yes i am really confused now.. because someone came into my life n touched my heart.. i never tot that will ever happen to me again ever since i broke up wif Teck.. aft i broke up wif him, i had been going thru a super bad times lo.. i dun believe in r/s, in guys.. i jux thk tat they are all jerks n bastards who is here to hurt gals.. n i jux wan to play ard w/o getting into a serious r/s..
but rite now, i am not sure whether i am still thinking e same way anymore ma.. i can jux say he really wavered me alot lo.. n its scary coz i only know him for 4 wks?? its really amazing lo.. wat is happening to me?? wat he did yest really surprised me n makes me realise how serious he is lo.. all along, i had been thking its all a joke n stuff n jux take thing as it comes lo.. but yest.. well, i feel touched.. n i beginning to take things seriously le..
he makes me thk of reverting back to e 'weiting' in e past.. e one who is believes in love n giving in.. but on e other hand, i am really scared of getting hurt once more lo.. i really cant take another blow or watever again liao lo.. can u all understand how i feel? argh~~ n he is really quite a nice guy lo.. i am so scare of hurting him oso.. coz i know i wont be as nice to him like how i treat Teck in e past lo.. contraditing ritE? i thk so too lo.. or else i wont be so so confused now.. AH~~~~~~
finally i decide to test water n take a 1st step forward today by trying to do sth nice, but b4 i can do that it buang.. haiz.. really demoralised me alot alot lo.. ha.. makes me feel that whether i try doing or jux heck care, e results will still be e same.. haiz.. mayb it really need time la..
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