its my younger bro b'day today.. happy birthday bro!!! hehe.. i din get him any pressie cause i thk giving cash is more pratical as he can get wat he wans.. ( erm, that's oso because i really duno wat he wans now & dun wan to crack my head thking abt wat to get for him... )

stayed at home the whole day.. tot i will slp late cause of the late nite clubbing session wif geraldine & her frenz... but in e end, i woke up at 10 plus, which means i only slp for like 5 hrs??? tat's y i had tis stupid headache in e afternoon.. thk not enuff slp lo...

yest was quite fun wif geraldine & her frenz.. we din arranged to meet, jux happen to meet each other in e washroom & decide to hangout together.. b4 that, i went down to get my micro SD card replaced & went to orchard to loosen my naval studs.. cause previously it was really tight & i cant unscrew to change to my new studs... met anna & gang @ heeren but they dun wan to join us...

qixian came wif his frenz later on & join us together wif aloysius ( dan's frenz )... as usual, phuture was like damn crowded & we only managed to dance at a small corner outside of the dancefloor... thk gery drank a little too much & too fast cause she gt really wasted aft that... we had to take turns to take care of her & prevent her from doing stupid things... @ the end of the party, we had to carry her to Zion Rd to wait for her fren to pick her up.....

ok, let's return to today's topic... haha.. we went to the Sakura restaurant to haf our dinner... it is a 2 storey thing & had alot of variety of food... but the only thing that is bad abt them is, the food that requires the chef to cook for us were NOT cooked.... as in, when they are serve to us, it was pretty cold & the meat is not cooked la.. took alot of pics but quite lazy to upload em, mayb i'll upload em tml....

really surprised to see jiahui & tze weng there... esp when they are jux sitting next to my table... haha.. they are having their sec sch gathering there... such a coincidence... hehe..

jux came back from darling jean x'mas party @ clementi.. its sort of like a mini JJC gathering but most of the ppl there are all her classmates... ( actually other den me, billy & honours tan, all of em are her classmates la.. hehe.. )

i reached clementi stn @ 5 cause mr billy say will meet me to go get some tidbits 4 the party.. in e end, he was almost half an hr late, make me wait so long.. aft he reached, we rushed to the NTUC nearby to get the stuffs & went back to the stn 2 meet jean's frenz.. cause of the weather, we had to take a bus to the place instead..

jean was still busy preparing the food when we reached there.. she looked really lovely wif her new pink dress.. so swt & gentle...

that's darling jean helping us cutting the turkey..

mr billy oso help out in some ways la.. haha.. thk the only one who is slacking there is me.... jux waiting for e food to be served...

proof of billy helping out.. hehe..

i love x'mas cause i love feasting on all those x'mas dishes.. hehe.. yummy yummy... not forgetting to mention the log cake, esp those chocolatey one.. hehe.. thk i am really a glutton.. den we play finger guessing again, tis time w/o qing heng there to set trap for jean.. but end up she drk quite alot oso.. haha..

aft tat we decide to play mahjong.. okok.. i am a beginner & duno how to calculate the 'tai' thing la.. den end up keep asking em whether i can win or not.. haha.. so thk most of e time they knew wat cards i am waiting for la..

finally its e pressie exchange time...

tat's darling jean preparing for the present exchange thingy... she is so demure lo..

happily posing wif presents tat does not belong to us..

billy is really fascinated wif the x'mas tree.. haha.. thk we should gif him x'mas tree next yr..

i jux love exchanging presents.. hehe.. or should i say i jux love the moment when we unwrap the present & at that moment, trying to guess wat's inside it... jean told us to unwrap the present rite aft we get it & everything went into a chaos aft tat.. cause everyone is so excited.. hehe...

that's the present we got from e pressie exchange session...

den jean had tis 'most dresses up' guy & gal contest... so the most nicely dressed up guy & gal will receive a prize...

tis are the guy & gal who won the prize...

den we continue to play mahjong aft tat.. din manage tis finish the whole session cause everyone has to catch their last bus, esp me who is living in wlds & the furthest among them.. haha.. it was raining damn heavily lo... luckily qing cheng & billy took a cab & drop me at the mrt station.. hehe.. thx hunks..

was @ billy's place for the x'mas dinner on sun.... i was the 1st to reach there.. the actual party starts at 8 but i am feeling damn bored at my place so i decide to go there early.. since i will be leaving em early for zouk.. hehe..

the dinner starts officially aft 8 & i left ard 930 aft drinking some red wine.. took a cab down to zouk.. damien & anne were already there wif their jap frenz, megumi.. the 2 gals were not really interested to go clubbing tat nite.. thus we went to winebar to chilll 1st den went to eat cause damien haven had any food for the day... in e end, we missed the countdown for x'mas by a few min.. haiz..

we meet up wif his canadian fren, joanne, & went into phuture together.. it was not as crowded as i tot it would be.. in fact, its even worse den a wed nite.. thk most of the ppl had gone to st james to countdown tis yr.. other den the styrofoam on e floor to create a x'mas feel, its jux like a normal clubbing session.. but i am quite irritated by the stupid styrofoam... the music only gets better aft 3 but we left ard 330 cause joanne gotta catch a flight to HK the next day...

as for yest, i spend my x'mas slping the whole day.. how interesting can it be.... hehe

went to watch "a nite in the museum" yest wif mr lawrence.. it was quite a nice n funny show.. if i am to rate it, i will gif it 5 stars cause now its a season to relax & haf fun.. hehe.. very long never watch 2 movies within a wk le.... all along i thk watching movies is a prog meant for couples.. thus aft we broke up, watching movies is like a luxury to me..

b4 e movie, i met anna & weiwen at cold storage who were doing their last min shopping for their x'mas party tonight.. so sad cause i wont be joining them tonight as i am booked by mr billy & honours tan liao.. hehe...

feeling so bored now cause am waiting for time to pass for e party tonight.. argh~~

went for e SIM bash @ MOS yest... was in sch the whole day for lect.... it was damn tiring esp i am having my macro test.. gif up on e last chp cause really no time to finish it... i hate to go for sch b4 my clubbing session cause i know i wont haf any mood to study & i'll haf the "pre-clubbing hyper syndrome"... haha...

as usual, i went to mr billy's place to doll up rite aft sch... den i went to meet mr roy for dinner @ vivocity... was damn pissed wif the bus cause i waited very long for it & it started raining la.. super sian.. aft having our dinner, we went straight to MOS cause ryan was there already... muz wait for lijing & billy to come b4 i can go in cause i dun haf the tic.... it was quite crowded inside cause of the pageant..

qing cheng's fren decide to open bottle & we managed to get a place to sit down.. was feeling quite boring & decide to play finger guessing & my fav. " HAI DAI QUAN" haha... it was damn fun playing wif em la.. but the guys were really bad cause they kp on setting trap for jean & make her drk alot...

den we went to e dance floor to dance but the music really suxs thus we went back to e table & decide to explore the club... i tot we can gain excess to all the rooms inside the club but to our disappointment, we can only go to e retro room.. argh~~ we stayed there & dance those retro moves... haha.. its quiet funny esp a whole group of us were doing the same thing altogehter.. haha..

i was quite sober until an hour later when the effects of the alcohol kick in... it has been quite long since i last feel so sei le.. i was walking to mac to haf our supper when the effect come.. as u guys know when i am sei, i jux wanna find a shoulder or a place for me to lean against & slp... so while i was eating my doublecheese burger, i gt tis urge to slp.. haha.. thk if no one toks to me, i'll jux fall aslp while eating.... thk i really cannot make it ah.. drk very little den so sei le...

we went back to MOS later to dance.. they brought me to e members area & den to e dance floor to dance... its quite fun chilling out & clubbing wif em.. never seen honours tan (qing cheng) dance b4 & never know that he is such a gd drinker.. haha.. tis clubbing trip let me see another side of him.. hehe.. we left @ 2 cause billy's gf needs to work e next day & i am too tired to continue dancing too.. tis is e 1st time i went back so early among all my clubbing session...

while waiting for billy to get his car, brandon say i am pratically in my own world when i am dancing @ MOS.. haha... ya, i thk so too cause i practically dun care wat is going ard me & jux groove to the music.. hehe..

really wanna thx u guys for taking care of me & bearing wif me tat nite.. hehe.. thx hunks...

feel so BAD now... jux tok to my dad in a very impatient tone... thk its all because of my stupid test tml tat makes me lost my cool...

so angry abt myself... its me who haf no mood to study & sort of gif up on the test one.. but when the time gets nearer & i know i cant finish studying, i started to panic.... thus when my dad wanna tok to me jux now, i jux shouted saying i am not free & needa study...... argh~~~ i hate tis feeling... knowing that i am in e wrong, but duno how to apologise to him... feels so guilty now...

i really dun understand why its so hard for us to apologise to our parents as we grow older?? isit because we are jux too thin-skinned or due to how we are brought up?? we are jux not as close to our parents.. there's always tis gap b/w us & em... well, i jux duno how to explain it..... mayb some things are meant to be it tat way, there's no way for us to explain it..... tat's life ba...

it has been rainin for 2 days... such a nice weather to relax & laze ard w/o needing to worry abt anything.. but well, that's so not true for me... i haf alot of test coming up & i needa study!! but tat's not the point, the pt is i DUN HAF any mood to study....

x'mas & new yr is jux round the corner & all i can thk abt is SHOP, EAT & PLAY~~~~ nth related to studies at all... argh~~ i jux duno y the lecturer muz be such a spoiler as to set the test date so near to hols... although all the test will not be taken into consideration in our final results, but i dun wanna skip any or do badly for it.. i know i such a gd student rite.. haha....

guess i haf no choice but to force myself to sit down & study hard in e lib tml... jux finished uploading the pics taken yest @ mr weng's birthday celeb.... i hate uploading photos.. its so mafan & time-consuming.. esp i need to resize everything nicely which is quite impossible for a computer dummy like me even wif the help of e most simple program...

still in a dilemma now.. duno wanna go for e SIM bash on thur or phuture wif gery darling on wed... argh~~ i hate making choices as well......

jux came back from tze weng's b'day celebration at new york new york.. haven been meeting em for quite a long time.. cause whenever they haf outings or b'day party, i will either be working or at KL..

wanted to meet mr roy for a short shopping session one.. but den i dun wan to meet him for 2 hrs den ask him go back because i need to attend weng's dinner.. in e end, i stayed at home until 4 plus n den took a bus down to meet the gals who were shopping in town.. duno y i am very tired tis days... slp thru the bus journey until damien called... was so blur until i mistaken him for another person.. hehe..

met the gals at city hall... this is e 3rd days i went there consecutively lo.. haha.. i bought a bag at GUESS... duno isit human nature or wat.. once i take e bag, everyone is like coming over n looking at it...within mins, the bag were all taken.... oh ya, there's this funny incident, a mum came over to ask me & anna is the bag too mature for a P5 gal?? we were like...... stumped... haha... P5 taking a Guess bag!! well, the world is really changing..... kids tis days are so fortunate la...

i tot that new york new york will haf a long queue today but to my surprise, there's none... anna & me were starving when we reached there... we quicky order the food & started taking pics.. thk we are jux too vain & 'zi lian' haha..

doesnt the photos here looks artistic?? haha.. well, its actually due to my shaky hand..

that's me & my anna darling...

our Sentosa gang...

luckily the food came quite fast.. its not wat i expect it to be.. cause i tot tat it will be in american portion but its not.. the portion seems normal & not EXTRA LARGE...

tat's wat i haf for dinner there.. the root beer belongs to ms anna & its e only thing tat i can relate to an american restaurant..

the food taste.. but i am quite disappointed cause they dun haf my fav BROWNIE... its so not 'authentic' la.. i always thk tat an authentic american style restaurant should haf brownie & i mean really nice brownie in their dessert list lo... argh~~ so disappointed...

after having our fill, we asked the crew to bring us mr tze weng' birthday cake.. :)

that's mr weng making a wish... hope his wish will come true...

we stayed ard n kp on taking photos like nobody business.. haha.. thk the crews were all really damn pissed wif us..

tat's me & the b'day boy ~~ mr tze weng

me, anna & cutie amanda..

me & anna wif our new dressing style.... ( qi said we look like we are going for some wedding dinner.. haha)

at last, our final group photo of the day....


oh ya, there's tis candy floss machine there for e customers to make candy floss on their own.. its quite cool... at least they haf sth special other den the big pool table there.. we left ard 9 plus n go back home le cause no one has any suggestions to go elsewhere.. mayb its sun & weng's need to book in too.....

been going out for e past few days & all of the outings are planned at e last min.. was in sch the whole day on FRI.. nearly died because of boredom at e last few hrs of the lect.. went to meet lawrence at toa payoh.. wanted to go wif him to east coast n chill until 10 plus den go meet damien one.. but there's some last min changes.. thus i jux met lawrence for a while den go off le..

went to city hall & wait for damien.. shop ard b4 he came & realised that alot of things are having sales now.. really tempted to buy everything home.. den i saw tis billabong cap tat's really cool & ME.... but the thing is its white in color... for someone who's damn lazy & rough like me, white cap is a NO NO.. haha... guess i'll haf to look ard for a cap again..

by the time i met him, i am damn hungry la.. went to the makansutra gluttons bay to haf our dinner.. to my surprise, its not as crowded as i tot it would be... erm.. mayb everyone is getting their bonuses & its festive season now.. thus everyone is like going to nice & posh restaurant 4 dinner instead.. haha.. ( die.. thk i am becoming more n more crappy tis days.. )

aft dinner, we wanted to go straight to harry's esplanade, which is our original plan for e nite but den there's tis private function going on & we duno wat time will it end thus, change of plan again.. decide to go to e one at boat quay instead... but b4 we go there, we sat down at a park near esplanade & talk cause mr damien felt tired.. reaslied tat he is not like wat we tot him to be.. ( well, its anna who tot tat way la.. ) he is really lame n crappy.. sth tat i myself will not expect him to be too.. haha... but its really fun toking to him.. feels really relax, jux like talking n catching up wif a really close frenz... well, i thk we really tok alot of crap tat day... too bad for him cause he had to bear wif me for more den 3 hrs.. haha...

we managed to get a seat by e river outside harry's & his frenz reached mins later.. everyone is having their internship in singapore & one of em, a canadian is leaving for spore in 2 wks time.. they are really frenly but there's one pro la.. cause my eng is not pro & they speak wif accent thus i haf some problems understanding or trying to understand wat they are toking.. hehe..

in e end, anna din came over to meet us for drks cause her dinner date ended quite late.. so she say no pt to come n stay 4 a few min.. i stayed until 12 plus n went to get a cab... but there's jux no cab available n too many ppl wanting one.. too much demand but no suppy.... therefore, i called anna n asked her to come n fetch me from orchard.. walk all e way to funan to wait for her cause thk its e easiest way to fetch me...

den it SAT... gt tis stats lect on sat morning.. its such a turn-off lo.. weekend morning having lect, how suay can i be... argh~~ the most jia lat thing is.. i duno wat the lecturer is talking at ALL..... i am really off the track now... no mood to study & so off in lect..... let's hope everything will be back on the track next yr.....

aft lect, i had my lunch in sch wif qing cheng & billy... den i took a bus down to harbourfront to meet damien & his german frenz for a vball day in Sentosa... Lewis saw me @ the hawker there, he was going there wif his frenz too.... the vball day turn out to be a slacking & lazing day for me instead.. cause we dun haf enuff ppl to form a team to play.... in e end, when another of damien's frenz came, we started to play some stupid n lame games wif e vball..

we left @ 5 plus cause they all haf sth on at nite.. while waiting for e bus, i thk i catch a cold.. actually i haf been having tis 'gonna-get-sick' thingy for e past 2 days le.. today, the thing becomes 'i-am-sick'.. haha.. den while chit chatting wif his frenz i realise we are born on e same day.. its e 1st time i know of someone whom i know having e same b'day as me.. tat's damn cool la.. hehe..

they drop me off at city hall n i grab myself a subway b4 taking a train back home.. slp thruout the journey back.. thk i am really very tired.. went to cwp to get myself a cold remedy from e chinese herbal shop b4 walking back home.. den went to bed at 11... very long never slp so early liao.. haha.. its really shiok lo..

i am damn pissed la.... was touched repeatedly by a stupid idiotic bastard yest nite at phuture.. & the most sickening thing is that guy is a fren of mine.. well from today onwards... he will be jux a bastard to me... really damn it la.... i mux really warn u gals from him.. next time u see him inside a club, stand away from him as far as possible.... i should not say out his name but i can tell u gals that he is a fren of mine from JJC, my batch one & is a basketball sch player who is quite short...... but i can say that tis JJC basketball guy is as touchy as his stupid idiotic bastard frenz.... i jux dun understand how guys can be so desperate even when towards their fren lo....

apart from e damn sickening incident, there's sth that's really swt... yaoquan brought me a gigantic toblerone from aussie.... its really huge & yest i was the central of attention because of the chocolate.. everyone was like asking is that a real choco?? can it be eaten?? where u bought it?? haha.. i can imagine how hard it had been for yaoquan to bring it back all e way from aussie.... really wana thx him lo.. if not for him, i wont be seeing n getting such a big choco.... he's really a very nice n swt guy.. hehe..

i am back~~ did u guys miss me?? well i did.. haha.. jux reached home at 3 plus from a 5 days 4 nite trip to KL once again.. tis was like my duno how many trips tis yr there already.... thk i can be considered as a native there now.. haha... ok.. going to watch tv le.. tml den update u guys abt my trip there... ciaoz~~~

wanted to start my diet regime yest one but i thk everything is not going well as planned again.. went to JB wif my parents today 2 stock up our food supply.. going to JB means tat we will be feasting & it oso means i will jux lost control & eat my fill... and yes I DID......

as usual we had bak kuteh, i had never been to tis stall b4... actually all e bak kuteh taste the same to me except the claypot one i ate @ KL... i jux love the 'burnt the tongue' feeling that the claypot & only the claypot will gif me.. on top of that, there's alot of things inside the claypot itself, like veg, meat, tau pok, pig liver etc.......

after our lunch, we went to carrefour.. its been yrs since i last went there... we bought alot of things & it costs less den 100 sing dollar in total.. tat's the reason y alot of singaporean likes to go there on weekend to stock up their supply even though they know they muz endure the terrible JAM @ the causeway... i muz really mention that their dairy pdt & alcohol is really VERY cheap.....

we went to city square aft our shopping spree @ carrefour.. i was damn happy @ city square coz my fav. HK restaurant ~KIM GARY~ finally open their outlet @ JB.. it means that i no need to go all the way to KL or wait until i am in KL den can i haf the BEST HK food.. among all the HK restaurants that i had been to, ~KIM GARY~ serves the best & most reasonably priced food... but it pose another pro, having it so near to me ( from my home to JB is only 3 km max ), i thk i will haf a harder time to control my diet.. hehe...

haiz.. am having a bad flu now.. hope it will be ok by tml.. :)

watched HAPPY FEET yest & i muz say that aft watching that show, it really changed my perception abt cartoon.. in e past i always thk that its a waste of money 2 go 2 e cinema & watch cartoon but yest, aft seeing how real the graphics are, i am beginning to thk that i am a shallow person.. haha... at times i really cannot differentiate whether the background is real or isit jux a part of computer graphics..

technologies are really changing n improving at a very fast rate.. imagine over e past 10 yrs how computer had evolved from the white n bulky one to the LCD screen one.. i am wondering next time, there might not even be any actor acting anymore cox we can jux use computer to create a movie that is so real..

i had been working at raffles city for e past few days.. thk it had been very long since i went there, so much had changed.. their market place is so cool, there are so many new concept shops & nice restaurants.. looking at all e changes around me, i am beginning to wonder.... is the society n environment changing too fast or am i lagging behind??

its 21st nov today.. i still rem that it was once a day tat i haf been looking forward to.. 3 yrs back, its my last day of the A-level exam & oso our official 1st mth anniversary... i muz say that again, time really files.. so much haf changed within tis 3 yrs.. my thking, my perception & how i look at things now.. even the environment ard me changed alot.. sometimes i wonder, isit really that everything has changed or isit because i am beginning to see the world more n more.. alot of things are already there for very long, its jux tat last time i am too young to notice it or my world is jux too naive..

been feeling damn lonely tis days.. mayb its all e festive mood fault.. i finally understand y ppl always say that u will feel the impact of loneliness more when its nearer to a festive season, esp christmas n new yr.... and rite now, i am feeling that way...

come to thk of it.. i am really a very boring person.. really no life now.. other den clubbing which add a little spices to my life, my life is jux damn monotonous... I WAN A CHANGE~~~ & I THK I NEED ONE BADLY......

finally my horrible 5-day week studying day commence last sat.. from now on i am only free on tue & sun because of my damn stupid timetable.. it really sux... last sat aft my stats lect in e morning, i meet up wif anna & went to NUS central Lib to study.. it is really conducive & the best thing is there is powerpoint for us to charge our laptop.. it's really damn cool as compared to my own lib...

we study wif roy until 5 plus den went back home to prepare for a party nite out at momo... haven been clubbing for e past few wks.. it was really quite an achievement esp for someone like me, who is a frequent clubber in e past.. haha.. well, come to thk of it, i find it to be damn amazing when i thk back abt wat i did in e past few mths.. its damn crazy la.. duno why i din notice it at that pt of time..

i meet weiwen & went down to orchard to haf our dinner.. we settled down @ nydc to haf their bake rice & chit chatted abt quite alot of things while waiting for anna & ah chye to come n meet us.. tis is e 2nd time i went to momo, the 1st time was last yr & i still rem i went there wif alvin & gang.. the music that nite was damn buang.. thk phuture still play the best R&B music.. haha.. i miss clubbing in phuture.. but its always damn crowded there until we cant even find any space to dance.. erm.. mayb that's the trade-off..

saw kenny there wif his superstar gang.. thk it has been a yr since i last saw him.. ard 3 plus we decide to leave the place... mayb everyone's tired or e music is simply... haiz... we went to the mac nearby to slack n haf our breakfast.. stayed there until 6 plus n den take a cab back wif meiyun & anna.. fall aslp rite aft bathing n only wake up ard 3 plus e next day.. its so sinful to waste a day slping..

went to meet weiwen & anna at the 306 mac to study.. but actually i din study much, jux go there to tok rubbish.. stayed there until 9 plus den go to our fav. prata place to chill again.. while walking there, we passed by our sec sch n some memories came back.. i realised how old we are now.. we had graduated from sec sch for 5 yrs.. that's damn long lo.. time really flies...

was working @ the Motorshow 2006 for OCBC today.. its e 1st time i went to a motorshow.. i am really fascinated wif all the cars on display.. they are simply.........WOW~~~~ who says gal duno how to appreciate n look at cars... haha... those booth that are near ours are all my fav car brand... there's SUBARU, LAMBO & MAZDA~~~~ i finally haf a chance to sit at the driver's seat of my fav RX-8 & MX-5 Roadster Coupe.... i can imagine how cool it will be if i could drive em on e road... but the car is really too expensive for a student or a normal working adult... well, the car will be my motivation to work hard from now on.. haha...

i am quite disappointed that the LAMBO counter din display their signature yellow Lambo.. they only haf 2 white n a black one but tat's enuff to draw the crowd over.. den we go n watch the SUBARU show.. its damn amazing how the guy can do the parallel parking at such a high speed... i cant even do a proper parallel parking now lo.. haha..

in e evening, i went up to e 6th level n take more pics.. the Lexus sports car is damn sleek n cool... its jux like e feminine version of Lambo.. den there's fair lady by nissan & a lot more really cool cars which i duno the brand..


the moment i see tis car, i feel like i am in e Hello Kitty world.. its so cartoon n Hello Kitty...


can u differentiate which one is e front n back of e car??


the car which has a "Smiling" front.. btw the seats are damn cool.. its white wif silver metal lining all ard em....

really envy those showgals who can play wif those car n receive such a high pay during the motorshow.. thk they can earn abt 2-3k during tis 11 days lo... which is half of my whole yr sch fees!!!

i was really surprised to see melvin, jackson & guanwen they all @ the show.. aft my work ended, i went to meet em @ coffeebean to chill... come to thk of it, i haf never go out wif em b4, let alone chill.. haha.. we went off at 11 to meet yong sing & junhui @ esplanade.. met for a while n den its time to go home cox tml morn i will be having my stupid stats lect.. why stupid?? cox its on a SAT MORN... the day to slp late for others n wake up damn early for me.. another thing is it means i can never go clubbing on fri nite durin tis period anymore.....

went for my "HUBBY"'s ( jackson) b'day surprise celeb yest.. its meant to be a surprise thingy but because of my blurness, i accidentally spill the bean n "alert" the b'day boy of it.. i duno they kept the whole thing from him thus when he told me that we are meeting at bugis for dinner i jux replied back saying arent we having bbq at john john's place?? hehe....

me, andy, serene, jin yong, weiguang & john john went to IMM giant to buy the food.. thk its the 1st time i spent so long buying bbq stuff inside a supermarket.. muz start everything on scratch cox that stupid andy din list everything down on his grocery list thus we haf to rem n thk wat we need on the spot.. but come to thk of it, its a very nice n fun experience...

john john drive us back to his palce to prepare the food.. i am in charge of the baking n sushi... but in e end, everything was in a mess.. haha.. thk i am fated not being able to bake any brownie in my life.. cox everytime it will get overcooked.. den the sushi oso, the rice was too soft, thk put too much water but everything was finished in e end.. haha... so its still not bad after all..


the legendary brownie.. john john's mum help me to decorate it nicely so at least it looks appealing.. BUT.......
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its damn hard la.. we can only cut it into half by using a big knife in a chopping action..
P.S ---- look @ the top right pic & see wat MS ah shu is doing....

it has been a long long time since we last went to john john's place for bbq.. come to thk of it, its almost 2 yrs.. i miss our bbq days.. hope can haf it more often..
here's bao ge who's trying his best to start the fire..


finally the long awaited moment arrived.. the b'day was here wif the others.. we went to e carpack there 'fetch' him... as usual, during b'day we will prepare some weird stuff or gifts.. as for today, we bought some 'shou tao' for the b'day boy..




the 'shou tao' & the sabotage~~ ( ideas contributed by Mr. Bao ge ge.. )


thk i ate alot of stuffs n there goes my hardwork for dieting n exercing for e past wk.. well, its not like everytime i will haf tis kinda of gathering so i jux indulge myself.. haha.. everyone was very enthu abt bbqing cox we were all surrounding the pit n trying to cook the food unlike in e past, the gals will be sitting there waiting for the guys to cook for us.. hehe..


the watermelon gals... haha..


the full strength who turn up for the big day.. ( formal version )


cheeky version..

aft taking all those photos, mr andy suggested of doing the number pose photo.. it was 1st invented by me, ah shu & jinyong during 1 of our supper trip @ timah..

the 1 to 9 number pose..

been really into sports tis days.. haf been jogging n swimming for e past few days.. it feels really great aft sweating.. hehe..

went to Sentosa wif e odac ppl today.. it had been more den a yr since i last step into Sentosa.. everytime i wanna go there my frenz will say they haven had their body trained so cant go.. n tis excuses has been going on n on for a yr.. finally i gt my wish fulfiled.. haha.. but tis time round, i am not in gd shape.. well, heck care.. wat matters is i can play my fav. vball.. haha..

we were supposed to meet at 1030 but den, as a typical S'porean, most of em were late.. i had subway for breakfast den aft meeting billy, lijing n yang they all, we went into Sentosa 1st.. cox the others will be damn late... the weather today was really gd.. unlike tis couple of days, it din rain at all.. I had alot of fun playing vball wif e others..


SIM Odac..

Sentosa really changed alot.. Sunset Bay was 'demolised' & palawan beach now has a lot more stalls n shops.. din had a chance to go walk ard cox i was busy playing vball n cant bear to leave the court that we managed to get hold of.. thus when all e gals went there to shop for drks, i stayed behind...


Lewis came ard 1 plus to join us aft his lect.. thk its e 1st time we went to the beach together aft our pageant.. din really acc him today, hope he wont mind.. hehe... was really surprised to see gilson there wif some SIM SRC ppl.. haha.. today is like SIM cca outing day lo.. oh.. there's alot of eyecandy at the beach today.. wow.... wahaha..

today i realised that playing frisbee requires alot of skills.. last time i always thk that playing frisbee = throwing the frisbee out... but its actually very hard to throw it in a straight line n reach the person nicely for him/her to catch it...

den we started taking photos.. finally my camera got some 'gong xian' le.. haha...


the odac 'hunks'....


the odac babes....

the guys suddenly wants to take photos in a more unconventional way.. thus
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the flying 'jumbo'.... hehe...

its damn hard to capture the perfect moments.. but we made it aft 4 tries... haha..



(from top left to bottom right) lijing, billy, gilson & lewis wif ME... haha..

we went to bath ard 7 n saw elyn in e washroom.. thk i din see him for more den a yr le.. she is still as pretty as ever.. hehe.. we walked down to underwater world station to catch a bus to the departure centre.. at 1st we wan to go down to tiong bahrun market for dinner one but den thk its quite mafan thus we settle for the foodcourt dinner at harbourfront..

really enjoed myself today... played my fav.vball, learn sth abt frisbee, know alot more frenz, see so many eyecandys n so much more... hehe....

Its 6am in e morning now.. I haf been awake for almost 24 hours.. yest woke up b4 7 due to some breathing problems.. its sth like asthma, i can only breathe smoothly when I am sitted up.. which means I either haf to slp in a sitting position or jux wake up & I chose the latter..

Went for my lesson in e afternoon, the lecturer gave out another 2 thick sets of notes.. I left those notes at billy’s place when we went there aft my lect wif qing cheng n liqing.. yaoquan came n fetch us to haf dinner together at Zion Market.. they were trying to persuade me to go to the KL roadtrip on Sun with em but cause of my kid’s exam, I haf to gif it a miss.. I am really tempted to go with em.. never been on a roadtrip with my frenz b4.. thk its gonna be very fun…

We went to meet anna at Zouk when they reached.. realized that pingwei they all will be coming oso.. never really go out with em aft we graduate from sec sch.. I haf never imagine that I will be clubbing with em too.. cox all of them are not really into clubbing n are more interested in healthy activities.. apart from em, there is still meiyun, thiam hock, terence, Damien & joey.. it has been a long time since I went clubbing with so many ppl…

I had a lot of fun dancing with em.. thk today’s clubbing trip was the most enjoyable n fun one I haf had tis yr.. and its definitely one of the most memorable clubbing trip.. cox duno when will we haf e chance to go club wif e same group of ppl again… apart from that, I am beginning to realize that clubbing is really bad to health n straining to the body lo.. tis days aft my clubbing trip, I will need a few days of rest to full recover..

We stayed until phuture closes & went to the e nearest prata shop to haf our ‘breakfast’.. am feeling damn hungry n tired aft standing on my heels for e whole nite.. we tok abt a lot of things over the session n I realized that those guys are still e same as ever.. they din change at all, still e same as they are in sec sch.. reminds me of the time when we were in sec sch.. really regret that last time I din really mix wif em n understand em more.. they are really nice n fun ppl to be wif..

yest was our supposedly 3rd yr anniversary if we din break up.. time really flies.. we haf broke up for more den a yr.. i can still rem how my heartache when tis day arrvied.. for tis yr, i dun even know tat it has arrived.. time is really the best healer in e world.. we never celeb our anniversary at all.. not even once.. cox during our 1st yr, he was in taiwan for training during the actual day.. as for e 2nd yr, we broke up b4 we could even celeb.....

went ECP wif billy, his cousin n e ODAD ppl... we went there for steamboat n skate.. its e 1st time in my life that i went to ECP wif my frenz.. tat place is really inaccessible for me.. skating was really fun, thk i will get addicted to it if i could skate longer.. actually my intention there was to lose some fats but in e end, thk i gain more den i lost.. haha.. been eating n eating non-stop.. wats more is we went for supper at the 'Tou Hua Da Wang".. there goes my diet plan n the 1 kg i haf lost during the wk..

Am waiting for my hair to dry now thus decide to write here.. went clubbing wif anna, billy & yaoquan ( billy’s cousin ) today.. we went there again because there was tis odac outing at phuture..

Went for macro classes den stayed back to discuss abt our IM tutorial presentation due next mon wif Jai.. by the time we finish the discussion, it was already 6 plus n I still need to go to billy’s place to prepare n went down orchard to meet Lawrence n Geraldine.. it was really rush.. in e end, I only met them for less den 1 hr.. we had dinner at the HK café at cine.. the food is not bad but I still prefer the KIM GARY one in m’sia..

went to shop ard wif him while waiting for anna.. quite long never go orchard le, it changed quite a lot.. only know today that the underground pass towards the MRT stn is having some renovation going on.. aft meeting anna, we went straight to zouk.. den went to the prata shop nearby cox the coffeeshop was damn crowded..

everything was quite fine n fun until I saw someone there.. I never expect to see him there thus when I saw him, there’s one pt I really duno wat I should do.. luckily it doesn’t last long b4 I know how I should react.. at least I am gracious enuff as to say hi to his frenz who was wif him.. I duno whether did he saw me but I thk he did according to anna… come to thk of it, if that thing din happen, we might still be frenz… well, its quite a pity that now we dun even say hi when we saw each other.. frankly speaking, I oso duno wat leads to the thing that had happened in e 1st place.. but dun thk now I wan to go n thk abt it since it had already happened n I am quite alrite n happy wif my life now.. no point brooding over it.. its jux that today I saw him den it makes me feel emotional in some way.. ( wanna clarify, this person whom I am toking abt is not HIM… )

I am sian of clubbing again.. thk wont be going for e next 2 wks until Halloween.. never go clubbing on a Halloween nite b4, wanna try out how its like.. feel like dressing up but duno wat to disguise.. haha.. thk I shall jux dress normally there..

We are finally tired of the sweatiness n stuffiness in e club n decide to go off n haf supper.. ate prata again.. actually I wan to haf porridge one but most of the ppl wan to eat prata.. so no choice lo… aft that, yaoquan is really kind as to send me n anna back although its not on e way for him to do that.. he is even swt enuff to send anna up n wait for me until I reach my place.. y cant there be more guys who are like him in tis world.. if all the guys are like him, I will not be having those msn nick that say “ guys are all jerks n bastards n jux how fucked up they can get ” anymore..

went clubbing wif anna, terence, waiteng, billy n jai yest.. we gt e invites again from anna's fren.. was supposed to meet jai at je n go down together one but he cant make it in e end.. thus i had to go down on my own n meet anna e others there instead..

the queue was damn long when we reached there n its only abt 1030.. once again we mux thx anna's fren for letting us in or else e invites will be of no use at all.. too bad jai was late n cant use e invites anymore.. jux like any other days, phuture was damn crowded n there was no space for us to stand at all in e dance floor.. i had to squeeze my way out to bring jai n billy's fren in when they reached at 12... aft that we had to squeeze in again.. haha..

billy came moments later n i was already quite seh at that time le.. thk i haven been drking for a long time le.. n i dun even dare to drk my fav. long island tea for fear of ending up in e washroom to puke.. e music yest wasnt really nice, it only gets beta aft 230.. i was damn pissed wif e ppl dancing behind me, kp on pushing until i cant take it n had to ask em to move back a little.. but the gals there are damn irritating, they purposely came over n dance as vigorously as they can for fear that ppl duno they are dancing..

we left the club at 330 n went to haf supper at e nearby prata shop.. i had been standing on my heels for more den 5 hrs n my legs n foot are killing me.. luckily, billy's fren drove yest n drive some of us there.. hehe... aft the supper, terence , anna n me went back home in a cab.. i reached home ard 5 n went to bed at 7 cox i was chatting wif billy on e phone...

woke up today n went straight for my tuition.. aft tat i met anna n went walking ard cwp cox we dun wan to spend e whole day at home but we are too lazy to go all e way to town.. we went to our fav. prata place aft that n slack there for 2 hrs.. the haze pro is getting from bad to worse lo.. i cant even see e lovely moon tonight n yest at all... when is all this haze pro going to end??

went out wif anna, terence n kevin tis afternoon.. made the 2 guys wait for me cox i gt carried away while doing my tutorial n forgot abt the time.. haha.. we went to the prata shop at pasir panjang while waiting for anna.. e moment our drks came, ms anna called n told us her test has ended le.. terence n me went to fetch her n got lost in NUS.. we ended up at the loading n unloading area behind central lib, which is at a hilltop.. realise NUS is damn big lo.. haha..

mr kevin waited for us for ard half an hour.. haha.. by the time we came back, our prata had become cold n the ice in our drks had all melted.. the weather today is damn hot n stuffy... aft eating we decide to go to holland V.. its my 3rd time there in a wk n the 2nd in a row.. went to the gelare to chill n had their waffle.. toking abt waffle, i still thk the A & W one is e best n their curly fries... yummy yummy.. dun understand y all the A & W closed down..

we stayed there until 6 n left.. went to Subway to get my sandwich.. i thk i am in love wif Subway tis days.. had the same cravings for it even though i jux had it yest.. haha.. terence send me n anna home b4 booking in.. e moment i reach home i jux lie on e bed n took a nap.. duno y feel so tired.. hee..

haiz.. time is really not enuff for me tis days.. esp wif all the tutorials n the IM module i am taking.. its really very time comsuming... y there is only 24 hrs a day???

has been going out for e past few days.. never really revise on my sch work which makes me quite guilty now...

wed :
went 2 bugis wif my mum to bai bai n the fortune telling thing.. bought a top for myself n a skirt for my sis which is damn retro.. haha.. gonna lend from her one day.. aft that i went to e lib to meet billy & his gf.. we went to the ktv at civics centre that nite together wif anna n guochao... aft the session, i met boon hao n went down to chinatown to haf porridge...

fri :
were supposed to study wif qing cheng n billy aft our lesson in e morning but in e end gt pyscho by ms anna to go to ktv wif em at chinatown... thus we went down to chinatown n study at e mac for an hr b4 e singing session start at 4.. ryan n roy joined us later in e nite.... aft the singing session, we went to haf porridge again cox i dun wan to haf a heavy dinner..

sat :
i am damn happy cox finally i can go to sentosa today.. been wanting to go there b4 my exam but never haf a chance until now.. u can know how excited i am lo... but it rained........ how suay can i get lo... terance n waiteng they all insist to go in but me n anna thk the rain wont stop n will persist the whole day so we decide to wait for them at harbourfront instead cox we know that they will turn back one.. haha..

in e end, they did.... haha... thus we met up @ harbourfont & decide to go to Holland V to chill cox at nite we will be celebrating Kevin's b'day @ mind games cafe.. we went to essential brew & chill at their 2nd level.. its my 1st time there & i finally it be to really cosy n cool.. their brownie is really heavenly.. oh, i am really into brownie tis days.. too bad my dad spoilt my microwave oven or else i will be baking brownies like mad & might haf become an expert already.. haha...

anna left ard 6 cox of some family stuff.. we wanted to haf e famous holland V XO fish noodles one but the boss is really damn rude to haf CHASE us away cox our order is small & he said he rather save the table for bigger order... we were like.... stumped...... but at least he din scold us vulgarity like wat he did to e customer b4 us.... so next time, if u really wan to go there n eat, dun go on WEEKEND... thus we went to haf katong laksa instead..

it was fun playing games wif em.. we stayed until 11 plus n decide to go home.. actually we wanted to haf a 2nd round one but quite a few ppl wan to go off to meet their love ones.. thus......... forget it.. going home n slp is not a bad thing after all.... :)

sth is stirring deep inside of me once again

e feeling is so familiar

but its not the same anymore...

things are jux different

there's no disappointment, anticipation nor commitment

in exchange for all that are memories & alot of qns that we know there will be no ans to it..

sometimes,

its because of the uncertainty that makes thing so beautiful..

mayb life muz haf some imperfection to make it more perfect...

went to color my hair wif gery at JE yest.. finally gt the time n company to go n color my hair wif me.. the whole thing took us 4 hrs n tat's excluding treatment... really haf no time for that cox i need to go n meet andy at JE stn to go down to holland v..

gery came wif us to celeb shu's b'day.. we went to eat the holland v XO fish head noodles.. its e 1st time i went there to eat.. its damn nice.. i muz bring my mum n dad to come n eat soon.. haha.. their prawn paste chicken oso very nice n cripsy.. aft our dinner, we went to haf ice cream at Gelare... so sinful cox i eat another brownie wif ice cream.. there goes my diet plan again... been gaining weight like duno wat.. thk within tis mth, i had already gain 4 kg.....

aft eating at Gelare n when shu came, we decide to go to wala wala n chill.. cox we wanted to countdown to shu's b'day.. at 1st we were sittin at e 1st floor toking n chilling.. but we gt bored ard 11 plus n decide to go up to e 2nd floor where there's a live band.. the singer was damn gd n cool.. iLOVE guys who can sing.. he is damn mesmerising.. haha.. we asked him to sing shu a b'day song at 12 n he did.... we end the nite n took a cab back aft the band sang their last song at 1230.....

will upload the photos soon... :)

i am damn suay recently... being scolded by a bastard who gif me a stupid excuse that his ex stole his hp n she was e one who threw me all those verbal insults at me.. den jux now went for tuition n on e way was hit by a soccer ball when i walked pass the bball court.. tis is not all, i jux realised that i cant charge my hp now & my phone is going flat DAMN SOON..... jux how suay can i get?????

went for shu's b'day celeb @ her place yest.. her theme for the party is uniform, which means i haf to dig out my JC uniform n wear it.. damn long din iron the uniform n see it le, really reminds me of the time i was in jc.. time really flies, it had been 3 yrs since i last wore that uniform.. luckily i am driving today or else i duno how am i going there lo.. i cant believe that the guys actually wear the uniform from their place to JP to get shu's present n den went to her house.. really salute em..


us in our JC uniform.. how i miss my JC days..


the b'day ger wif her parents n cake..

stayed there until 11 cox jackson wan to rush home n watch the soccer match.. felt really lazy to change out of the uniform thus, i wear it back home together wif em.. cant imagine wat the police will thk if they happen to see us during a roadblock.. haha..

yest was e most fucked up day of my life.. its all because of a stupid person or i should say a damn big FUCKER.. i haf never seen or met someone who is that bastard n jerk n fucked up in my entire life!!!! let's hope i wont be seeing one anymore at all in tis lifetime.. never ever felt so insulted in my life b4 but i thk its even more insulting for him cox he should feel embarrassed abt himself for wat he said to me... it only shows how ill-mannered he is n how bastard he is...

thk he should be taught a lesson la but in e end din even bother to do that.. felt that its jux a waste of my time only.. shall not waste my time n energy on this kinda of ppl..

went to jalan kayu for supper aft a very sian clubbing trip at zouk.. we only stayed for less den half an hr n went off le.. e music is jux not our type n e crowd even worse.. thk that will be my shortest clubbing trip ever.. had a bottle of beer n felt damn seh already.. thk u jux cant drk when u are feeling upset n down cox its really easy to haf e 'seh' effect...

aft supper we went to edward's place cox dun thk i can go home in my state.. was feeling damn emotional la.. did n say alot of stupid things.. even cried in front of em, its e 1st time i cried so openly in front of others, felt so weak n vulnerable.. the tears jux cant seem to stop falling.. but i was really glad they were wif me, felt so much beta aft all e crying n taking a nap.. hehe..

thk wat happened today was a wake up call for me.. its really time for me to get back on my studies n change my priority now... so wat happened might be a blessing in disguise oso..

feeling feverish now.. thk my immume system is really down recently.. kp falling sick n stuff.. 1st is my intestine pro den yest is sore throat now, fever.. when am i going to be healthy again....

today was my duet superstart prelim round at the atrium.. wake up at 9 to prepare cox i need to be in sch by 11.. gery was really nice to come specially from NUS aft her lect to come n support me.. i love u darling, u are damn swt la.. hehe.. den wilson, brandon came down to support us oso.. but really sorry to disappoint u guys cox we din get into e finals on fri due to some reasons that i thk is quite stupid la.. haiz..

aft the whole thing ended, i went down to bugis wif billy n gery cox we wan to go bai bai n the fortune telling thing.. but too bad the fortune teller was not there n the shop owner say she will only be back in 2 wks time..

aft that, i went to meet alvin, edward, meiyan n anna for ktv at civics centre.. was feeling damn cold inside the room la.. luckily alvin was nice enuff to lend me his jacket or else i will be freeze to death le.. duno isit because i am sick or wat, aft singing for less den 3 hrs, i am feeling damn lethargis n sian le.. cant wait to get out of that 'freezer' n go to haf my dinner.. alvin drive us to chong pang to haf the nasi lemak.. its my 1st time there den i dun thk its as nice as i tot it would be given the publicity it has... therefore, fame is actually nth in life... haha..

ok thk i beta go n haf some rest le.. still feeling unwell now n i am damn pissed off cox i still cant find the IM journal that my lecturer ask us to find at e online library la.. argh~~

was back from genting on sat but feeling too lazy to come here n update wat had happened.... its like there is so many things to write but i duno where should i start wif 1st.... so i thk i jux write wat i thk is impt ba...

it had been more den a yr since my dad last went on a vacation wif us.. the previous time he went to genting wif us was b4 teck went into NS, it was our 1st n last time we go abroad.. although our family had gone to genting for alot of times, tis time round the feelings are the best among all... we felt closer toether n there is more interaction.. my dad is more loving to my mum n he try to participate in wat we do as much as he can.. last time when we went, he will jux wan to stay in the hotel room n slack there thruout our whole trip there.. but tis time round, he will go ard the theme park wif us n sit at the cafe toking wif us, enjoying the mist.. we are more like a family now rather den seperate entity.. haha.. i really love tis feeling n the bond we are sharing..



having our meals @ genting..


the theme park moments.. we are having so much fun.. hehe..


on the ferris wheel in the indoor theme park.. its really very nice..


dun my bro look cool in tis pic?? some ppl even thk he is my BF....

woke up at 9 plus today cox needa go to sch for e duet superstar thingy.. at 1st i tot it was jux a rehearsal thing but when we reached there, den we realised that its actually an AUDITION.. billy & i din even practise at all b4 tis.. its all my fault cox i haf been really busy recently n dun haf e time to meet him n practise.. feel really sorry towards him..

aft one round of practise at the LT, we start the audition le.. the person-in-charge told us they will gif us a call if we get thru the audition.. really hope they will call us.. or else i will be damn guilty la.. haha... went to the odac room wif billy n his frenz.. i am now a odac member due to the duet superstar thing.. hehe..

met my mum at bugis cox we wan go bai bai there.. billy went down there wif me cox he was meeting his frenz there.. we went to shop ard at bugis but i din buy anything.. thk i shall haf my shopping spree at KL tis coming fri.. haha.. looking forward to it..

had our dinner @ Sizzlers, its one of the restaurant that me n my mum both love to go to... but thk the last time we both went together was during last yr national day.. hehe...

was out for e past few days.. finally the family pro was solved n a heavy stone was like lifted from my chest.. felt really relac n free but at some pt i am still quite angry wif myself.. gt my results on thur, all meet my expectations except for econs.. chatted wif alvin on e phone cox he was quite upset n sian abt his results.. in e end, i slp at 5 plus n woke up at 7 plus e next day cox e whole family is going out for dim sum..

although i am really tired, i still feel happy cox e whole family is ok now n we are having really gd appetite... aft the meal, dad drive us back home & went out for some business stuff le.. as for me, i helped to book our Genting trip online... thk we really need a vacation for e family..

i met anna at e stn n went down to chinatown to meet waiteng n weng for ktv.. we sing from 2 to 6pm.. everyone was really tired aft singing for 2 hrs.. esp me, i am like napping most of the time la.. den my throat wasnt feeling well too, thk its all because of e late nite slping thing.. took some video but decide to upload tis most funny one.. haha..

aft the ktv, we went straight to pasir ris cox waiteng's frenz is there waiting for her.. we reached the chalet at 7 plus n dabao mac there.. aft dinner, we started preparing for our nite at Zouk.. we went to clarence's chalet nearby aft amanda came to say hi to him.. din know the chalet was for his b'day one so i din buy him any present.. hehe.. we took a cab down aft staying there for a while..

anna's frenz gt tis invite thing for e nite so we did not pay for our cover.. hehe.. it was quite empty n boring inside e club as the time is still quite early.. so we walked out n went to look for edwin, who was there wif his frenz.. we started playing finger guessing game n waiteng gt quite high aft a few rounds.. haha.. anna had to take the drks away n stop her from drking anymore.. we head to e dance floor n dance.. it was really fun clubbing wif em, thk we haven club wif each other for more den a yr le.. edwin came over n join us aft that, helping us to get away from those 'lang'.. haha..

we went off at 3 cox edward n ian were here to fetch us back.. but because edward lost his wallet on his way down to find us, they had to go make a police report 1st.. so we walk down to haf bak ku teh at ms while waiting for em.. only reached the chalet at 430, u can imagine how tired i am already lo.. been up for almost 22 hrs, really can die ah.. but i still went over to clarence's chalet, only to find him seh once again.. so i chatted wif barnabas, junren n gin instead.. aft some time we felt really bored n started playing finger guessing n that's the most stupid thing i did la.. barn was really gd n i kept drking.. moments later, i am too seh to play n need to lie down le.. started toking crap n nonsense aft that.. damn pai seh.. in e end, i jux lie down n fall aslp at e porch.. it was only when the sky started becoming bright den we went into e chalet n slp...

we were awaken by the chalet staff cox it was way past the check out time n we are still there.. haha.. we packed up really quickly n went to the recept there to check out.. the 3 of em went to waiteng's chalet to rest for awhile b4 going back.. as for me, i am still having a little hangover.. so aft my brunch, i went upstairs n sontinue to slp until 4 plus.. haha..

the 4 of us kp on taking pictures while waiting for waiteng's fren to come.. den waiteng asked us to help her write n decorate her guestbook.. look at how serious we are...


dont u thk gals who are serious looks the prettiest..


the magic begins....


the b'day gal & us..


the LESBIAN frenz.. ( anna jux like kissing me tis days... )

aft the cake cutting session, i went home wif yang n qi.. din stay overnight cox i am quite worried abt my mum.. she jux hurt her ankle n hands 2 days back.. b4 going home, i still need to dabao for my little sis la.. she is always feeling hungry one lo.. haha..

am really on e verge of breaking down for e past few days.. esp tis morning, i really cant take it anymore n started crying... even haf the tot of leaving home or ending my life jux like that.. thking it might be e only way that the problem at home will be solved.. how i wish that today is fri, den i can go out n leave tis place..

i hate being the middleperson in tis matter.. i know tis all happened because of me, i am the start of everything..... thus, it might be gd that i end it since i started it... things nearly gt worse jux now... at that pt, i really feel like taking my stuff n leave my home for gd... not telling em where i am going for e next few days, hoping that it will make em get together n forget abt tis matter.....

finally they had a gd tok... toking calmly n peacefully wif one another.. i realised that how bad i am n how childish i haf been.. i am really not a gd daughter.. my parents are really concern abt me n they care alot for me.. esp my mum, she had been giving all her love to me but i really disappointed her completely tis time round.... felt really useless n guilty.. how bad can i get?? i am a failure, a complete failure.... i nearly caused the family that my parents having been building for e past 20 yrs apart wif my own hand..... i felt really really bad now....... i haf been so selfish, not understanding their intention n even misread wat they are doing to me.... thk i muz be really blind....

even though now everything is ok now, i still feel.................. i duno wat to say.. i cant forgive myself... i cant believe the stupid things i did nearly caused our family to break up.. the family where my dad n mum have put in alot of effort to build n kp em together.. i cant believe i nearly break it... wat kind of daughter am i?? i am really really sorry towards em n my siblings.. i am not a gd daughter n sis.. i din show em any concern n love.. i never really contribute anything to the family.. thk they might be beta off w/o me.....

when i 1st heard tis song, i find it really nice so i went to look for e lyrics..... aft looking thru it, the memories of HIM came back.... tot of HIM & the times we had together... its e same old feelings.. dun wan to elaborate anymore.... shall let the song tells everything...

that's the link for the lyrics...
http://mp3.baidu.com/m?tn=baidump3lyric&ct=150994944&lm=-1&f=1&word=%C0%EB%C8%CB%BD%DA

was awaken by my mum regarding wat she wans me to tell my dad on her behalf.. i am like sandwiched in b/w em.. trying to convey messenges that they wan to tell each other n trying to phrase it in a much nicer way, omitting the parts that will cause greater disagreement n leading to bigger quarrel..

i really need a break from all tis.. thus i met up wif geraldine in town to get a breather n get away from home.. at least the few hrs away from home makes me feel less stress up n more relac, it helps in preparing me abt the tok i am going to haf wif my dad.. eat the chocolatey brownies today cox when i am upset or stressed, only chocolate will make me feel beta.. and that brownies n amount of chocolate it contains is jux wat i need n muz haf today.. but as u guys know, i am trying to lose weight so that fattening n high calories brownies wif ice cream jux spoilt everything....

another way for me to de-stress is shop.. but i am really broke now cox my pay is STILL NOT here yet.. thus i jux gt myself a naval stud.. really look forward to the day when i can change my studs but that will be in another 2 mths time.. haha.. thk shall go n ask e piercer how's the progress of my wound, if it allows, i really feel like changing it now...

told my dad wat my mum wans to tell him.. he is actually quite vex over his work stuff le.. thk wat i told him makes him more vex now.. that is y i find it hard to tell him abt my mum's stuff, which i know will add on to his problem.. but if i dun tell him, my mum will be unhappy abt it & her tots will not be known by my dad.. well, that's my dilemma... i really wan him to go n coax my mum but he din.. really duno wat he is thking now.. as for my mum, i thk she muz be feeling damn sad cox aft knowing all the things le, my dad still din say anything or coax her lo.... really duno how guys thk n wat are their MIND made of lo.............

tried to upload my tots jux now but sth happened n i cant retrieve the writings back..

jux wanna sy that i am really vexed wif my family stuff now.. i am alomost emotionally drained out.. i duno how long tis will last but i know that i cant last anymore longer now.. i am going to collapse soon.. i am feeling damn suffocated now.. i wanna leave the house n be alone to sort out my tots n everything.. but i jux cant do that.. there is too much things to consider n take care of....

i am getting fatter n fatter.. had been eating prata n drinking teh tarik almost everyday for a wk.. thk that is e culprit for my weight gain thingy.. thk i should stop eating prata n eat sth more healthy n less heaty..

went to a frenz place 2 swim & tan tis afternoon.. finally my skin color turn a little darker today.. at least now i look more healthier n sporty rather den yellowish.. aft the tanning session, we meet anna at e prata place for my dinner.. i am really in love wif e cheese n egg prata.. even now, i am craving for it..

feel like going for a run tml morn although i thk it wont help much in my weight losing prog.. haha.. in fact it might be one of e cause for it cox i heard aft exercising, u will take eat more n feel hungry more easily..

my mum came back today.. feel more relieved aft seein her n stuff.. was damn worried that sth might happened to her for e past few days.. she is still not in a really gd mood but as compared to last wk, thk its erally much more better le.. hope n pray everything will turn out fine by e end of tis wk.. :)

woke up @ 930 today cox gonna help Guochao out wif his cooking comp thingy.. haha.. met anna n went down wif her n meet em at Khatib stn.. we are going to his frenz place for e comp, its a frenly thing so at least we wont feel so stressed.. hehe.. it had been 3 mths since i last saw him.. he looked quite diff, thk its because of his hair style.. all his frenz are really frenly towards me n anna n we had alot of fun.. among all e team, thk we are the slackest.. kp on sitting down n chit chatting while others are busy preparing in the kitchen..


preparation time..

e whole preparation thing ends at 2 n the judge started the food tasting session.. as compared to other teams, our food looks e weirdest.. if i am e judge, it will take alot of courage for me to taste it.. thus it never crossed my mine that we will win but we WON....


me & anna wif our invention & prize..

ard 3 plus, boon hao came over n fetch us to seletar to meet his frenz.. they are going there to fish.. the weather was really humid n hot today.. a gd day for tanning but i am NOT in my bikini.... in e end, me n anna surrender to e weather n decide to go to my fav prata shop nearby n sit down for a chat.. boon hao readily lend me his car, not fearing that a rookie like me in driving will ram his car.. haha..

eat again at e prata place.... realise i jux cant sit down to drk n tok, i muz haf food.. from tml onwards, i run more n swim more to burn the extra fats that i haf gained.. sit there until 6 plus n we went back for em.. managed to catch e sunsetting.. it was beautiful, reminds me of e time my whole family went to the kelong at indonesia 2 yrs back..


us wif boon hao's new fishing rod..


the beautiful sunset & us..

its dinnertime n we are going to CHOMP CHOMP... i had been craving for the chicken wings, oyster egg, satay & sting ray there for more den a mth..... finally someone is kind enuff to acc me there to eat.. haha.. its so MAN ZU lo.. dabao the dou hua back for my sis n bro cox they haf eaten their dinner wif my dad.....


its all the food i love.... yum yum...

its e JJC Talentime 2006 video that i wanna upload like 3 mths back.. haha.. only learn how to upload now.. really sorry cox the video is seperated into 5 parts.. hope all can be played.. :)

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4

the last part.. haha...

was sick yest.. having a flu suddenly den its feeling damn terrible la.. hate e feeling of being sick, esp when it is a flu.... took e medicine but din slp early cox was on e phone wif billy discussing abt the songs that we are going to sing for one of the sch competition....

luckily the flu gt beta tis morning.. or else dun thk i can go to bai bai at bugis lo.. alot of things happened at home recently, so want to go bai bai, sort of Qiu Ge Xin An la.. den i oso wanna go there to get my black skirt for work next wk @ expo.. met alvin at wlds 1st n go down together.. he is meeting his gf later in e afternoon in town so meanwhile, he jux acc me 1st.. haha.. that's consider really nice of him to acc me....

aft he left, i shop alone at bugis while waiting for geraldine n her bf to come to town.. it had been more den a wk since i last saw her.. really miss her dearly.. we went ard shopping at taka cox still need to wait for lawrence to come.. in e end, he told us to go to e ktv 1st cox he is still doing the submission at the office.. anna came to join us aft her work & we sing until 8..


the 3 gals inside the ktv room..

we slack for a while n head for home cox i told my dad that i will be home by 930.. so i mux make sure i am home by den cox i wan to build up their trust once again... in e end, i haf to dabao home cox i dun even haf e time to haf dinner wif em.. so sorry guys...

as for me n my mum.. at least i gt to see her face n say 'bye mummy' when she is going out today.. that's e only 2 word i say to her in 4 days.. haiz.. hope this will get beta by the day...