came back quite early today.. din go out wif teck in e end, last min sth cropped up at his side.. was quite surprised when he msg me n asked me out yest.. thk he muz be damn bored ba...

duno y, tis couple of days, my tots kp flashing back to e wk that we went to m'sia... if now was tat wk, wat am i doing n how i felt at tat pt... was reading thru my previous blog entries & my diary... the diary that contains all our memories in genting which i din post here...

actually, there are alot of posts tat i din post here.... its like a small secret space of mine, only meant for me to reminisce on the past n memories.... its also the most truthful thing cause i know wat i haf written will only be known by me... its not commercialise at all & i no need to scare tat wat i haf wrote will hurt or affect anyone in anyway except me.... so it will truly reflect how i felt at tat pt of time...

ever since writing it, i haven been going back to read it like how i used to read my blog... its like i haf forgotten all abt it le... its like it has been carefully hidden at some secret corner of my comp...... i am glad tat i actually record all those memories somewhere cause it further affirms tat all tis did happened... 1st time ever since the trip tat i felt wat had happened is so real.. all e minor details, how i felt during tat pt of time... everything is there.... there to remind me how fortunate & 'xin fu' i felt at tat pt of time.... even at genting, i am also not feeling how i feel now... its really very diff...... i jux duno how to describe it.... all e things tat happened there, all the pictures & details starts flashing thru my mind while i was reading it...

as usual, i......... haiz... isit because i am sad??? duno lei... mayb its because i know time wont go back for me anymore ba.. things only happened once in a lifetime, there's no rewind button...

aft reading wat i haf wrote, i realise i am actually very fortunate... i dun regret going there wif him... even though it does bring me alot of pain, unhappiness & sadness aft tat but it all worthwhile....