when it is time to let go, u muz jux let it go.. now, the time has come

ya.. its time to let go le.. & i haf let go of it le......

1st time out of love.. 1st time feeling so devastated.. everything is 1st time coz he was my 1st love.. e 1st guy whom i haf fallen so deep n hard for.. e 1st guy who taught me how to love n wat is e feeling of being love.. but he was oso e 1st guy who hurt me deeply n the most......

today was the last day as his gf and calling him dear.. from tml onwards, the title of his gf will not be mine anymore.. i will be jux a fren to him from now on.. i never regretted being wif him.. He is the 1st person who taught me wat love is and loved me.. I will never forget him & how we 1st kissed.. never ever will i forget it..

he was really cold to me today.. his tone, his attitude, suddenly i felt that he was a stranger to me.. he was not e same guy whom i have known for 3 yrs n been together for more den 19mths.. my heart really froze when i heard his voice.. i can only felt coldness in his icy tone.. his indifference to my feelings & how he rejected to meet me no matter how i beg him made me felt for e 1st time that i am beta off dead now..

i had always put down my pride down as a gal n went to his house whenever he dun wan to meet me aft a cold war.. he was not e typical guy who will pacify his gf when she was angry.. instead his gf had to call him n like beg him to apologise to her.. i forsake my pride everytime.. finally today, i thk it was time for me to preserve my pride for the last time.. i din went to meet him at his house as promised.. i called him on e phone n initiate sth which i leave it for fate to decide yest.. it was oso e reason why i wanted to meet him as i thk sorting n settle it face to face is beta..

he din even ask why and jux agree to it.. actually from e way he talked to me earlier on, i already knew wat was in his mind le.. he was thking abt it too.. we ended our 19mths r/s in a conversation that lasted only 2 min at most.. that is how worthless our r/s was...

i am really tired liao.. really really tired le.. tired of all e asking i haf to make, the waiting, the crying, the feeling of disappointment everytime he din fulfil his promise.. all this feelings is really too much for me.. its weighing on me n i cant breathe.. i need a long break.. and i will need a long time to recover.. wish me gd luck k..