am really on e verge of breaking down for e past few days.. esp tis morning, i really cant take it anymore n started crying... even haf the tot of leaving home or ending my life jux like that.. thking it might be e only way that the problem at home will be solved.. how i wish that today is fri, den i can go out n leave tis place..

i hate being the middleperson in tis matter.. i know tis all happened because of me, i am the start of everything..... thus, it might be gd that i end it since i started it... things nearly gt worse jux now... at that pt, i really feel like taking my stuff n leave my home for gd... not telling em where i am going for e next few days, hoping that it will make em get together n forget abt tis matter.....

finally they had a gd tok... toking calmly n peacefully wif one another.. i realised that how bad i am n how childish i haf been.. i am really not a gd daughter.. my parents are really concern abt me n they care alot for me.. esp my mum, she had been giving all her love to me but i really disappointed her completely tis time round.... felt really useless n guilty.. how bad can i get?? i am a failure, a complete failure.... i nearly caused the family that my parents having been building for e past 20 yrs apart wif my own hand..... i felt really really bad now....... i haf been so selfish, not understanding their intention n even misread wat they are doing to me.... thk i muz be really blind....

even though now everything is ok now, i still feel.................. i duno wat to say.. i cant forgive myself... i cant believe the stupid things i did nearly caused our family to break up.. the family where my dad n mum have put in alot of effort to build n kp em together.. i cant believe i nearly break it... wat kind of daughter am i?? i am really really sorry towards em n my siblings.. i am not a gd daughter n sis.. i din show em any concern n love.. i never really contribute anything to the family.. thk they might be beta off w/o me.....

when i 1st heard tis song, i find it really nice so i went to look for e lyrics..... aft looking thru it, the memories of HIM came back.... tot of HIM & the times we had together... its e same old feelings.. dun wan to elaborate anymore.... shall let the song tells everything...

that's the link for the lyrics...
http://mp3.baidu.com/m?tn=baidump3lyric&ct=150994944&lm=-1&f=1&word=%C0%EB%C8%CB%BD%DA

was awaken by my mum regarding wat she wans me to tell my dad on her behalf.. i am like sandwiched in b/w em.. trying to convey messenges that they wan to tell each other n trying to phrase it in a much nicer way, omitting the parts that will cause greater disagreement n leading to bigger quarrel..

i really need a break from all tis.. thus i met up wif geraldine in town to get a breather n get away from home.. at least the few hrs away from home makes me feel less stress up n more relac, it helps in preparing me abt the tok i am going to haf wif my dad.. eat the chocolatey brownies today cox when i am upset or stressed, only chocolate will make me feel beta.. and that brownies n amount of chocolate it contains is jux wat i need n muz haf today.. but as u guys know, i am trying to lose weight so that fattening n high calories brownies wif ice cream jux spoilt everything....

another way for me to de-stress is shop.. but i am really broke now cox my pay is STILL NOT here yet.. thus i jux gt myself a naval stud.. really look forward to the day when i can change my studs but that will be in another 2 mths time.. haha.. thk shall go n ask e piercer how's the progress of my wound, if it allows, i really feel like changing it now...

told my dad wat my mum wans to tell him.. he is actually quite vex over his work stuff le.. thk wat i told him makes him more vex now.. that is y i find it hard to tell him abt my mum's stuff, which i know will add on to his problem.. but if i dun tell him, my mum will be unhappy abt it & her tots will not be known by my dad.. well, that's my dilemma... i really wan him to go n coax my mum but he din.. really duno wat he is thking now.. as for my mum, i thk she muz be feeling damn sad cox aft knowing all the things le, my dad still din say anything or coax her lo.... really duno how guys thk n wat are their MIND made of lo.............

tried to upload my tots jux now but sth happened n i cant retrieve the writings back..

jux wanna sy that i am really vexed wif my family stuff now.. i am alomost emotionally drained out.. i duno how long tis will last but i know that i cant last anymore longer now.. i am going to collapse soon.. i am feeling damn suffocated now.. i wanna leave the house n be alone to sort out my tots n everything.. but i jux cant do that.. there is too much things to consider n take care of....

i am getting fatter n fatter.. had been eating prata n drinking teh tarik almost everyday for a wk.. thk that is e culprit for my weight gain thingy.. thk i should stop eating prata n eat sth more healthy n less heaty..

went to a frenz place 2 swim & tan tis afternoon.. finally my skin color turn a little darker today.. at least now i look more healthier n sporty rather den yellowish.. aft the tanning session, we meet anna at e prata place for my dinner.. i am really in love wif e cheese n egg prata.. even now, i am craving for it..

feel like going for a run tml morn although i thk it wont help much in my weight losing prog.. haha.. in fact it might be one of e cause for it cox i heard aft exercising, u will take eat more n feel hungry more easily..

my mum came back today.. feel more relieved aft seein her n stuff.. was damn worried that sth might happened to her for e past few days.. she is still not in a really gd mood but as compared to last wk, thk its erally much more better le.. hope n pray everything will turn out fine by e end of tis wk.. :)

woke up @ 930 today cox gonna help Guochao out wif his cooking comp thingy.. haha.. met anna n went down wif her n meet em at Khatib stn.. we are going to his frenz place for e comp, its a frenly thing so at least we wont feel so stressed.. hehe.. it had been 3 mths since i last saw him.. he looked quite diff, thk its because of his hair style.. all his frenz are really frenly towards me n anna n we had alot of fun.. among all e team, thk we are the slackest.. kp on sitting down n chit chatting while others are busy preparing in the kitchen..


preparation time..

e whole preparation thing ends at 2 n the judge started the food tasting session.. as compared to other teams, our food looks e weirdest.. if i am e judge, it will take alot of courage for me to taste it.. thus it never crossed my mine that we will win but we WON....


me & anna wif our invention & prize..

ard 3 plus, boon hao came over n fetch us to seletar to meet his frenz.. they are going there to fish.. the weather was really humid n hot today.. a gd day for tanning but i am NOT in my bikini.... in e end, me n anna surrender to e weather n decide to go to my fav prata shop nearby n sit down for a chat.. boon hao readily lend me his car, not fearing that a rookie like me in driving will ram his car.. haha..

eat again at e prata place.... realise i jux cant sit down to drk n tok, i muz haf food.. from tml onwards, i run more n swim more to burn the extra fats that i haf gained.. sit there until 6 plus n we went back for em.. managed to catch e sunsetting.. it was beautiful, reminds me of e time my whole family went to the kelong at indonesia 2 yrs back..


us wif boon hao's new fishing rod..


the beautiful sunset & us..

its dinnertime n we are going to CHOMP CHOMP... i had been craving for the chicken wings, oyster egg, satay & sting ray there for more den a mth..... finally someone is kind enuff to acc me there to eat.. haha.. its so MAN ZU lo.. dabao the dou hua back for my sis n bro cox they haf eaten their dinner wif my dad.....


its all the food i love.... yum yum...

its e JJC Talentime 2006 video that i wanna upload like 3 mths back.. haha.. only learn how to upload now.. really sorry cox the video is seperated into 5 parts.. hope all can be played.. :)

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4

the last part.. haha...

was sick yest.. having a flu suddenly den its feeling damn terrible la.. hate e feeling of being sick, esp when it is a flu.... took e medicine but din slp early cox was on e phone wif billy discussing abt the songs that we are going to sing for one of the sch competition....

luckily the flu gt beta tis morning.. or else dun thk i can go to bai bai at bugis lo.. alot of things happened at home recently, so want to go bai bai, sort of Qiu Ge Xin An la.. den i oso wanna go there to get my black skirt for work next wk @ expo.. met alvin at wlds 1st n go down together.. he is meeting his gf later in e afternoon in town so meanwhile, he jux acc me 1st.. haha.. that's consider really nice of him to acc me....

aft he left, i shop alone at bugis while waiting for geraldine n her bf to come to town.. it had been more den a wk since i last saw her.. really miss her dearly.. we went ard shopping at taka cox still need to wait for lawrence to come.. in e end, he told us to go to e ktv 1st cox he is still doing the submission at the office.. anna came to join us aft her work & we sing until 8..


the 3 gals inside the ktv room..

we slack for a while n head for home cox i told my dad that i will be home by 930.. so i mux make sure i am home by den cox i wan to build up their trust once again... in e end, i haf to dabao home cox i dun even haf e time to haf dinner wif em.. so sorry guys...

as for me n my mum.. at least i gt to see her face n say 'bye mummy' when she is going out today.. that's e only 2 word i say to her in 4 days.. haiz.. hope this will get beta by the day...

jus like yest, e moment i wake up the house is empty.. my mum has gone out again.. duno tis thing gonna last till how long.. i really wanna see her n apologise to her but i dun haf a chance at all.... thk she really dun wan to tok to me or let me haf a chance to tok to her cox when i came home from e movie wif anna n her frenz, she locked her door e moment she knows i reached home... things are really getting out of hand tis time round.. thk tml i shall wake up early in e morning to really apologise...

went out wif anna again.. she came wif boon hao n fetch me to eat e prata @ thomson.. i love the cripsy prata there.. its my favourtite.. but aft today, thk i wont be touching prata anymore for e rest of e wk.. a bit sick of it already...

watched the movie 'click' wif anna n her frenz at cwp.. the show is really nice n makes me realise that family is really the most impt part of our life.. tis is esp meaningful to me at tis moment of time when i am having tis really bad time wif my mum n dad.. well, at the moment, my mum especially.. i really dun wan to be like adam sandler at the 1st part of his life in e show, neglecting my family cox of work n other things.. but i know, it will be really hard cox u will jux do it w/o u even realising..... why human muz kp on making the same mistake?? when can they really learn from their experience n stop making those stupid mistake again n again....

when i woke up, i was already alone at home... the upset feeling is still lingering in the house.. esp when my dad came back at 1 plus, it became worse.. he was still harping on e incident yest...

i really duno understand him la.. he was the one who kp on nagging n complaining to my mum abt me returning late.. thus my mum will start telling me n controling me abt my late return.. den now he still scold my mum abt making too much noise abt me n stuff... jux wat the hell is he thking... he is e start of everything n now he is like...... duno wat la..

i am really used to all the scoldings by my dad.. last time when he scold me those things i will still feel upset n even cry.. now i am like its nth anymore....

towards my mum i am really sorry towards her cox she needs to take all the shit wif me.. i am like dragging her down n stuff.. she was out the whole day n when she came back home she jux went into e room.. din tok to her at all.. thk she is still angry abt the whole incident...

went out wif anna for prata b4 my tuition session starts.. i really need to get out of e house n get some fresh air.. now, i really treasure my time out tutoring my kid.. cox its e only time i can get out of e house officially w/o getting any scolding n calls from em.. how pathetic it is rite....

i am feeling really suffocated.. i need my breathing space.. why cant u guys understand & kp on pushing ur limits?????

i cant find anymore excuses for u guys saying that wat u are doing n saying to me is because u guys care for me n worry abt me... i cant find anymore excuses convincing myself that how u guys are treating me now is because of e recent chain of events.. i dun mind being that person tat u guys vent ur frustration at once in a while but not ALL THE TIME... get a life & GET OFF MY BACK~~~~

i haf been staying at home as much as possible n rotting for like duno wat.. it has been 2 wks & i am like behaving e ways u guys wan me to behave but wat did i get for exchange n return..... setting of curfew by u, checking n calling up on me b4 the curfew time 2 make sure i reach home by den... i am constantly walking on e rope, fearing that if i go out i might annoy or anger u guys.... thus i try not to go out unless its necessary.. but all tis only makes u all wan for more n ask for more..

i try not to argue or say anything when u guys scold me or nag at me.. even when my dad started saying those really nasty things out, i try to control my anger by not saying anything defensive of myself.. but that doesnt mean that i haf no feelings or stand n i am in the WRONG~~ i am beginning to thk that by keeping quiet does not make things beta.. instead it only makes them thk they are always rite.. i haf had enough....... tis is really too much n they are really overboard...... when can they stop pushing me n leave me alone... i need my breathing space n freedom... i am a human oso.. i haf my life n stop pushing my limit.....

wats the KEY for if it does not open the door to freedom & democracy?? i hate my FUCK UP life now~~~

jux came back from a chilling out session wif anna @ the prata place again.. been feeling really bored at home so went out wif her to bitch.. haha... was toking abt wat happen inside the club n abt her frenz.. it was really funny.. den she told me

was supposed to go to my aunt's funeral wake today one but my mum asked me to stay at home 2 look aft my sis n bro instead.. she is not home yet, duno whether she is ok or not.. but i dun thk its gd to call her up at tis moment, beta let her haf some moments wif my relatives... hope she is coping wif it well....

haiz.. realise i muz really move my ass n go out to meet my frenz.. they haf been asking me out for dinner n stuff but i am too lazy to go to town specially n stuff... duno wat i am thking.. been complaining that i am rotting at home but when ppl asked me to go out, i simply become too lazy to meet em... mayb they ask me out at e wrong timing ba.. been tutoring my kids almost everyday recently cox they are going to haf their exam next wk.. erm, thk mayb aft their exam, i will be more free n available....

wondering whether can i start doing sit-up & go swimming wif my studs now.. shall call up the piercer or gery to ask her abt that soon.. muz really tone up myself.. my hols is ending soon but i haven been doing anything healthy..

aft a few days of staying at home & being a gd gal, i am finally going out at nite to do my fav thing.. CLUB~~~ haha.. but tis time round, my mum made it really clear to me that it will be my last clubbing trip tis mth.. or even worse my last one b4 my sch starts... as a parent i can understand y they dun like me to stay out so late @ nite esp when i am a gal.. but as a 21 yr old adult, i feel that i should be able to do things i feel like to.. wat's the 'key' they gif me for if it does not open the door to freedom??

i meet anna @ 8 n go down to meet Sembawang to acc lawrence for dinner.. actually wanna meet gery in town one but he has to go for his cousin funeral wake in wlds.. we stayed there until 10 n left for zouk.. on e way there, i told anna that i was not feeling gd inside at all.. there is tis feelings which i cant describe but its definitely not sth gd.. felt like getting drunk n stuff... thk both of us is feeling e same way but its for diff reasons..

we waited outside zouk for terence & thian hock to come b4 going in.. met clarence inside zouk & i thk he was already high b4 i reached there.. his fren say they haf been drking since 3 n he is in that state from den on.. luckily he is jux high n not drunk like the other time..

aft getting our drk, we went to phuture n started playing finger guessing & my fav "hai-dai-quan".. its a damn funny n stupid game but it was really fun.. the others kp on losing n drk alot... thk i am freaking lucky or i am jux gd at it.. haha.. finally the music gets beta n wif e alcohol playing a part too, i drag em into e dance floor n dance.. anna's fren are really fine n nice to be wif.. thk she enjoyed herself alot cox she was surrounded by all his guy fren there.. haha.. ( she will kill me when she sees this.. )

aft drking the vodka n mixing alot of other drks, i am really quite seh n did alot of stupid things la.. anna la, kp asking me go 'tease' his frenz ( to dance wif em ).. sorry guys, i dun behave like that normally one.. haha.. hope they wont get scared by me.. we went back @ 315 cox i need to be back at 4 as usual.. we saw clarence's fren outside the club, drunk.. so he drive his car n send me n anna back home 1st b4 bringing his fren to his place..

had alot of fun tonight wif anna.. been a long time since i really club wif her.. we muz come out more often to club babe.. haha..

received the call from my last aunt @ 1 am telling us that my auntie had passes away.. was tossing n turning in bed, thking of how life can be so fragile n how it can end so abruptly w/o any warning.. haiz... when a person pass away, everything will be taken away wif him/her.. having so much mixed feelings inside of me now.....

i know that my mum muz be feeling really upset to lose a sister suddenly.. yet i still.... haiz.. really wanna apologise to her.. will find a chance to do that tml morning.. din went to her to the funeral wake today.. stayed at home n tutor my little sis cox she will be having her test next wk.. went to the old interchange for dinner wif daddy & e others... he was in a gd mood today, wanted to tell him that i am gonna stay out late tml one.. haiz.. shall see how 1st... i really need to de-stress a little..

received a call from Mummy when i was shopping @ Ikea wif geraldine & lawrence.. she told me tat one of my aunt was in hospital n she cant make it already cox her brain is dead.... i was like stun..... tat aunt is not really close to us cox she was given to another family when she was young... but she is really a very nice & cheerful person whom i really like alot.....

i took a cab down to SGH moments aft hanging up, leaving lawrence & geraldine @ Ikea.. waited for my mum @ the lobby of the block b4 going up.. most of her family members were there & one of em bring us into the the neurosci ICU where my aunt is.... she is already lying there unconsious, she still look very pretty n normal.. the chemotheraphy din make her look sickly or anything.. she jux look as if she is slping...... and tis time round, it will be a very long slp for her..... why her family members only contact us when she is like that....... they should haf contacted us earlier...... argh~~~

in another half an hour time, they will be removing the tube n machine that is keeping her going... which means in another half an hours' time, i will lose tis aunt forever.... life is so fragile... we jux heard abt her contracting cancer a few mths back & now she is leaving the world... its so scary, isnt it??

its another boring day at home.. though boring but i kinda of love it cox i can slp until really late w/o any worries n i thk i will miss tis kinda of feelings when sch started for me.. haha..

been thking of going for a tan soon.. my color now look neither fair nor tan, feeling so yellowish now.. well, mayb i will go jux go down to my tuition kid's condo & get a tan by the poolside b4 my tuition.. haha..

i muz really find sth to do it home b4 i go bonkers.. too bad my microwave oven is spoilt or else i can do my fav. baking n stuff wif it.. realised that i haven been cooking n experimenting for a long long time.. i still rem last time i will kp on trying out those new recipe n make my family members taste it.. i wan to try making brownies one but now......... argh~~~ anyone can lend me his/her oven???

most of my frenz started sch today & i am like still slacking n wasting my precious hols away.. jux wat am i doing now... aft this wk of 'grounding', i am going to enjoy my hols to the fullest b4 it ends w/o me even noticing...

went for anna's b'day thingy yest.. met boon hao @ City Hall stn & went to collect his car @ his workplace cox we are going to esplanade to watch e fireworks... it was only 6pm & esplanade is already filled wif alot of ppl waiting for e fireworks..

we went to the hawker next to DXO to haf a light dinner cox we will be eating wif anna later when she reached... boon hao is really nice to queue n buy the food while i jux sit there doing nth.. thx hunk.. haha.. had oyster egg & hokkien prawn mee... later on, i go on & haf another ice cream.... so "man zu"...

anna & waiteng finally reached @ 8.. while waiting for em, i gt so bored n started to do my usual routine..... taking pics of myself.. haha.... but tis time round i gt 3 diff image k??


so which one is nice???


the b'day gal, boon hao, waiteng & me...

we make our way to somewhere we can get a beta view of the fireworks.. but everywhere is full of ppl.. we walked until we cant move on anymore n jux stay put there.. it was really warm n stuffy & i am like wearing tis long sleeve top.. argh~~ but i thk all tis "sufferings" are worth it cox the fireworks is really beautiful though they are not the nicest i haf seen & they dun haf the "heart" shape one that i am dying to see.. haha..

the way to the carpark to retrieve boon hao's car aft the firework is really chaotic & scary.. we felt like we are inside phuture on a wed nite.. muz hold onto each other & squeeze our way thru the crowd...... aft we got into car, we still haf to go thru the massive jam on our way to orchard.. the normal 10 min journey turn out to be a 40 min one.. it was damn straining n tiring la..

we met hean hong, chee loong & weng @ centrepoint b4 going up 2 the partyworld @ cuppage.. we gt tis really big room where it can accomodate 25 ppl.. its e 1st time i sing wif a wireless mic @ partyworld.. its pretty cool but the sound quality is not as gd as the normal one.. we countdown to anna's b'day inside the room..


the b'day ger & her cake..


that's wat everyone go thru on their b'day...


the b'day ger & some of her frenz..

i din stay for e whole thing cox i need to be at home by 4.. thus i left ard 1am to meet clarence who was going back home wif barnabas on a cab.. they came n fetch me at cuppage.. we sent barnabas home 1st den went on to haf supper in wlds.... i am e only one eating in e end cox he had a very heavy dinner @ his frenz place jux now....

aft much persuasion & showing alot of sincerity, i finally get the green light from my dad to go to Ms anna's b'day party tml.. haha.. no la, i jux asked my dad when he is in a gd mood today & he said ok.. if not, i dun thk i can ever go....

i thk i really need to get out of my house or else i will jux kp on gaining weight.. haf been eating none stop n i thk i had gained more den a kg over e past 3 days?? that's really terrible la.. if tis goes one, i will gain 2 kg or more per wk.. at tis rate, i will become...............

i thk i really need a break n leave the country, been feeling quite suffocated recently... jux wan to leave the concrete jungle n go to some beach or nature environment to relax n recharge myself.. i wan to lie on e beach n slack all afternoon, enjoying the sun n breeze.. dive in the clear blue sea n admiring all e coral n fishes... i jux wan to do sth diff from wat i am doing NOW.... i am so sick of my life now.. argh.. even sick of shopping lo......

was sorting & deleting past msgs from my inbox jux now.. saw those msgs that i kept from HIM b4 we broke up & aft we broke up.. e feelings all came back n haunt me once again.. i can still rem the feelings of disappointment so vividly.. even aft breaking up wif HIM for more den a yr, tis feelings has never fade n disappear at all...

why muz i go thru tis again n again whenever i sort my inbox?? well.... who ask me to be that sentimental?? haha.. i jux cant bear to delete away all the msgs HE sent me all together..... cox once deleted, i will never ever read em again & i am afraid that as time passes by, i will forget abt everything totally...... its so weird rite?? i jux dun wan to forget abt everything, i still wan to kp sth to remind me tat we once shared sth really special together.. really duno wat i am thking la........

its my 3rd consecutive days of staying at home n rot.. thk by the end of tis week, where i am able to go out, my frenz will only see a skeleton of me.....

woke up @ 6 plus jux to send my bro to sch.. by the time i come back, its already 7 le n it took me another half an hour of tossing n turning b4 i can get back ot slp again.. i am such a gd sis rite.. haha..

kp watching tv & eating today.. there's ice cream, durian, my normal meals, crackers n alot more la.. den now, i am craving for cheese prata, ice cream prata & cup noodles.. thk all e staying in thing has made me become a glutton le.. cox apart from eating i really cant find anything to do...... who can save me from tis.....

was watching the 'full house mtv' jux now.. reminds me of how i used to like the serial last yr... but its such a pity cox i always missed some parts of it cox i am always out on sat nite... haiz.. really wonder when can i find someone like Rain who is so swt n nice lo..thk he is the Prince Charming of every gal in that show lo.. haha..

went for guo's b'day party @ costa sand pasir ris.... i met andy @ cwp 1st n took a bus down to tampines to meet ah shu & ah li.. we were late cox andy went to buy his "Bo Luo Bao" from fei cui while i need to withdraw money & the queue is freaking long.. haha..

it started to rain when we reached costa sand.. we had to take shelter @ guo's neighbour unit.. i thk the couple in there muz haf hated us cox we were damn noisy outside their porch.. haha.. that's how we will behave when we get together, becoming very noisy n funny.. tis time round we took alot of stupid photos again.. tis is all because of my "lover" ( andy ) who had alot of stupid idea la..


from top left to bottom right.. our version of the "Xi, Nu, Ai, Le" expression..


our MS ah shu acting cute once again..


ok.. that's the kind of funny things we will do..


our snapshots..

we stayed until 10 n went off le.. cox tis few days i cant stay out till late.. muz be like Cinderella, or mayb even worse.. haiz.. been slacking n rotting the whole day at home today.. actually the feelings of rotting at home is not bad aft all.. haha.. beta den spending my whole day in e lib studying lo....

argh~~ i am dying to go n see e firework @ esplanade tis yr lo.. they gt the heart shape firework tis yr, its so so cool la.. hope my dad will let me go out on wed on the account of seeing me staying at home & behave myself for e next few days.. hehe..

as usual, i jux woke up less den half an hour ago.. was out from 11am to 5 am e next morning lo.. thk i muz n should stop myself from going out till so late for e next few days cox my parents had been making a lot of noises abt it.. esp my dad.. haiz.... but i know that they are worried abt me la.. so i will try my best to be at home b4 8pm tml onwards cox tonight i still haf to go to Guo's b'day chalet.. hehe..

went out wif my mum in e morning to go for Dim Sum Bufffet @ mirama hotel.. i had been really busy wif my own stuff recently n reaslied that i had been neglecting my mum & family.. felt really bad abt it lo.. thk i mux really do sth to make up to em..

aft that we went to Chinatown & shop for her knitting stuff again.. aft the shopping we went ard looking @ rings.. recently i had been wanting to get a ring to reward myself.. found one really nice one at SK but den i din buy it.. well, tis is because of a personal reason n belief of mine.. haha..

aft acc my mum until 5 plus, i went to meet Dan for dinner @ orchard.. its jux a very short meeting thing cox he still need to go back to work aft dinner.. stayed in orchard until 6 plus den i went to meet lawrence & uncle jeff @ marina square.. actually i tot of meeting HIM one cox he told me he is working @ one of e shop there when we chatted e other nite.. so i msg HIM n was told he will only be starting work today...

took tis really nice photo of the CBD while waiting for em..



we went to e esplanade 'hawker' & eat again aft they go off work.. haha.. aft tat i went to meet my fren to go to new asia bar.. its e 1st time i went there aft they haf changed to a club.. e music is really weird, sometimes its R & B, den sometimes its trance or house.. there's like no theme at all.. e crowd there is oso much older n gt more ang moh.. erm.. thk the place is too old for me le.. but i still appreciate my fren for bringing me there.. hehe..

aft an hr of not being able to move to e music, we finally gave up & decide to leave & go meet another grp of frenz @ opium bar.. its one of my fav bar in singapore.. i really love the ambience there.. hehe.. we jux chill out there n i thk i tok alot of crap because of e alcohol again..

we leave the place quite early & walked ard the CBD area, chinatown & finally back to esplanade.. frankly speaking, its really quite nice to walk ard all that area at nite, it feels so diff.. we settled down at somewhere aft the Sheares Bridge.. its my 1st time there cox normally i will thk that the place is super far & HE always dun wan to walk so far down la.. but aft tis time, i thk i will go there very often cox its really relaxing & cool there....

went to gery's b'day party @ coco latte yest.. b4 going down to e club,. we meet each other @ orchard for our dinner 1st.. we had nydc for dinner & saw junyang there.. well, i only saw his back la.. haha.. edwin, ah yong, johnathan & desmond came to meet us in town 1st b4 going down too..

thk we reached there too early le.. cox the 2nd level where e party will be going on was not even open yet lo.. we muz wait downstaris 1st n wait for e ppl to open up e place.. finally, dan din pang se me tis time round n came for e party as promised.. he reached quite early la & left aft a while cox he was meeting his frenz @ double O for 2nd round..

as for me, i went down to eat wif lawrence aft he came w/o eating any food n looking damn pale la.. so me, anna, edwin, ah yong, lawrence, johnathan n desmond went down to eat.. haha.. but we did went back to coco latte b4 12 cox gery say they will be doing e countdown for her la.. but thk there was sth wrong wif e mic thus the countdown thingy was cancelled.. i was pulled up by her to dance wif her on e podium lo.. normally i will only dance at e podium when i am high but tis time round, i am not lo.. feel so pai seh la..

aft eating wif lawrence, i wanted to go up to coco latte n find gery one.. but dan had come over to fetch me to double o le.. so i went there wif him.. double O was playing house music yest lo, which is not really my style la.. i still prefer R & B.. feel quite awkward cox i duno how to move to e music @ 1st but eventually it was ok..

i went back to find gery @ 2 & was told there she was knocked out completely.. its e 1st time i saw her drunk among all our clubbing trip.. had to send her back wif edwin & jiji cox i really cant carry her on my own lo....

my sentosa trip was CANCELLED yest..... i haf been dying to go to Sentosa ever since i started my hols in may.. but now, i haven even go anywhere near harbourfront, let alone e island itself.. argh~~ tis is so devastating la..

in e end, me n gery met up & went to shop @ bugis village.. it was so fun shopping together wif gals.. we can kp on trying the clothes n look ard for as long as we want.. that's the kind of things guys wont do.. haha.. i am actually there to look for my working skirt but in e end, i bought 2 dresses, a knitted bikini & a few pairs of earrings but NO working skirt.. haha..


my 'zan li pin' from my shopping trip...

aft burning a small hole in my wallet @ bugis village.. we went to orchard cox gery wanna get her lingerie from blush & i wanna get the mask from basic beauty @ heeren.. can u guys believe that i bought a DOZEN boxes of mask @ one go.... & i had to bring them walking ard orchard.... but the mask is not only for me, half of em is for my mum one.... haha..

aft going to Scotts for gery's lingerie, we met lawrence & his frenz, desmond for dinner.. i wanna eat the chicken rice @ far east one but by the time we reached there, the chickens are all inside e stomach of others liao.... aft dinner, we went on to sing ktv @ party world until 1 am in e morning...

as for today, i can finally stay at home n acc my mum le.. but... i din really stay at home la cox we went out to cwp to eat n shop again.. haha.. had fei cui for brunch & e Gelare waffles during tea time... its so so sinful rite.. haha.. no wonder my tummy is getting bigger n bigger by the day.. hehe..

was toking to andy on e phone jux now.. he told me he saw HIM yest n thk he is not working @ the ice cream stall anymore.. well, felt like contacting HIM & catch up wif him.... suddenly realised that we are so distant now.. haf to know wat's happening to him n wat he is doing thru another person lo.... its so weird...