i am feeling really suffocated.. i need my breathing space.. why cant u guys understand & kp on pushing ur limits?????

i cant find anymore excuses for u guys saying that wat u are doing n saying to me is because u guys care for me n worry abt me... i cant find anymore excuses convincing myself that how u guys are treating me now is because of e recent chain of events.. i dun mind being that person tat u guys vent ur frustration at once in a while but not ALL THE TIME... get a life & GET OFF MY BACK~~~~

i haf been staying at home as much as possible n rotting for like duno wat.. it has been 2 wks & i am like behaving e ways u guys wan me to behave but wat did i get for exchange n return..... setting of curfew by u, checking n calling up on me b4 the curfew time 2 make sure i reach home by den... i am constantly walking on e rope, fearing that if i go out i might annoy or anger u guys.... thus i try not to go out unless its necessary.. but all tis only makes u all wan for more n ask for more..

i try not to argue or say anything when u guys scold me or nag at me.. even when my dad started saying those really nasty things out, i try to control my anger by not saying anything defensive of myself.. but that doesnt mean that i haf no feelings or stand n i am in the WRONG~~ i am beginning to thk that by keeping quiet does not make things beta.. instead it only makes them thk they are always rite.. i haf had enough....... tis is really too much n they are really overboard...... when can they stop pushing me n leave me alone... i need my breathing space n freedom... i am a human oso.. i haf my life n stop pushing my limit.....

wats the KEY for if it does not open the door to freedom & democracy?? i hate my FUCK UP life now~~~