feeling damn tired tis days even though i haf 8 hours of slp.. apart from feeling tired & need to stone, there's no other feelings le... someone ask me why am i pushing myself like tat?? erm, is tat consider as pushing myself?? seriously, i duno lei...

well, mayb in e eyes of others, i am doing tat ba.. on my side, i duno wat am i doing also.. isit because of family, wanna fight n build up my career so tat i can haf a better path to walk in e future or isit because tat's e only way to numb myself from all e other feelings except tiredness...

dun worry guys, i am not like last time when i breakdown w/o me reasling at all... from that incident onwards, i know myself beta.. i know i am not as strong as i seem & i do need help n a listening ear....

getting fatter & fatter tis days.. wat to do.. office work will make a gal become fatter & esp i am working in a all guys environment.. they will eat no matter wat one lo & i am those very easily succumb to temptation type.. eat is ok lei, worse thing is i dun haf time to exercise at all!! gt input & no output... jia lat....

went for tuition & self-courier jux now.. haven been leaving office ard 5 plus at all.. today is e 1st time.. felt abit weird ah cause most of the time when i come out of e place, its already dark le.. 1st time i see e sun shining brightly when i left.. haha..