it has been a yr.. a yr since i know him.. actually yest is the actual day but i jux dun haf the mood to come n blog.. i know if i do so, i will feel down once again.. within tis yr, alot of things has happened.. can it considered alot?? well, it seems like.... but wat abt achievements?? duno lei..

for the past few days, i kp on thking abt how we 2 started? how we contact back each other aft the incident... 3 mths time which is equivalent to a quarter of a yr.. tat's when everything started... looking at the duration, it seems very long rite.. yeah, it sure us but everytime when i thk it, it seems like it jux happened yest.. the memories are still quite vivid to me... although most of the time i will say tat it seems like a dream to me..

well, mayb at tis pt of time i still cant believe tat he actually reciprocate my feelings ba.... it sure is very unbelievable on my side.. cause all along, i knew very clearly tat he only treat me as a 'xiao mei mei'.. he make his pt very clear already.... on e other hand, i also know my stand.. i am not a very outstanding gal... standing in e crowd, i dun thk anyone will actually take notice of me.. i am jux like any normal gal on the street... is tis known as low self-esteem?? ha....

wat exactly am i feeling towards him now?? tat's one qns i cant find an answer to once again... at times will still feel emo when i listen to those songs & thk abt us... are all human beings like tat?? they like to be tortured... isit because tat's e only way to make em feel their existence?? but why mine will actually makes me tot i am living in a dream sometimes?? haha..

thk i am going a bit bonkers le.. kp on blogging those stuffs & repeating it.. erm.. well, thk i am still going in circle ba.. tat's why i kp on repeating those stuffs tat i haf said b4.. still in e midst of sorting out everything.. thk time is still the best healer in e world.. shall see how much time i need ba.. next time when u guys see me stop blogging abt all tis den u will know tat i haf walked out of the circle already.... so meanwhile, jux bear wif me 1st ba......

realise i haven been eating out wif my frenz tis days.. i miss SizzleRs.. i miss cartel.. i miss my nydc brownies.... i miss my yum cha buffet..... i miss alot of food lo.... argh~~ quick quick ask me out for dinner guys.... haha...