Yes I am back to genting once again.. have been wanting to come here for months & finally have a chance to do so with my parents….
Tonight is my last night here for the hols & also my last night here for the entire 2007.. in another 2 more days, we will be stepping into a brand new yr.. everything that had happened this yr will be a thing of the past, just like him to me no matter how I wish that will not be the case.. he is my perfect type of guy… the bf whom I wished I will have when I was young… fulfilling most of my expectations of a guy but just too bad, he is not available for me.. well, thk gd guys are just hard to come by & even if they do, they are taken…. Haiz…
Oh… I did a very stupid thing today.. thk it’s a subconscious thingy.. I am staying on the 26th floor of tower 2 which is a floor below the room of where we used to stay.. I did tot of going up there to walk along the pathway once again but rationality stop me from doing so… this afternoon, when I reached the lift lobby, I duno why I go n press the ↑ button when I should press the other one.. so I just leave it to fate to decide which way I should go by seeing which direction lift will reach 1st but in my heart I was praying the ↓ one will come 1st.. well, I supposed heaven just wan me to face the whole thing for e one last time bravely.. e lift came & I went up to the 27th floor, alone this time round, taking the same old pathway to the room where we used to stay…. ( thk I am just practically sick la… ) not feeling wat I tot I am supposed to feel… just some flash back of the memories & that’s it…
I went downstairs as if nth has happened.. but another coincidental thing happened.. guess no one will believe it or if anyone do, they will thk I am very bo liao also... hee… already felt very stupid for going up to the 27th floor le.. dun wan to make myself seems more n more like a loser.. so this will be kept as a secret…
The weather here tis time round is not as cold as the previous times I came but to me, I cant even stand going outdoor for 5 min, let alone like last time, sitting outside for an hour listening to my mp3…
A lot had happened during this 1 yr period… its like a roller coaster ride for me.. within this short period of a yr, I have tasted almost all the feelings & gone through a lot which someone might not have gone through for their entire life… I have grown up a lot because of all those things that I had went through & I wanna thx those ppl who was there contributing to what had happened in my life… be it those who hurt me or be it those who have helped me through.. I just wanna thx em for playing a part for wat has become of me now…
A brand new yr will be going to start in another 2 more days.. for those who wanna contribute their share in my life, better be fast cause I am gonna devote most of my time or should I say all of my life on my studies & family… that will be my new yr resolution which i will make sure to fulfil it.. :)
Tonight is my last night here for the hols & also my last night here for the entire 2007.. in another 2 more days, we will be stepping into a brand new yr.. everything that had happened this yr will be a thing of the past, just like him to me no matter how I wish that will not be the case.. he is my perfect type of guy… the bf whom I wished I will have when I was young… fulfilling most of my expectations of a guy but just too bad, he is not available for me.. well, thk gd guys are just hard to come by & even if they do, they are taken…. Haiz…
Oh… I did a very stupid thing today.. thk it’s a subconscious thingy.. I am staying on the 26th floor of tower 2 which is a floor below the room of where we used to stay.. I did tot of going up there to walk along the pathway once again but rationality stop me from doing so… this afternoon, when I reached the lift lobby, I duno why I go n press the ↑ button when I should press the other one.. so I just leave it to fate to decide which way I should go by seeing which direction lift will reach 1st but in my heart I was praying the ↓ one will come 1st.. well, I supposed heaven just wan me to face the whole thing for e one last time bravely.. e lift came & I went up to the 27th floor, alone this time round, taking the same old pathway to the room where we used to stay…. ( thk I am just practically sick la… ) not feeling wat I tot I am supposed to feel… just some flash back of the memories & that’s it…
I went downstairs as if nth has happened.. but another coincidental thing happened.. guess no one will believe it or if anyone do, they will thk I am very bo liao also... hee… already felt very stupid for going up to the 27th floor le.. dun wan to make myself seems more n more like a loser.. so this will be kept as a secret…
The weather here tis time round is not as cold as the previous times I came but to me, I cant even stand going outdoor for 5 min, let alone like last time, sitting outside for an hour listening to my mp3…
A lot had happened during this 1 yr period… its like a roller coaster ride for me.. within this short period of a yr, I have tasted almost all the feelings & gone through a lot which someone might not have gone through for their entire life… I have grown up a lot because of all those things that I had went through & I wanna thx those ppl who was there contributing to what had happened in my life… be it those who hurt me or be it those who have helped me through.. I just wanna thx em for playing a part for wat has become of me now…
A brand new yr will be going to start in another 2 more days.. for those who wanna contribute their share in my life, better be fast cause I am gonna devote most of my time or should I say all of my life on my studies & family… that will be my new yr resolution which i will make sure to fulfil it.. :)
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