took a nap at e hotel tis afternoon.. the life here is super relac... really can make u forget abt everything, dun feel like leaving here at all.. cause the moment i leave here, i mus face everything again back in spore.. be it work, studies or other stuffs... really am afraid i will once again feel suffocated when i go back to S'pore... tat's y i mux come here more often since i am having the free room stay wif em... hehe... finally understand why my mum love to come here....

managed to walk ard today.. my mum has gone to the theme park wif my sis, so left me all alone w/o nth to do.. so decide to walk to the park since i gt the time.. taking the same way e other time but tis time i am walking alone.. actually i am quite afraid to go back there cause for the past 2 days, i am trying my best to suppress all the feelings n stuffs le.. finally, everything has sort of settled down more or less... so i am scare when i go back there, i will stir up those feelings again.. but jux like wat i say, i wan to settle everything b4 i went back cause aft tat i dun wish to thk abt it anymore.. the best way to do tat is to face it so i went...

did felt sth... sth did stir up n mess up my finally calm down emotions alittle... mayb tis time round, i went in the day.. no fog, no wind n stuffs like the other time.. or mayb i have done a gd job in suppressing my feelings le..tat's y its not as bad as i tot it would be... eh.... actually i also duno la.. i duno is tat my true feelings or isit a feeling i felt under the circumstances...

went to the KTV wif my sis.. of all the 100 over rooms there, the waitress brought me to the same one which i went wif him last time.. i thk either heaven is really making fun of me or he is trying to test my limit... i haf gone to the civics centre KTV for so long & never go back to the same room everytime... but tis one, i only went twice & both is the same room!!! tis really reminds me of our time spent there.. argh~~~ thk i jux cant run away from all tis....

i haf always wanted to go into the outdoor theme park at nite cause everything looks really beutiful wif all the lightings, esp the merry-go-round & spinner.. as far as i rem, the theme park closes at 10.. but the other time when i came wif him, it closes at 7 lo.. thk really no fate to go in wif him.. tis time round, manage to go wif my sis.. its e 1st time i went in there at nite... its quite nice & as usual, its very cold.. but i jux love the cool tinge the breeze leaves on my face.. it really perks u up & 'blows' away ur worries....

sth happened b/w me & my bro.. nearly caused me to cry & carefully kept emotions to burst out... no one was wif me to comfort me or share all tis wif me... dun wan to tell my mum abt wat happened cause thk there's no pt telling her.. might make things worse onlly.... felt damn lonely, helpless & useless at that time.. thus, i broke a promise that was supposed to be kept... mayb u can say tat's an excuse but well.......... nvm.....

really felt very relunctant to leave here.. can i jux stay there for like a mth.. haha.. well, genting is jux like a human's heart.. ppl comes n goes.. its jux a matter of how long they will stay only.. no one will stay there forever ba... at 1st, they are jux curious abt the place so they thk its interesting & wants to stay longer... but as time passes by, they will realise tat, its not as interesting as they tot it is in the 1st place.. there's no more 'xin xian gan'.. tat's when they start to look for other places for 'hols'.... haha.. wat a weird analogy rite??