of e other booth.. haha.. guess its like the last day of the roadshow, everyone is like damn sian & no mood to work already, not forgetting the sales & crowd today was damn bad...

thk we are pratically hopeless...

know wat!! the other sony promoter from the camera side told me that he tot i was a malay or a thai ( anything other than a chi ) when he 1st saw me... (*_*"') wat is this!!! i am not as tan as i used to be in e past already but why am i still being mistaken?? do i really look like a non-chinese?? erm, are they indirectly trying to say i am pretty?? well, that must be e case!! hehe...

aft work, we went to chinatown to have porridge.. had been having the craving for their 卤豆腐.. yum yum.. at least now i am eating sth healthy so not feeling as sinful.. hasnt been eating there for more den half a yr, can still rem who i went with the last time.. its someone whom i felt really sorry towards to now...

was at the train station wif ah li & overheard a conversation b/w 2 kids.. they look less den 13 yrs old to me & the conversation goes like this....

younger boy : ' eh, where's the thing?? just now i only smoke half.. later you must return me hor!!'

older boy : ' huh?? still need to return to you?? no need la.. y u so gek gao?? '

i looked at ah li den looked at the boys... i supposed they are not talking about the cigarette candy that the kids used to eat & act as if they are smoking... so they are talking about smoking really cigarettes!!! OMG.... i wonder have they reached their puberty... just wat is this world coming to???

i am back~~~ back to carry on my life...

yes, after a mth or so of the blog, i am back to my 'hometown'!!! thk i am more comfortable in blogging here since i have been doing so for like more den yrs... there's no place in this world that is better than being at 'home' & here is my virtual home where i can release all my feelings w/o any worries...

wanted to blog how i felt last nite damn badly but the internet is giving me pro.. well, mayb its heaven will for me to keep wat i wanna write as a private thing to myself.. now, i am like carrying on my life from where i had let it stopped in e past.. half a yr le.. its time to start from where i have stopped, thk i have been stagnant at the 'comfort' zone for quite awhile.. should leave that place & find somewhere that really belongs to me from now on...

life has never been so fulfiling like how i felt today for mths.. even though i am quite tired from the standing during the roadshow at funan wif ah li, i still wan to come here & blog about the things that happened etc.. its been a long time since i last felt the drive inside of me & i really hope this is just the beginning & not like a small sparks that will end in e next few days...

was looking thru ah li's blog during our working time.. i really envy her for being able to go to the US work & travel prog.. its really an experience which one will & may never ever encounter even once in a lifetime.. how i wish i can be there next yr but due to my financial status & constraint now, i have no choice but to give it a miss.. i know in e future when i look back, i am sure gonna regret it but there's really nth i can do..

me & ah li @ the roadshow..

apart from being paid to serve the customer & promote our product, we were also being paid to surf the net because of the laptop that they left us to demo to the customer how convenient the product is.. aft work @ 8, we decide not to waste our sat nite by going home straight after work so we went for a walk.. while we were walking to MS, we met a american couple.. they were asking us where can they catch a movie ard the area.. to live up the name for being 2 pretty & kind-hearted gal, we offered to walk em there.. hehe...

we went to john little which is like having a mega sale & every corner in there is just like they had been raided.. everywhere is in a chaos & the 2 of us join in e fun.. haha.. din really managed to shop ard cause its already 9 plus by the time we went one round inside JL.. so we went to haf our dinner at the HK restaurant... thx to ah li's mesmerising blinking skills, we gt the crew to make us a special order
---> condensed milk peanut butter toast with... MILO on top!!!

li's with the special invention of hers..

with me being the guinea pig...

the crew is really very nice cause he bring us another plate of milo powder for fear that the one which is on top the bread is not enough for the both of us.. its really very sweet of him...

lastly, not forgetting the super lady pink picanto displaying at the kia roadshow at MS.. its really damn cute... gals, prepare to scream....

hey guys, i haf created a new blog le.. thk there's more privacy over there cause for some blogs only those wif password can read it.. no need for me to go n create another ' secret ' blog whenever i need to write things tat are not meant to be seen.. hehe.. it also mark a new start of my life.. :)

the blog add i will paste on e tagboard....

sorry guys for e lack of updates tis days.. tat was all because my comp had been 'hijacked' by my mum... for the past wk, i muz apologise to those who saw me logging onto msn & had talked to me for being 'dao'.. actually the one who was online all tis while is not me but my mum...

for no particular reason, she was addicted to the online games & had even go to the extent of getting computer games cd-rom.... playing the games late into the nite in my room & slp later den me... i am super-deprived from using the comp.. haven even uploaded those photos that we had taken at shu's birthday celebration..

erm.. thk shall start wif Friday 1st since i stop half-way there..

went to meet em at suntec ard 7 plus.. we were supposed to meet at 730 but as usual everyone was late.. it has always been a JC practice for us to be late.. in e end, i am e 1st one to reach even though i was late for 45 min cause i went to get shu's present...

we went to haf our dinner at tony romas.. even though i am still quite full from my 'korean style stone rice' lunch in JB, i still share a regular slab baby back wif ah ma... its really heavenly.. not forgetting their famous onion rings & skillet cookies... wow.. damn sinful but its damn nice.. thk i haf found a new love..... SKILLET COOKIES....... it has replaced the brownies position in my heart as my fav. desserts.. hehe

we chatted until 11 & was the last group of ppl to leave the restaurant.. thk the crew muz be damn pissed wif us... we walked all the way from suntec to timbre.. the walk is really torturing.. each n everyone of us is wearing heels.. tat's not the worse thing.. the worse one is when we reached timbre, the place is packed.. cant even get a small table to accomodate us.. in e end, we haf to end our day like tis.....

Saturday....

Woke up at 7 in e morning because i need to go to the ICA wif my family.. i need to get my photo changed & my brother to extend his passport thingy.. up till now, we still din really talk to one another.. thk tis will last for quite sometime....

daddy drove us there specially.. tat's really nice of him.. hehe.. he is so homely now... we had our breakfast at the chinatown market b4 heading down to ICA.. when i reached there, i regretted going.. its damn packed.. shouldnt haf come on a weekend... at tat point den i realise that they had changed their policy from sept onwards, for those that need to get their photo changed, they muz haf their passport replaced.. wat is tis!!! the queue is like never ending.... i decided to get mine done another day instead... as for brother, he went ahead n we had to wait for an hour jux to get that chop... such a simple thing already took so long, i really duno mine will be like wat.......

daddy fetch us back aft tat & i slakced at home for the whole day...

Sunday....

actually its not worth mentioning at all cause aft my tuition in e morning, i jux practically slacked at home & lie on the sofa from morning to nite, watching tv all the way.. the most funny thing is i thk i lie too much until i developed tis headache.. haha.. slack until i get headache.. well, thk i should really start to move my butt....

Monday....

drove to sch even though its a early afternoon class.. tsk tsk.. am damn lazy tis days.. hehe.. well, its because i got tuition in e afternoon so i thk its more convenient for me to drive..

aft tuition, i jux haf tis urge to exercise so i change into my running gear n went jogging.. thk i must seriously go n get a sports bra soon.. the one i am having is giving me problems now.. argh~~ haf to spend another sum of money..... aft tat, i met anna for drks until 12 plus b4 coming back home & finding my mum still playing the comp inside my room.... haha....

Tuesday.....

was late for class once again.. its all because of the jam but its alrite also cause today i am having my killer lecture ----> FI

the lecturer never fail to make me lose interest in watever she teach.. in my whole 2 yrs plus in SIM, tis is e 1st time i lose interest in a subject so soon... time really like slow down during her lect cause aft our break i had been talking to billy for a super long time abt alot of things but when i look up at the clock, only half an hr had passed!!! no amount of coffee helps in anyway...... will chicken essence do?? well, thk i better dun waste my money.. haf to jux rely on myself...

rite aft sch, i went to lawrence's place to meet him & geraldine to play MJ.. met them at the coffeeshop near his place for a drk 1st.. had a long catch-up session wif her but its mostly regarding the issue on his bf... its really complicated..

looking at her, i realise how fortunate i am for being single.. well, actually its not because of her tat i felt tis way... alot of my frenz have been facing tis problem recently & makes me feel so carefree alone.. no need to account to anyone abt anything, can jux do things impromptu.. i am beginning to go back to my past self when i can jux be contented alone & enjoying the time alone.. being alone doesnt mean u will feel lonely, sometimes it can be very 'chong shi' also....

we stayed there until 10 plus b4 going home.. aft i bath i am jux too tired to 'fight' wif my mum for the comp le....

Wednesday.... (today!!)

having morning lect but i went on my own.. was only late for 5 min even though i left my place the same time on those days that i drive.. love MA.. its really fun.. thk i am really a finance person.. there's alot of tutorial given by the lecturer, so i thk i am gonna start my studying routine soon...

its billy turn to send me to the train station today.. went to meet teck at bugis cause i need to meet aaron to pass him the money for my dad's insurance thingy & need to go to the office to get the laptop that lawrence lend to me... its really kind of him to save me from the 'deprivation of the comp'.. tat's how i manage to come here now & update u guys on wat's happening to me... haha...

well, actually its not my mum's 'fault' totally.. cause my sis also kps on using my comp... one play in e afternoon, e other in e nite... so only left one slot for me, which is e morning... but sometimes i will haf morning lect, tuition etc.... so........ ok la, i mux say sth in fairness.. actually my mum will wan to let me play instead but i dun wan... cause i thk other den watching tv she gt no source of entertainment le so jux let her enjoy herself ba.... :)

slacking at home now.. woke up quite early today cause felt its too sinful to slp until 9 today.. including yest i haf been slping more den 16 hours over the past 24 hours.. wow... haha...

went to JB wif my mum jux now to haf our lunch n bought 2 pairs of shoes.. hehe.. tat's really one gd thing for staying near m'sia.. its so convenient to go there as compared to town... but later on, i am going to town to celeb ah shu's biday.. its her 22nd bday today... we haf decided to go out for dinner n chill later on but den i am more into MJ.. thk i am once again addicted to the game already.. kp on wanting to play n finding ppl to play... die..

jux now, the custom officer told me to change my photos.. wa.. having a few more pimple mark on my face doesnt mean that i haf changed my looks lo... haf to go down all e way to lavender to change the photo.. its damn troublesome.. haf to change my tuition timing to sun so tat tml i can go down there to do the necessary changes.. luckily mum will be going down there tml.. at least i can go wif em n go shop wif her in town tml.. hehe.. at least i can kill 2 bird wif a stone...

haven been exercising tis days.. no time n am too lazy once again..

only managed to slp at 1030am today.. was up for more den 27 hours.. haven been up for so long ever since 5 mths back.. was really surprised by how alert i am tis morning when i came back from qc's place wif brandon...

went to his place late last nite for our 1st overnight MJ session at his place.. met brandon at jurong east 1st n went down together.. was supposed to meet at 11 one but in e end, we only reached his place ard 12.. at tat pt of time, i am damn tired lo.. been slacking at home for e whole nite & the slping mood is kicking in.. haha.. had to ask qc to get me a cup of coffee 1st b4 we start the game..

i am the gunner for the 1st round lo.. lost quite alot.. haha.. thk i still haf to brush up my skills ba.. den we decide to order food.. haha.. its like a normal routine for me to eat MAC whenever i play overnight MJ.. tat time at lawrence's place also like tat lo..

we played 3 rounds n only managed to finish the whole game at 830... which is the time for us to start our morning lect.. haha.. i was really amazed that we had stayed up for so long lo... haha.. me & brandon walked to the train station & b4 i went home, i still go to get breakfast for my mum... even though i had been up for so long, i dun feel tired at all.. wat's most funny is i feel very refreshed as if i had jux had a gd nite rest.. well, sometimes even when i had a gd nite rest i also wont feel tat refreshed.. erm.. thk something is really wrong wif my body.. i am jux a weird person...

gt into a really deep slp once i lie on e bed.. was thking of going out wif my mum today one but in e end, she asked me to haf a gd rest at home.. so i slp until 4 plus.. haha.. damn man zu.. but i gt a very big problem now.. how am i supposed to slp at nite later???

has been watching tis korean show 'my girl' tis few days online.. actually i already finish tis show last yr when it was showing on ch55.. last wk, they repeat the show again & i was addicted to the show once again... its my fav korean show among all those i haf watched... thk its all because of the OST of the whole drama ba... though i duno wat they are singing but the songs are really very nice... if u guys have a chance, should go n listen to the whole album... some songs really can make u cry....

very fast lo.. it has been a yr since i last watch tis show but everything seems like it has jux happened yest.. in another 2.5 mths time, 2007 is gonna become a past tense... tat's so scary...

went to swim wif teck at my tuition kid's condo tis afternoon.. we were supposed to meet in e morning one but he had to go back to his workplace so change to afternoon.. only managed to swim for half an hour cause he wanted to go back home n try out making oreo cheesecake which i used to make for him in e past... had to go to the supermarket & acc him to buy the ingredients... aft that, he waited at my void deck cause he needs to borrow the utensils from me also.. really damn mafan lei... luckily he din mean it by asking me to go his place & demo to him lo...

felt damn tired aft the swimming session.. tml might go n swim once again.. was called to relief a tuition class at the last min... so i took a nap 1st b4 going down there in e evening..

chatted wif him in e afternoon.. duno y i am damn hyper tis days esp during our conversation.. super lame lei.. jux felt damn diff today.. duno lei.. i jux know when i am toking to him, i will not be myself... i jux cant speak freely wats on my mind &......... its jux diff from others... isit because i mind too much abt how he will thk & stuffs??

was reading the past msgs tat he sent me.. i havent deleted a whole lot of em until now.. while reading those msgs, i felt like i am going thru the whole thing once again.. re-living all e memories but not feeling as bad as in e past.. all e msgs tat he sent will be gone in another few days time cause i am going to send my phone in for servicing.. all e datas will be erased, including all e msgs he sent me..... will e memories be erased together wif e msg?? will e memories fade off once the msgs are being erased as there are nth left to remind me time to time abt the things tat happened??

sometimes i wonder, if we din go thru all those things, how will we behave now?? msging each other once in a while?? asking each other will he be going down to club on next wed?? asking him out to study?? i feel tat in e past, it will be easier for me to ask him wan to come out or not.. the intention is very clear cut.. as for now, there's like alot of grey areas.... ask him out for catching out also very fake cause most of the time we will still chat wif one another online.. but its not those very in depth type of chatting... dun ask him out will thk like very long din see him le, should come out n see how he is now... erm.. very confusing rite?? ha, i also thk so lei.. well, tat's me ba.. very hard to understand.... very weird...

am damn tired for the past 2 days.. my morning lect finally started.. the half an hour really makes alot of diff lo..

esp on tue when it started raining out of a sudden & everywhere is filled wif cars & jam.. i decided to drive because of the weather though i still haf some phobia abt driving aft the small accident on sun... i never drive on the road at such a timing & i really regretted... i took more den 45 min to reach sch for a usual 20 min journey...

at times i am quite intimidated by all those traffic... muz drive damn carefully cause i dun wan to scratched my dad's car again.. 1st time i drive to sch aft so long, quite unfamiliar wif all those parking at its car park.. hehe.. luckily that morn the underground car park is quite empty..

was late for lect & i muz really hanf it to the lecturer.. she is really gd at hynoptising ppl.. felt damn slpy & tired during her lect.. was damn amazed i din doze off but i dun understand a single thing she said... we met yaoquan, billy's cousin 4 lunch.. i din know tat he started studying in SIM le... erm.. its so great cause our SIM gang gt a newcomer liao... haha...

its our student wk, so the sch is exceptionally vibrant wif all those bizzare & activities like dodgeball, soccer comp going on.. 1st time in the 3 yrs tat our sch is so happening.. saw alot of new faces also, not forgetting to mention our escalator is finally able to serve us.. haha...

went for my MSM in e afternoon wif billy.. really felt very tired even though i jux nua there doing nth... came back home rite after sch cause wanna go to swim b4 meeting shaoyun & anna for dinner but den the swimming pool in under renovation.. argh~~

met them at CWP for dinner as a pre-celeb for shaoyun's b'day.. aft tat, we went to the Mac at civics to rot... did alot of catching up & its really damn relaxing to jux sit there chatting, enjoying each other's company.. erm.. well, is tat a sign of me getting old?? hee.. we stayed there until 11 & went back home cause the next morning i still gt a morning lect....


the normal group photo...


the 'abnormal' group photo...


my sec sch best frenz..


me & shaoyun....

as for yest, i took public transport to sch instead cause i need to go out in e afternoon den very lazy to drive to town... was caught in the stupid morning jam once again.. i thk i will be late most of the time tis yr cause i am vying wif the working crowd the usage of the road... damn~~

was quite motivated by the lecturer yest.. like his teaching method but i thk this subject is gonna to be very tough... aft lect, went to meet brandon & wilson in e canteen to collect my stuffs.. den billy drove us to clementi to haf botak jones.. 1st time eating there & knowing where is the location of it.. well, its quite normal to me, not wat i expected it to be..

aft lunch, i went to town to meet Teck cause i need to go to collect my medication & i forced him to acc me.. haha.. walk all the way to selegie from PS.. den walk back to cathay to shop.. there's nth much there except for cinema.. wanted to catch a movie one but he dun wan... :p aft all the walking, my feet is super painful mainly because of my stupid new pair of shoe.. thk i gt the wrong size le, its a bit small for me... wat's worse is i am damn slpy & i cant go back home cause at nite i am going wif QC to his frenz b'day party at a pub..

so we started shopping.. took tis while he is trying his clothes at the dressing room.. hee.. i am really damn bimbotic rite.. can take photo at any time, any where.. hehe...


realise i look like a nurse rite.. ha...



we sat down to take a rest & he started playing his mini mind games tat he jux bought.. its quite interesting but i dun thk i'll be able to get it right unless i look at the solutions.. well, playing tis kinda thing is jux not my cup of tea la...


he look very serious here rite??

met his frenz at cine aft tat & shop wif em until & b4 i went to kallang to meet QC.. went to the pub near to chinatown & we were the 1st to reach.. started chatting abt alot of stuffs b4 his frenz came.. thk he also having alot of pro now.. hope he can solve it wif a clear mind & solve the pro soon ba..

even though he is not the b'day boy, i duno y he was targeted to drk instead?? its damn funny..



we stayed there until 11 plus & took a cab back.. reslise how tired i am when i saw my bed.. was knocked out the moment i bath...