yes, i feel like a failure now.. n i really regretted for not studying during my A-level n indulged in r/s instead... jux like playing chess, u jux only need to make 1 mistake n that's the end of u.. now i finally understand wat it means already.. jux 1 wrong decision n ur whole future is ruin...
i really duno wat to say n do now.. i am in nowhere now.. i felt so lonely lo.. i felt so stupid.. esp aft how he treats me recently, i really thk that all my sacrifices for him is for nth lo.. argh..... really feel like dying now.........
den he sms me again.. asking me whether we are still fren anot yest.. i din reply him on sun when he sms me that.. now i oso duno wan to reply him or not.. i duno he sms me bcoz he do care for me or bcoz he is jux feeling guilty towards me.. i felt like asking him does it matter now? but i din coz i know sms him that n he will not reply me.. so its quite redundant to sms him oso lo.. for now, i jux know that he had hurt me real deep lo.. n he knows that lo.. so y he bother to sms me again?? he already can dun love me in jux a wk time le, y should he still care? mayb u all will thk that bcoz he really treasures me as a fren coz we started out as a fren.. haiz.. i oso duno lei.. i jux feel that y should he bother to sms me lo.. can anyone gif me e possibilty y he did that??
i am so confused now.. i felt like confronting him or ask him y he bother to sms me aft wat he said to me? but i know he wont reply one lo so i dun bother to reply him.. aft all tis yrs, i know that no matter wat i ask him, he will not ans one lo.. so now, wif this type of thking n experience, i jux dun wan to ask anymore lo coz i thk its jux a waste of my time.. u all can understand ma??
frankly speaking i dun haf any ans for e qns he asked, whether we are still fren or not? i really duno e ans lo.. i haf no ans myself oso.. at times, i jux feel like telling him i duno, esp aft how he treated me aft we break up.. but i din.. coz i thk that is even worse den not replying him lei..
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