haven been coming to blog for almost a wk.. tat's because 1stly, i din come online aft my work tis days.. 2ndly, there's really nth for me to blog tis days... i am like feelingless.... not exceptionally happy nor sad... but occassionally, sth will still stir in my heart.. it will jux happen w/o any warning... in e day, in e nite, when i am alone, when i am wif my frenz.... any place, any time... tat's how complicated human feelings are & how penetrable memories are.. it can jux caught u as n when they like....

all that has happened b/w me & him are jux like a small ripple tat appear when a stone is being thrown into a pond & leaves no traces of it when the stone sinks... there are like no traces or watsoever abt wat happened 4 mths back... it seems like nth had happened b4... we are leading our own life as if we had never crossed each other's path b4... doing our own things, going out wif our own frenz wif no association of each other unless its necessary.... back to how he used to contact me once in a while in e past to catch up on each other's recent happenings.... well, tat might not be a bad thing aft all cause like tis, he will be happier as he gt a lesser source of trouble which is ME....

actually on my side, knowing tat i am not holding a special position in his life anymore makes me feel console cause i know in tis way, wat i haf done or said will not haf a large impact on him now.... well, frankly speaking who dun wish to hold a special place in someone's life?? but i am in a position tat will only bring him negative feelings so its beta for me to stir away from tat 'place' if possible.... no pt getting both party hurt in tis again....