sitting at the starbuck at the indoor theme park now.. in front of me is the ferris wheel that i always love looking at.. its really very beautiful.. too bad, its indoor, or else i thk it will be damn gorgeous.. mayb its the lighting or mayb its due to the myth of the ferris wheel.. haha.. gals will always be gals...

rem the phobia that i told u guys abt?? i was having it tis morning when we were on our way up here to genting.. taking the same old route as the past but things are damn diff.. felt quite emotional during the journey.. tot i would feel worse when i am up here... well, i did... but its not as bad as i imagined it would be...

pass by some of the places & some memories flashed back.. its not as hard as i imagined also.. mayb i din really go n thk abt it also.. now i am like quite normal, not really feeling anything.. i really duno isit a gd thing or not.. i am here to find back myself but i am now like doing nth & thking abt nth at all.. its more like a relaxation trip & a trip tat let me come here to 'tao bi' the reality & not facing it at all..

i am jux like my normal self.. doing all those normal things tat i will do when i am here wif my family wif occassional memories of him & me flashing pass my mind when i pass by some places.. din really specially go to the park n stuff cause i dun thk my mum will let me go there alone.. but.. i nearly did a stupid thing today.. i nearly walk to the room that we stayed here e other time... haha..

dun thk i will be going back anytime soon.. haven really fulfil the purpose of me coming here.. eh.. actually i duno lei.. thk i am still at the blur n confuse state ba.... going back to the casino aft this.. pray tat i will win ba... hehe..