heard tis song when i went to the ktv wif him.. din really catch the lyrics until today... it jux describe wat happened to me last wk, when i was at genting.. wat's diff is the days tat i wanted everything to go back to the past.... ha....

realise wat am i doing there at that pt finally aft reading the lyrics.. i thk i totally dun understand & duno how to express myself now.. only when listening to the songs den i know at tat pt of time, how am i feeling... its like so pathetic....
tat's some of the lyrics tat i thk fully express how i feel but i only manage to realise it now...

自以为是的从容...不想你把心放空....却忘了旅行终究得回头.... 我在回来时把倔强遗忘在入境的门口...再也无处可躲满身的失落... 没有你的我终于开始感到寂寞...过去这期间我的无所谓...全都是谎言....

i overestimate myself, thking i can jux heck care abt everything.. in order not to thk & feel the pain, i empty out all the feelings inside my heart... but i forgot tat every vacation will end no matter wat, i still mux come back to face everything... i always say n tell myself i mux leave everything behind once i am back... i did to some extent & felt sth which i cant explain.. now den i know wat tat feeling is.... watever i did & said during tis period are all lies.... lies tat should be said to let everything go the way it should go.....

finally manage to haf some time on my own today.. haf been going out since the day i came back.. gt a chance to slp until quite late today & slack ard at home.. will be having a very busy wk ahead.. dun thk haf the change to slp & laze ard until weekend le.. wan to make myself very busy, only like tis i will not let my mind go & thk abt other stuffs... at least its a healthy way to forget abt things rather den drking...

the genting thingy has sort of finalised le.. will be going to book the tour package on tue if nth crops up.. but the room thingy still haven settled.. shall see how it goes over the days...