i feel emotionally drained out..

i am feeling really tired now.. i am emotionally drained out.. i dun feel like thking abt anything anymore.. y life cant be simpler??

i jux wan to lead a happy life w/o much worries.. but y cant i haf tis simple wish fulfilled? i feel really really tired lo.. i jux wan to lead a life now without thking abt any problem, any matters... but can i?? i really duno lo.. i jux cant let go.. i know i am still holding onto sth....... n tis sth is really making me feeling very terrible n its really draining me out.. i feel so empty deep inside but on e other hand, my heart is filled wif sadness n helplessness... its so contradicting.. yes it is...

if we din break up, tis will be the mth when we will be celeb our 2nd yr anniversary le.. last yr due to his trip 2 taiwan, we dun haf a chance to celeb.. well, 'siang bu dao' that was e only n last chance we can celeb..... i miss him suddenly.. feel like seeing him.. haiz~~

life is so weird.. sometimes i really duno wat is dream n wat is reality.. wat is true n wat is illusion.. i am really confused lo.. i cant differentiate wat is real n wat is not.. or pratically i cant differentiate anything anymore.. i jux wan to rest.. hope the trip to KL tml can help me relax my mind n let me haf a clearer pic of wat i wan n need in life now.. wish me gd luck~~~