conclusion~~~

in another few hours time, this yr will be coming to an end... was reading a few of my past months entries, trying to do a wrap up & conclusion for this yr... realise i had experienced alot of different type of feelings.. from those that i am familiar with in e past to those that i only started to encounter them this yr...

its a very eventful yr for me.. thk alot of ppl might not went thru wat i had at all.. is that blessing in disguise for em not to?? erm.. well, it depends on how u see it ba.. its really a beautiful memories that will enact itself in my mind forever.. from the start we all know that its sth that will not have any happy ending.. sometimes i felt that it ended too fast after all we had gone thru.. but a frenz word enlighten me today... now, i am glad that we end it earlier & i am really appreciative of his decision to let go of me at that pt of time.. if not, the pain will be even more & things might haf turned uglier.. i admit the pain is unbearable but at least its reduced to its minimum....

other than r/s stuff, its my life... work life, sch life etc... work life was great, i haf a wonderful & fun loving bunch of colleagues.. wat's not so gd is the after event which caused the company to get suspended & my pay, not coming in yet even until now... this further complicate my sch life which requires me to pay my sch fees other den worrying about my stupid modules which i find it difficult to catch up with... even if i am on a lambo, i doubt i am able to catch up with wat the lecturer are teaching... they seem to be manoveuring a spacecraft!!!

den its my family.. a few things happened but it makes our family much stronger.. we have developed a bond which we have never had b4.... we are closer now, talking to each other more now & listening to each other more also... i am having the most wonderful & precious gift in this world.. my family... they are my motivation, the ppl that kps me moving & alive.... dun thk i am such a strong person, i did felt giving up on myself & my life b4.... the tots did flashed across my mind but it din stayed long...

frenz are another source of support for me.. they were there helping me, trying to help me & listening, giving me advice when i needed it the most... this is really a tough year... i hope that everything will be better in e yr to come & i can leave everything behind.....