yes.. i am praying deep down inside that he will not contact me.. i dun wan to be wavered again.. i am trying to forget him n slowly let my hope for him disappear.. so now, i really hope that he will not come into my life n disrupt my plan again..
i finally wake up le.. i finally accept that he really mean wat he say.. he will not come n find me unless its necessary n he will not ask for a patch no matter wat one.. i am believing his word more n more.. the truth of him not going to ask me back is becoming more real although it had been real all e time, jux that i am jux hanging on n believe that he will change for my sake.. i heard someone say b4, the most stupid thing a gal believe in a r/s is she believe that the guy will change for her sake because he loves her.. now, i agree to tis sentence.. guys will never change one 4 gals one, they will only change for themself..
i thk i need time to recover now.. mayb time is really the best healer in the world for r/s.. erm.. let's hope nxt time scientist will invent a potion that will make us forget our unhappiness when we are out of love.. hee..
now i jux wan to fulfil my dream as a model n air stewardess.. its time for me to thk of myself n not him anymore le.. over e past yrs, my life was all abt him.. now its time to stop le.. although its hard but i will try my best to adapt.. life is not a bed of roses, but i believe i will find my bed of roses soon..
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