it was our supposedly 20th mth anniversary today.. on 21st oct 2003, we started our r/s n our journey together.. it was a tue.. and today is oso a tue.....
i cried almost every nite from e day we broke up till now.. i jux could not accept that we had broken up le.. n e thing that made me most upset is that weeks ago, he was still e nice, loving n caring bf of mine.. but a few days back when we met, he was like a stranger n was really very cruel n heartless to me.... it really makes my heart chill again......
i had such alot of mixed feelings today.. although i went to jb wif my mum today, but my heart was some where else.. even in her presence, i will still thk abt him as today was really a very special day.. i thk abt every small details that we share over e yrs, esp those happy ones.. n how every mth he will sms me happy anni on our anni day but today i will not receive any sms from him..... deep down inside, i will still hope he will sms me today... but from how i understand him in tis aspect, i know he will never do that one.... everytime i thk abt him, tears will jux wan to force their way out of my eyes... n i will haf to try my best to force em back...
suddenly at one pt, i jux xiang tong le.. i muz move on.. breaking up wif him n him not loving me anymore is a fact that cant be changed le.. i haf to accept it n leave our r/s behind n move on.. there is no way to change anything at tis pt of time.. mayb its fate.. we started our r/s on a 21st tuesday nite n now i haf to 'end' it on a 21st tuesday nite oso.. let me use tis last few mins of today 2 thk of him n our r/s 4 e last time.. from tml onwards, everything regarding our r/s will become a past n i will jux leave tis beautiful memory inside my heart....
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