saw his nick today.. felt the impact once again but i duno how to describe wat i am feeling.. 你会好好过?? am i feeling tat way?? seriously i duno also.. nowadays apart from feeling stress & tired there's no other feelings le... is i dun feel anything or i dun wan to feel anything.. i really duno also...

am i happy & having a better life now?? well, if u measure happiness n better life in terms of stress n having no time at all.. den yes, i am very happy rite now... its full of prog, mostly linked wif work.. been going out wif colleague for e past 2 days but most of the time i jux stone there.. i felt more cheerful & happy when they are ard wif me as compared to when i am all alone.. cause tat time, i will be listenin to my songs & thking abt alot of things.. its not tat i am lazy n dun wan to use my brain at all.. its jux tat i am really too tired to use it already.. esp when i know all this pro cant be solved by jux thking abt it cause there's no conclusion at all.. e only best thing is not to go n thk abt it.. & the only time when i am doing tat is when i am occupied wif other stuffs....

i admit tat i am very stressed n tired now.. leading a life wif only work n slp.. not even going out to meet my other frenz cause i cant afford it at all... like wat qc say, for a gal, i seems to haf no life at all.. even my fav clubbing i also gif up le cause am really too tired for it..

i always believe the songs we listen reflect one's scenario at that pt of time.. tat's y i rather use songs to express myself cause sometimes its hard for me to differentiate n know exactly wat i are feeling...

really gt alot alot of things to tell him to ask him.. wondering whether he feels e same also.. but at tis pt of time, i dun thk it will help or mean anything ba.. mayb it will cause each other more pain only... also duno when will i be able to haf a nice chat wif him.. meeting up is a problem.. even when we meet, i also duno will i be able to express myself or not.. mayb i will jux end up like e past few times, become speechless n duno wat to say at all.... duno y, he jux has tis ability to stop me from saying how i really feel.... mayb i know tat wat i say to him will cause him more pain & i dun wan tat to happen ba....

i still rem tat in e past, i am really very selfish.. always saying things out n w/o going thru my mind... jux blurt watever i feel at tat pt of time, w/o thking how the other party will feel... tat time, i will still feel tat i am doing the right things for speaking my mind out but now i realise how irresponsible i am...

the song means sth but definitely not the title of it.. but i know, one day, there will come a day, this whole song will mean sth....