i met HIM today~~

woke up at 9 today coz i muz reached cine by 11 for our 02s2 gathering.. haha.. actually is jux a handful of us only la.. not e whole cls.. but it had been a long never ever since so many of us haf a gathering le.. really looking forward to it..

by 11 i reached le.. only see bao ge ge & ah shu there.. e others as usual, were late... we went in to sing 1st.. it was really fun, never hear em sing b4.. fatty neo can sing quite well sia.. haha.. andy n e others jux stone there.. only me, ah li n ah shu kp singing.. haha.. & that ah ma, din come at all lo.. still say wan gathering but in e end din turn up..

he reached n meet me at e ktv wif my jc frenz.. actually they all know each other one.. meeting him at e lift there i was like feeling quite alrite n stuff lo.. not so jia lat like how i met him last time le.. thk time is really e best healer ba.. aft e ktv session, we went to subway n acc bao ge ge they all eat.. during e session me n him din talk at all lo.. he was sitting at e other side of e room..

teck n me left em for dinner on our own at cartel.. we walk from cine to ps... was toking n updating abt our life on our way there.. looking at him, its like nth has ever happened b4.. we still behave like how we used to be when we are a couple, jux that now we cant hold hands n hug each other le.. there is this restriction n limit which we cant cross over lo.. at times i still cant believe we haf broke up..

i still feel very comfortable wif him.. there is no tis awkward feelings which i should be experiencing like wat my fren told me.. my feelings for him now is definitely more den jux a fren.. i still haf some feelings towards him lo.. but i dun thk we will ever get together again liao ba.. it seem like we feel more comfortable the way we are now.. mayb its because i dun haf any expectations towards him le ba.. when u dun haf any expectation u will be happier lo.. why now den i start to realise that? n i am wondering is he feeling e same towards me oso??

he acc me to take train back.. everything was like how it used to be b4 we get together.. how we used to study in town n him acc me taking train back to woodlands.. how i wished time can go back to e past.. when i was alone walking back home from cwp, i felt so lonely n empty deep inside me all of a sudden.. mab tis is e after effect of ex-bf n gf meet aft they broke up ba.. u will cant help but kp thking how things haf changed le.. how different things are now.. i hate tis type of feelings lo.. really hate it.. is he feeling e same too?? i duno.. really duno..

2 yrs back we sort of started our r/s n 2 yrs later, we are back to frenz again.. i feek so terrible again now.. really terrible lo..